20031023
now i knw. ive put the past behind. im letting it go !
okies. today is a ok day la.
hahas. had assembly fer so long today ?
sat till my butt ached ! hahas.
ohwells. so happy !
onewisdom was 2nd fer the best class award !
hahas. wow ! in the WHOLE SCHOOL ?
lovee my class ! tht silly class !
ill really miss them nxt year !
esp whn yingfen and nicole's leaving ?
haiis. wld really miss them ?
ohwells. they'll still look us up i guess ?
duno la. anyhows,
cheered very loudly fer onewidom pple !
hahas. (:
talked alot abt tht FATTY !
hahas. so funny !
found out mre just now frm someone !
hahas. im going to tell amanda abt it tmr !
cant wait !
going to meet up wit all of them tmr.
to do the dance ? hahas.
fer talent time i think ?
duno la. but ohwells.
today had lets play ?
hahas. sounds so corny right ?
but it was ok la.
but i almst fainted ?!
like wth. played 4 games of captians ball ?
w/o rest lors !
i was so freaking tired !
now im sun burnt ! hahas.
face so redd ! :|
but im mre tanned ! hahas.
so happy ! i WAS very tan.
until we didnt have sj fer ages ?
thn i turned fair ? haiis.
but now sj going to start agn !
duno la. so sick ! haiis.
smemre training going to start soon ?
and like so tiring ?
though at times it may be fun ?
duno la. but ohwells.
tell you .. 133 SUCK !
i totally
hate her !
damn her mann ! she's soooo irritating !
wth. hate her to the core !
I HATE HER !
okok. have been talking to nick,
fer the past few days ?
he's been so nice.
listening to all my probs and vrethg ?
really wna say a beeg thnkyou here to him !
yupps.
thnks ! :D
fer listening to all my crap.
hahas :p
and gdluck fer your o's !
i knw you can do it ! (:
-hug.
aft sch had to bring thai pple arnd ?
our sch la. and intro ?
waliew. tell you !
suckk ! they all look so se4 ?
hahas. so scary lehh !
somemre i was wit 3 GUYS ?
ahhhh ! :| and i was ALONE ?
wth ! but they turned out to be ok la.
but they asked fer my add ?
of course i didnt give la.
gave the sch add ?
but wrong postal code ?
cos vanessa said dont need ?
hahas. thn put her postal code instead ?
hahas. was laughing like crap !
ohwells. but it was really an experience !
waited fer natnat.
in the end she come and tell me
she not going home ?
like wth. make me wait so long !
hmpfs ! but nvm la. hahas.
thn went dou4hua1dian4 ?
ate agn ! oh mann.
im getting fat ! :/
nvm. thn went to city link.
wanted to get smethg.
while walking out of the tapping card there,
there was this grp of sji guys or raffles one la.
they were like laughing ?!
thn they were like saying
'she purposely dont wanta look here !'
i was like rolling my eyes ?
whtevr lors ! :|
thn ltr on whn i was leaving
this grp of guys said
'ehhs ! ij girl lehh ! hahaha !'
i was like SO irritated ?
like whtevr ! damn.
guys these days getting really irritating !
except some la.
some are really nice ! (:
like my korrs ! hahas.
mms. thn came home.
came online.
talked to df ! tht silly girl !
well, hope she's feeling beta now !
cheerup k dear ?
yupps. hope you feel beta aft telling me ?
yea. tkcaree and i knw fer sure,
tht you can get ovr it soon ! (:
yupps. loveyou ! :D
ok. im off to study.
weird huh ? ltr have tuition ?
s i c k !
exams ovr alr lors !
my stupidd parents la ! waliew.
MUST have tuition ? damn.
kkk. i beta be going ! hahas.
cant wait fer tmr !
to tell amanda all abt FATTY !
hahas. so FUNNY !
-grins !
20:26
20031022
22:32
whn you say you love me,
do you mean it ?
whn you hold me,
do you feel it ?
shld i believe in magic in your eyes ?
i wld wait until the end of time,
to hear you say you love me,
like you mean it.
whn you hold me, make me feel it.
all i wna do is make you mine.
ive been hurt way too many times !
today is going to be short.
not in the mood.
really feel like crying now.
im really going to ..
drown myself in tears ?
i really feel so .. hurt ?
and at the same time guilty ?
and .. haiis. all sorts of feelings la !
all coming at the same time.
i really dontknw how to handle them ?
really feel so stressed wit absolutely
vrethg !
i really think tht ..
my life is filled wit mre sadness thn happiness ?
i seriously think im going to cry alr ?
im really very very VERY hurt ?
haiis. dontknw la.
its not only one thg. its so many !
its really too much to handle fer me ?
i duno la. but it just seems ..
haiis. forget it.
just nthg goes the way i want it to ?
nthg. esp whn im dwn ?
or worse. alone ?
like now. though its so noisy ?
ohwells. guess its just liddat ?
im just going to breakdwn ltr on.
went out wit
amanda.nat.danfong.karina.
took neos wit this machine.
while taking 8beam halfway,
tht machine brokedwn ?
wth. just like how im going to !
sighh. nvm.
thn the neos turned out to be qt ok la.
but obv i look horrible agn ? hahas.
not really la. ok la.
the pic are nice !
esp whn taken wit my close friends !
love them all plentyy !
esp nat and amanda !
todayy's our day ! hahas.
and we managed to go out tgt ! :D
so happy. but now come to think of it ..
the neos are really really nicee !
hahas. and i lovee df !
she knws so much !
alwis understand me ?
lovee her plentyy !
cant wait to talk to her ?
duno why. tht busy womann !
haiis. ohwells. dont wanta blog alr.
off to die ! |:
20031021
23:47
+ invisible
wht are you doing tonight ?
i wish i could be a fly on your wall.
are you really alone ?
still in your dreams ?
why cant i bring you into my life ?
what would it take to make you see that im alive ?
if i was invisible
then i could just watch you in your room
if i was invisible
id make you mine tonight
if hearts were unbreakable
then i can just tell you where i stand
i would be the smartest man
if i was invisible
wait .. i alr am
i saw your face in the crowd
i called out your name
you dont hear a sound
i keep tracing your steps
each move that you make
wish i could be what goes through your mind
wish you could touch me with the colors of your life
if i was invisible
then i could just watch you in your room
if i was invisible
id make you mine tonight
if hearts were unbreakable
then i can just tell you where i stand
i would be the smartest man
if i was invisible
wait .. i alr am
i reach out
but you dont even see me
even when im screaming
baby, you dont hear me
i am nothing without you
just a shadow passing through ..
i wish i nvr knew you
waliew ! JEFFREY WONG !
you
stupidd idiot !
purposely one right ?
fine la ! i knw you damn smart la !
whtevr la ! damn you !
stupidd ! arghh !
nvm. i didnt do
tht badly.
did fine.
cos of my results today ?
managed to pass all except dnt.
hahas. who cares la !
and gd news ! hahas.
i passed goeg ! OMG !
im SO happy ! :D
passed all sub la.
except sci and dnt.
its all chem's fault !
grr ! stupidd.
and this idiott had to come ..
and .. arghh !
stupidd la ! finefineFINE.
lee jingyu did beta thn me !
tht smart girl !
in so many thgs lors !
haiis. guess im really stupidd !
i mean .. evn others did beta thn me ?
sighh. ohwells. who cares la.
just study harder nxt year ! (:
yea. and im so
not
going to let some idiott put me dwn !
hurr. stupidd.
and this df ! had to come make me ?
fine la. tht bitch did beta thn me !
whtevr ! im so damn .. arghh.
fuckk ! i just hafta say it ! :|
stayed bek fer awhile only today.
whn pau left fer cca we also left.
went macs. qt packed.
but not wit sn girls.
wit duno wht sch one.
thn this grp of pple were talking abt us.
like whtevr ! so irritating !
thn this 2 man sitting behind us were so ..
scary ! keep looking and looking at us lors !
whtthefuck ? so irritating !
so irritated alr ! stare and stare and STARE ?
very fun ssit' ? damn.
forget it |:
thn left aft eating a lil'.
so early ! first time in duno how long !
hahas. i was carrying 2 boxes !
of tht cookies ? damn nicee but heavy !
somemre i had to take mrt home ?
cos didnt wanta wait fer the bus ?
haiis. tiring lors ! stood the whole time ?
ohwells. saw my sis's friend on the mrt.
didnt knw tht she was going to meet my sis ?
hahas. so coincedental !
anws, my parents didnt want me to go sch today.
they asked me to pon it !
hahas. i didnt wanta la.
of course ! dad was so kind.
sent me to sch today !
hahas. so sweet of him.
though i was the only one to go to sch ?
mms. ohwells. holland v starting soon alr.
off to watch tv ! hahas :D
20031020
too strong to fight it,
its love's reaction in amotion.
two hearts become one,
lovestruck `
shite my results !
did damn badly !
i never dreamt tht i wld get this kinda results ?
wth. damnit !
i shld have studied harder ?
yes i shld ! and now i knw !
im going to study study study !
yes im ! i promise !
im going to study damn hard for sec 2 !
i will ! i can do it ! yes !
im very very VERY motivated now !
nthg is going to stop me !
im going to work damn hard !
prove
some pple tht i can do it !
ok. im pissed ! VERY !
ill do well the WHOLE of nxt year !
i really will ! hahas :D
alright. i shall study damn hard.
time to study ill !
time to play ill play ! hahas.
yea. i just hope tht fer the rest of the papers,
ill do fine. yupps.
at least a pass ! yea.
and i hope, just HOPE
tht my chi wld pull me up ?
i hafta get above 55% fer my %tage ?
haiis. dontknw la.
not in the mood to blog anymre ?
sighh. ohwells.
miss having conference !
waliew. aiyahh. whtevr la.
im off to reply jingyu's letter !
hahas. im bored ! :|
ohh ! one mre thg !
hahas. i wanta say ..
ILOVEMYHUGGER ! :D
hahas. love her plentyy !
till the end of the world !
ill love her forevr ! whee !
hahas. -mwas !
loveyou darling (:
21:00
20031019
life is like a rollercoaster,
just gota ride it.
today is such a boring day ! |:
stayed at home pract the whole day !
waliew ehhs. BORED !
woke up early in the morn.
went fer mass.
mass today was nicee.
there was this grp of pple,
who came to perform.
they called themselves
for heaven's sake.
hahas. nicee name huh ?
their performance was qt nice la.
hahas. and the priest today was funny !
he was like telling jokes la.
but ive heard of them before.
but ohwells.
at least church wasnt as boring.
hahas. yea.
thn went for lunch at novena ?
go so far just for lunch ! hahas.
well, the food there not exactly nice.
but ok only la :/
not tht nice though. whtevr.
thn came home. ROT.
as usual la.
cldnt go out anws. haiis.
watched a lil' of my bro's cartoon.
wrote 2 letters. awful handwriting !
bleahs |: ohwells.
havent written in 5 days ?!
hahas. been lazing arnd !
exams over alr wht. hehe :D
thn somehow i was lying on my mom's bed,
i fell aslp. hahas.
took qt a long nap ! 150 mins !
woke up. came online.
helped amanda wit her blog.
now its done ! hahas :D
hope she likes it (:
yea. whee !
talked to reen on the fone for awhile.
heard she cut her hair ! (:
hahas. anws,
we're both gna die tmr ! :/
going bek to sch tmr.
going to collect
all our results ?
frm wht i heard frm siggy la.
just going to DIE ! thts why !
not only wld i ROT at home vreday,
ill also DIE sooner !
haiis. think im gna do real badly ?
very scared ! dont feel like schooling tmr !
ohwells. guess i hafta face the music ?
haiis. whtevr la.
hafta go offline alr. dad scolding
agn !
wth. vretime also liddat one.
use awhile complain.
use long also complain !
whtevr la |:
nites vreone ! and gdluck ! hahas :D
22:47