20030531
|| have you ever loved and lost somebody wish there was a chance to say "im sorry" ||
last night was the worst night ever! did not go for cathetism. thats not the bad part in fact that was the good part but then!
alexander!!! walao eh. you actually did that to me online yesterday?! i tell you i had a hard time last night okay! walao eh never met anyone as desperate as him before! you got me into beeeeg trouble! okay lah not exactly your fault but i tell you he really really desperate! and you said that there are so many desperate gals? i seriously think there are more desperate boys mans! haha okay.
today in the morning i woke up i started crying. dunno why also but i just started crying! maybe it is because of erm nvm dont wna say it here lahs. haii really miss the times mans. okay anw just now was studying like siao. then at first when i started studying then i could not remember anything that i studied so i asked my dad to bring me to popular to buy notebk. then i went there and buy loh. my dad had mood swing all cos of my
idiotic brother! he damn it irritating can! actually wanted to eat delifrance then after that changed our mind then wanted to eat macs then my brother lah made my dad angry in the end ended up eating at the foodcourt. haii. oh wells. now having sore throat. then i sound sick sian mans. then after we paid the money for the parking my brother crossed the road without look and he almost got knocked down by a car! walao eh i tell you i was like frozen to that spot can! then luckily my dad pulled him away or not i might be crying now loh i mean although i really cant stand him at times he is still my brother after all right? so yeah he better be more careful loh!
just now was talking to jeff online then he said that i was suffering depression then i told him that i wanted to commit sucide then he was like i burn incense for you at home. walao like hello i am catholic anw we talked and talked loh then now not talking anymore yepps. anw erm jingyu hope you are feeling better okay dearie (: yepps dont think too much okay. yepps if it is because of that idiot (i think you shld know who i am referring to lah) then heck abt her okay she is just some fucking idiot so dont care abt what she say okay yepps. smile okay like what you always tell me. yepps. monkey not happy monkey not
pretty shuai already okay. yepps hehs. okay anw haii dont feel like studying lehs ltr still got like erm 10 chapters more to study?! sian mans.
cant wait for the mid year reviews to be over then i can go out with erm jenn chloe jingyu pauline erm still got somemore lah erm ru? yeah haha really cant wait yepps and pauline erm i wld ask my mum when she comes home ltr okay yepps ((: hopefully i can go lah anw i gtg now haii think i better start studying cos later i wont be able to finish studying so yeah. bye ((:
pauline: haha i type so long not good meh then next time i type short one lah but then i am trying to fill up the whole page mah so yeah haha anw sorry i did not call last night yeah really sorry. yepps and i wld ask my parents asap okay. yepps. iloveyou (:
jingyu: dont be too sad okay dear yepps iloveyou mei ((:
cc: erm haha got that frm an email so yeah might not be true lah i dunno hehs. anw tk care and iloveyou toos ((:
reen: so sorry today i did not know that you were still sleeping so sorry yeah. yepps hehs. paiseh.
17:36
20030530
okay today was quite a good day lah i suppose. yepps. erm in the morning went to put back attendance. on my way back saw jingyu and pauline. haha yepps i thought jingyu was not waving me me so i hit her. so sorry kaes? i really thought you weren't waving to me. sorry. yepps. then erm had english and erm music. yepps still dunno what to do for music. hais. okay then when i came out of music room saw pauline they all cos they were having dnt yepps. then hugged jingyu loh. yepps. ((: oh yah thanks for the letter jingyu was waiting for it for like erm 1 week?! hehs (: will try to reply as soon as possible kaes? and you never sign my guestbook! hurr. anw sorry wld be quite busy esp now. yepps. and dont think i would be coming online for the next week so if i dont blog or dont sign your guestbooks really sorry kaes? yepps.
and then had ipw period cos it was taken up during mass yesterday so yeah. haii sian loh that
idiotic miss quek took up the whole of our recess! but at least she nice enough to ask for us permission to go and buy food lah. yepps. ate so much today. haii! again loh. haii supposed to be losing weight! alot of pple say i am not fat but to me i am fat lehs and jenn i am fat! you are not okay! me so damn it fat fat fat! hehs. okay whatever!
then ate during chinese lesson. haha had ting xie think i am going to flunk it really terribly! haii my exams are like in 2 days time and here i am still using the computer and wasting my time like no one's business. hehs me not in the mood to study lahs. haii. hope i can get 6 a1's then i can get my colour phone! okay talking abt phone. my dad took my phone to use so now i feel so useless! it is like i hope no one messaged me cos ltr he go and read and later he reads my messages then i die! haii pls hope that he dont read the one from ... or not i really die! haha he just called it will not be my fault if my bills go up again! hehs. me so mean but nvm.
okay anw just did my dnt. just now so cool mans cos i dont think i wld be able to pass my dnt for the pencil holder thing so i went to ask for another wood. yepps hehs finally got mine! but i doubt i wld pass with flying colours anw. that mr ng is so nice not like mr tay! that idiot! cant he just pass me! damn it. okay me moody again. haii. anw me so poor thing okay! haii. okay heck abt me lah.
erm pauline asked me to go with her chua chu kang stadium on then erm when? next sunday arh? i'll try to ask my parents okay? yepps hopefully i can go and i am really really
desperate to cut my hair! ahhhhhhhhhh! so damn long and my end part is like qiao-ing up? so damn ugly can?! anw just got an email from stef yepps. hehs.shall post it here i am march. hehs...can go and check out what you are yepps. ((:
JANUARY: Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.
FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Showing anger easily. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Learns to show emotions
MARCH: Attractive personality. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret.
Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest.
MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint! . Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left b! rain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and
soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hu! rt but takes long to recover.
AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .
SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed.
Trustworthy, loyal and honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves him. Loves to takes things at the center. Attractive and suave. Inner and physical beauty. Does not lie or pretend. Sympathetic. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Soft-spoken, loving and caring Romantic !!! Touchy and ea! sily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong
clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable
DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.
17:57
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so happy! asked my mother to cancel tuition cos i did not want to get scolded and she cancelled it for me. haha sort of lah. yepps. anw was reading through my guestbook previous entries just now. haii was like sort of urm hui xiang dao na ge ri zi? haii. me now sad sad. haii. okay wld try to be happy which i dont think i wld haii. anw forgot to say that i was talking to reen the whole of last night. haha was teaching her math and then we started talking and talking. hehs she damn cute (: haha then today in the computer lab the thing which happened (only me jenn and erm jiaming knows) haha. so funny. reen very cute! haha ((: anw erm jenn just called so sian tmr have to go and meet OIC at 7.05 am?! i dont think i can make it loh! shit. then erm jenn said she thinks that we are going to have camp?! sian! haii i dont wna go lehs so tiring can?! haii anw dont want to think too much liaos cos haii got enough problems liaos lah. haii. now my idiotic brother irritating me
again! so irritating can! hurr.
21:37
|| iloveyouu (: ||
okay today was quite a nice day except it was so freaky! okay in the morning got back my history paper. i passed ((: yay. haha hope that i wld pass and i did haha but still got lower than that person (pauline you shld know lah). then i was so irritated with her loh. you know right when i asked her how much she got arh she keeps on saying that she got very very low okay! but in actual fact she got damn high loh i mean at least higher than me! hurr! damn pissed liao cant stand it liaos. okay shall cool down.
phew. okay then had pe ((: its the last pe lesson that we are going to have then mid year reviews liao. haii. sighs mans have not even started studying! okay. took height. haii me so short can?! haii. mans. this sux! after that we went to play captians ball? haha damn fun! but then leh now i got blisters on my BOTH feet! damn pain can?! haii. then i and jenn were like sort of walking back slowly to class haha cos we were like so sian and in the end we were still early. then on the way saw jingyu they all. i am so sorry okay did not mean not to say hi to you but then i saw you and then i thought you were not going to say hi to me so i just walked pass loh then i saw you waving at me then i wanted to wave back then you walked away. sorry kkaes? yepps.
then had science (bio) damn sian can. then that
stupid mrs lai (chem tcher). she took up 40 minutes of our recess time loh! okay in actual fact she took away 42 minutes of our recess time and then i could not eat! great. cos my blisters were hurting i asked jenn to help me buy bread. haii i did so badly for chem loh! sick loh i like failed so terribly! seondary life is really tough mans!
was talking to pauline and told her. haii so now you know right? but it is no use lah. haii. promise not to tell anyone okay! then later was talking to jingyu and pauline halfway i think then i saw mrs chan. cos she did not like the monitors to be late so i was like dashed back to class. luckily i got back before her or not i wld get a scolding again! my blisters leh!!! then in the end mrs chan was in bad mood then she saw the class so empty then i had to explain to her and i had to
run all the way to the canteen to call the pple back. and guess what some of them just ordered their food! then i felt my blisters burst! walao! this sux loh! and then erm had mass and i tell you that wanxin damn funny can. haha she's very funny but so mean! haha oh wells.
then later had to stay back to do the notice board! haii. then in the end did not get to do it cos the class room doors were locked! before we went back i went to eat. on the way back to class i fell down the steps! walao but then so sad cos i never sprain my ankle. if i did then can dont come to school! how nice! haha. ohkay then went to computer lab to use the computer cos reen was there. yepps. went online then was talking to this guy and celestia and my sister. yepps. and it was so freaky loh! i mean i only saw hannah and celine and beatrice and michelle coming in but then i did not see celestia then i was talking to her half way then i was like erm hannah and celine is opp me then she was like okay. then after that i was like are you at home? then she was like no i am in com lab too. then i was like which one? then she was like you sitting opp hannah right? then i was like how you know?! then i found out that she was in the same computer lab as me! and i did not even know that!??! i was like celestia you ghost one loh! haha.
okay then had a great time in the computer lab! haha talking abt reen and stuff. haha really funny. yepps then went to eat
again haii think i am getting fatter and fatter! help! just can help it. mans really wna lose weight liao. haii. okay i also wna shift one of my uniform's belt lower cos so damn high can?! okay then while eating saw jingyu again. thanks for the hugg ((: happy. sorry i did not stand up to hugg you hehs. paiseh. then saw pauline toos. haha. then while walking out of the canteen the book shop there i like sort of how to say twist my leg?! walao eh i tell you my leg today damn poor thing can?! haii. just me loh born to suffer anw. yepps. anw i hope to go and cut hair with jenn on thursday after our exams! haha cant wait. my stupid hair so long and UGLY! haii. and nat's hair length is so nice! love it loh. it is not too long or not too short and she hates it! cant believe it loh! haii. deaperate to cut my damn it hair! haha. snip it off! okay. anw gtg now. forgot to bring home my chinese textbook
again! just going to get a scolding from my tcher loh. haii. what to do. haii. haii. haii. oh wells. tk care and iloveyou ((:
jenn: thanks for the advice ((: love you gal loads hope we can watch movie together on thursday.
maybe somethings are not meant to be but today when you gave me the hugg i felt really great. thanks ((:
20030528
|| `love is unconditional ||
cant stand it anymore! ahhhh. now more and more pple are dao-ing me! damn it! shall name who here! sorry but yeah. they are celestia, jingyu, hannah, danfong, kelly...many more i think but yeah. cant stand it! think i am just going to commit suicide mans! ahhhhh. okay not so dumb to do something so dumb liddat haha. okay erm just now someone added me. haha erm he has our year book for last year cos he has sister in school?! ahhh! haha. oh wells i also have it was looking through it just now. haii all the memories of last year and the past few weeks all went through my mind. at least i know that there are pple that wld stay forever hopefully. yepps guess the two pple who are always trying to make me happy are
jenn,
pauline, and sometimes
jingyu but jingyu is always dao-ing me! haha if i did not hear wrongly she had to erm help miss choo buy food or something? dunno lah but now when you see me always dao me one! argh! haha oh wells cant blame you right? haii. anw erm today during recess time! hurr! that jingyu i tell you arh! okay shall not say it here! hurr! oh wells cant be helped. thanks jenn for giving me that advice. hahas yeah did it for this entry haha (:
erm then today that stupid zhong lah. i had to put back the attendance then i went to her lah then she did not even bother to call to find out if the absent pple were going to come or not or if what illness they got then she anyhow go and say they sick which nat was not! then i went to put back the attendance lah. then after that nat came to school loh and she was late because there was a jam! i had to walk all the way back and do all the stuff okay! walao eh! cant stand that stupid zhong mans heard she was leaving after june! haha hope she leaves sooner! then dont need to everyday see her blinking her eyes at me! one day i pissed off i go and gorge her eyes out arh! haha okay too kua zhang le! sorry.
then today my class made ms quek cry i think. ms quek just stormed out of out class and said that she dont wna teach us anymore. haii now i feel so bad although i was not the one who made her angry but i mean every year the class i am in always must make tcher cry one. last year our class made su lao shi cry then after that dunnoe lah but i know every year tcher always angry with my class ones. haii. hope ms quek is alright cos we made her a card yepps. hope she forgives us! or not we wld die loh. mid year reviews coming and we got no math tcher?!
now i am like slacking loh have not been studying. haii better go and study liaos. hahas. yepps. on monday is erm english and geog. haii hope i can get a1 for both of them. yepps. and just now on the bus was with mah ying fen and nat then we were talking abt erm yah lah cant say it here secret. -grins- hehs then after that we finally found out mah yingfen is a DESPO! haha no lah kidding hehs but. haha forget it. hehs. anw tk care guys and thanks for your erm consoling? yepps. haha. bye wld try to be happy which i guess i wld not. sorry but anw thanks. yepps. iloveyou (:
peiyu: heys! he is not that bad okay. just try to make friends lah. aiyoh why so...hahas anyway dont get offended cos i mean haha making friends is part of life. haha oh wells. (:
i know some things that are said cannot be taken back but yeah. haii. dont think too much. and i dont think i have ever left you.
17:46
miracles happen
Miracles happen, miracles happen
You showed me faith is not blind
I don't need wings to help me fly
Miracles happen, miracles happen
I can't imagine living my life without you now
Not ever having you around
We found our way out
(on you I can depend)
Don't have to look back to realize how far we've come
There are million reasons
I'm lookin up
I don't want this to end
Nothin
Nothin should ever bring you down
Knowing what goes around will come around
You showed me faith is not blind
I don't need wings to help me fly
Miracles happen, once in a while
When you believe
(miracles happen)
You showed me dreams come to light
That takin a chance on us was right
All things will come with a little time
When You believe
There is no question we found the missing pieces
Our picture is completed
It's fallen into place
(it's fallen into place)
This is our moment, you and I are looking up
Someone is watching over us
Keeping me close
Closer to you everyday
Nowhere
Nowhere on earth I'd rather be
No one can take this away from you and me
You showed me faith is not blind
I don't need wings to help me fly
Miracles happen, once in a while
When you believe
(miracles happen)
You showed me dreams come to light
That takin a chance on us was right
All things will come with a little time
When You believe
(When you believe)
The soul is a shining light
(When you believe)
The heart has the will to fight
You can do anything, don't be afraid
We're gonna find our way
You showed me faith is not blind
I don't need wings to help me fly
Miracles happen, once in a while
When you believe
(miracles happen)
You showed me dreams come to light
That takin a chace on us was right
All things will come with a little time
When You believe
20030527
|| things aint the same anymore huh ||
today in school was not an exactly great day. well it hasnt been good. haii dunno why also. just now went for english remedial. found out that it was actually quite fun. mrs chan is such a nice tcher! yepps. and half way while talking we talked about suicide! jenn! can you imagine how i felt? only jenn knows how i actually felt. haii. but then my day sort of got spiced up lah cos bernice (ang) was sitting beside me and she was so funny! haha. then after everyone left only me, bernice and peiqi was left then dunno how come we talk and talk, talk until giving birth! oh yah i remembered! we were talking about the hospital then mrs chan told us about her when she had to cut open her erm dunno whats that called to take her son out. hahas. yepps. sorry my english damn lousy so i dunno how to say it in correct words. hehs. paiseh. i very stupid ones. anw, it was pretty interesting. did not know that it was so painful and torturous! <---paiseh if i spell wrongly. yepps. now i know. hahas. my mother said that among the three of us that she gave birth to, i was the most hard and painful to come out cos i was so fat! haha. just like now. haii i am so freaking fat loh! shit loh and somemore i still eating during recess. haii so fat still eat and eat. haii i just cannot resist. mans dunno how i am supposed to lose weight! have been stressing myself cos i am suffering depression now. hahas sort of lah. so i have been doing 150 sit ups in a day. in like erm 50 one minute than another 50 and another 50. yepps. haii think it helps me not to think too much about the things which have happened. yepps so i am stressing my body. hahas. me so weird right? yeah. i am weird. haii. anw just now in the bus was so boring till i almost fell asleep then i kept hitting my head on the window screen. think my head got bruise liao. haii pain loh. guess thats the reason why i have been becoming more and more stupid! haii. oh yah wanna thank
jingyu for waiting for me in the morning to put attendance. yepps. thanks. erm
shuyu you still can re-test for your 2.4km run? if you can then i would run with you okay. yepps! must tk care and
dont give up!
i need you so that i could die; i love you so and that is why whenever i want you, all i have to do is dream. all the good times and bad times all in my dreams. sometimes it makes me wanna cry sometimes it makes me wanna smile but in one way or another it is the only time i can see you once again. it seems that we are in a totally different world now.
17:02
run for cover
When blues, got me down
Then I, get turned around
I tend to, cut myself off
From things, I shouldn't run from
It doesn't really matter
Sometimes we run for cover
I'm always on the outside
Stabbed me in the back
Wanted things that I lack
Sticking to your ploy
Is this something you enjoy?
Publicity and insecurity
Just wanna be me
It's my need to be free
Chorus
It doesn't really matter
Sometimes we run for cover
I'm always on the outside (on my own)
You never seem to wonder
How much you make me suffer
I speak it from the inside
Looking right at me (at me)
Won't receive my plea (my plea)
Tell me what you mean (you mean)
I'm not what's on the screen (oh-oh)
Faking what will be (will be)
Fighting the fatigue (fatigue)
That's quite enough for me (for me)
Makes me wanna scream
(scream, scream, scream, scream, scream, scream)
Keep it to myself (Keep it to myself)
Chorus
It doesn't really matter
Sometimes we run for cover
I'm always on the outside
Keep it to myself (keep it to myself)
You never seem to wonder
How much you make me suffer
I speak it from the inside
Keep it to myself
(Keep it to myself) (on my own)
Chorus
It doesn't really matter
Sometimes we run for cover (on my own)
I'm always on the outside
Keep it to myself (keep it to myself)
You never seem to wonder
How much you make me suffer
I speak it from the inside
20030526
|| words cannot explain how i am feeling right now ||
thinking of you
and the love of our lives
in the sweet summertime
so sad but true (so true, so true)
we must leave it behind in our heart in our mind.
from April through September
bittersweet was the love that we shared don't forget I remember
today is not exactly a very good day but it was better than i thought it would be yepps. thanks for not ignoring me or something yeah. erm but i somehow feel that the whole world is going against me loh. i mean just now also. haii guess when you are feeling down the whole world is like against you and today all the tchers who taught my class all were in a bad mood. hahas like me. haiis dunno why lah it is just that...dunnoe how to express myself in words. feeling like so erm sad? yah. and it is like haii dunno lah then keep on stoning and forgetting things. haii like i am growing old so soon. and erm today yongzhen came back! hahas yay! finally got to see her hope she is doing fine now. yepps. tk care alrites?! yepps. and ahhhh! cant believe that i have to go for english remedial loh! i mean i know lah my english damn horrible one but haii. today already not in good mood then came and found out abt this damn it thing! ahhhh. oh wells i am just now smart enough! haii and today history make up lesson so boring. left while i was not supposed to hahas. sorry mdm chue but i guess you wont know i am apologising hahas oh wells hehs. (x oh yah forgot to add something during mass pe i was like somehow dunno lah but was trying to use that time to erm be happy i seemed as though i was enjoying myself but i wasnt. haii. dunno why it is like mian qiang one then laugh and laugh haii somehow i think that i have lost a certain thing in me. haii wonder if i wld ever get it back. i guess i wld not. guess it is all fate. happiness does not last forever so to everyone who reads this...
treasure everything that you have cos somethings which are lost cannot be taken back...forever.
erm it is not your fault okay? nothings your fault just wna blame myself. yepps dunno why also but yeah. dont need to kepp on apologising okay? it makes me feel so bad you know yepps and i somehow feel that sometime you like sort of dao me. haii but i dont blame you loh. yepps anw dont think too much okay cos wna see you happy everyday yepps. tk care and iloveyou always
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|| i'll be loving you forever ||
sometimes when i'm lonely i sit and think about you
and it hurts to remember all the good times
when i thought i could never live without you
and i wonder does it have to be the same
every time when i see you, will it bring back the pain?
go to this website. click
here. yepps the story really touching haii.
hmm guess today i was sulking in the morning cos when i went out in the morning then i was like stoning in the lift then my dad was like "eh why now u never smile?" then i was like...haii dunno lah. yepps trying to be happy. hahas. glad that we are still friends. x) thanks. yepps erm got nothing much to say lah but then in church today haii they were talking abt love loh. of all time this time?! haii then what the priest say is really true loh "when there is love there is no hatred when there is hatred there is no love so you cant have both at the same time" yepps. so i guess i wld try not to hate pple loh unless those really irritating ones. yepps like erm someone every one hates haha. x) maybe not really everyone but yah heck hehs. erm deleted that msg which was sent long time ago in like feb from ... lah. erm only pauline knows which one i am talking abt haha yepps. see i deleted it u know haha so now u wna delete yours? haha no lah kidding only. anw she was the only one who could see my hp but now i guess everyone can see it haha. yepps. got nothing really personal in it anymore sice i deleted most of them. haha. just now went to erm rivervale mall or something ate so much loh bought alot of sushi too yums. haha like spent over $10 ++ on sushi. haha guess we are really dying to eat it hahas. yepps anw now thinking of changing my layout asking my sister to help me with it cos she is the computer expert. yepps and i like the webpage i mad for tab. haha. guess it was one of the nicest i made. haha oh wells lucky gal. anw gtg now bye (: tk care everyone and good luck for mid year reviews and for all those having exams yepps. erm also posted a chinese song below damn nice.
21:11
an jing
zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
shui zhao de da ti qin
an jing de jiu jiu de
wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
wo dong wo ye zhi dao
ni mei you she bu de
ni shou ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
qian zhe ni pei zhe wo
ye zhi shi ceng jing
xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
ni yao wo shou duo nan kan
wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
wei shen me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
bu yong dan xin de tai duo
wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
ni yi jing yuan yuan li kai
wo ye hui man man zou kai
wei shen me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zuo ni
wo zhen de mei you tian fen
an jing de mei zhe me kuai
wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
shi yin wei wo tai ai ni