im fucked up, he's fucked up, she's fucked up, evryone's fucked up. wow. isnt that amazing how evryone can be fucked up all at da same time ? :/
anyhows, school wasnt as horrible as yesterday i suppose ? got back english compre. screwed it ? darn. this term sucks. my ppr's gna suck like HELL man. hurr. damnit. im really slacking now ? plus there's a chinese test tmrw & here i am slacking away ? fuck.
got scolded by gwee fer being 15 mins late fer her lesson ? haha. got back home econs too. screwed it, as usual. did some research in da library ? gwee kept us way pass our recess cos we ate into her lesson time ? whatever. didnt go fer drills cos of this shit.
elit was slack ? haha lowlieng came in class darn late so we hardly did anything ? yeap. science was BORING ! praveena's way boring man ! was almost dozing off already ? haha. headed ta da hall fer assembly ? suppose it was more fun than usual ? haha. made estee & my bitch go up ta dance ? then ltr on they called carol & chew up on stage too ? haha all from the wonderful class of TWO LOYALTY :)) haha. & i noticed that
somebody was so attentive when my bitch was up on stage ? HAHA. how's that ? act cool, act cute, act innocent & EVRYTHING. damn her.
ponned trg ? haha had ta study fer chinese test what ? lunched with manda & kell. yeap. OH YES ! some ass deleted all my messages in my inbox ? in my INBOX ! of all places ? one minute ago it was still there ? da next ? ALL GONE ? dontknow who the hell that fucking ass is ?! WTH. damn pissed laa ! smmre all those messages in my inbox all damn precious ta me ? walau ehh ! ARGHHH ! -screams !
studied fer chinese thou i could hardly get any shit into my stupid brain. bitched ALOT. haha. damn pissed with that asshole lors ! what the hell is her fucking problem man ? like wtH. seriously man. pls take a look at yourself before you comment on others ! & pls mind your own business ? if i doesnt concern you, stay out of it. dont try ta poke your nose into evrything. you know youre not involved in it but you jus wanta get yourself involved & get pulled into da situation. ltr on, you'll start blaming others & bitching about them when you yourself know that its your fault ? go ahead & bitch. jus fer your info, no one's on your side ? youre no longer da girl you used ta be. so jus go get a life. most importantly, go mind your own business ! HURR.
hey my bitch ! got loads of stuff ta tell you tmrw ! bitching time ! :)) LOL.
pauline came ltr on ? ate some & headed home. had tuition & my stupid brother pissed me off ! like totally man. tution was fine i guess ? not confident fer my chinese thou ? hope il be able ta do well ? sigh. i NEED ta do well ! :/ alryt guess id beta be going ? still havent really studied finish yet ? tatas ! :) ltrs !
take me away.
today sucks. the whole of today. i mean it. fuck it.
firstly during morning jog, i was feeling so darn useless cos i cldnt even run three pathetic rounds continuously ? wth. had elit test which i totally screwed it up ? damn it man. what i predicted had all came out ?! WTF ! hurr. afta tht was alryt. had PE when two things happened ta me ? :/ firstly, i tripped & fell. then later on, i got wacked in da face by da stupid bball. but JAIME ! its alryt ! im really fine ! :) dont hafta feel bad, hugging partner ! ILOVEYOU ! :))
recess was okay. was thinking about alot of stuff most of da time. anw. lessons were as usual & it was pretty much da same ? usual. yeap. oh yes ! bel's my bitch ! hahah & vice versa. LOL. lame ! afta school, lunched with peiyu, jen & woxy. went fer training later on ? it wasnt too bad. yeap. maybe my juniors aint as bad as i thought. but still ? i dontknow. id rather have ahems change thou. ahwells. suhui came down fer training ! :)) thanks fer coming down ! dontknow what il do without you coming down man ! haiis but youre not coming down tmrw ? sigh. ohwells.
went back sj room & had a lil' chat with yilin & vanessa :) looked fer my other sdqmates & played bball with them ? left shortly afta ? went canteen & drank again ? walau. when im angry, sad, or confused, il jus stuff myself with food ? or drinks ? hurr. cant stand it. hate it when i do that. but i jus cant help it ? sigh. thanks
smartie & hearttalker fer asking me :) love ! mm, mersa left at ard 530 ? stayed with smartie & talked fer awhile ? studied chinese ? yeh. before leaving, peiyu helped me shift da bench back & somehow it jus dropped & fell flat on my feet ? OUCH ! but nvm. haha. jus think im damn jinxed tday. fuck it man.
on da bus said sth. dontknow if it was da right thing to do ? but right now, im on da verge of breaking down & i swear (if i could) its true. i jus feel like its my fault. forget it. i cant do anything now anw ? whats done is done i guess ? but still .. haiis. i dontknow. jus fuck it. im sorry.
still hafta do research fer stupid home econs ? wth. cant seem ta find ANYTHING ! argh ! this is one day where nothing ever goes right. darn. anw, thanks pauline ! :) really thanks. yeap ! & my darling someone too ! i guess it was jus all a .. sigh nvm. i jus hate myself now. fullstop. argh ! i beta get moving before i start all my shit. mood's swinging now. hurr. damnit. sorry.
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SHUYU ! sorry i forgot ta thank you ? you are alwis right beside me during da darkest moments of my life. thanks dear. jus wna let you know that i will alwis cherish you & thanks fer all that youve done. sorry about those stuff tht happened last time ? yeh but anw, i love you ! thanks fer being there fer me alwis. love love ! I LOVE YOU ! :)
dreams are just dreams
when it's dark inside your head
and all it takes is a little help from you
you know it's true
that dreams are for real
when you see what i see
and you feel it too
we took the longest road
just to make it harder
let's do it all again
it only makes us stronger
dreams
i guess we're just made of dream
nothin' else matters
as long as we believe
i'm lookin' at you
and i see my life
passing before my eyes
and when the journey's over
and all my dreams come true
i'll dream of you
what do you see
when you look inside your heart
a little thought
can walk a thousand miles
and change your life
when dreams lead the way
the impossible is suddenly in sight
every step you take
just brings it all together
you gotta keep the faith
when all seems lost forever
dreams
i guess we're just made of dream
nothin' else matters
as long as we believe
i'm lookin' at you
and i see my life
passing before my eyes
and when the journey's over
and all my dreams come true
i'll dream of you
you're the one
that keeps my hope alive
my vision clear
i'll spend my life with you
conquer fear
we'll make it through
nothin' else matters
as long as we believe
i'm lookin' at you
and i see my life
passing before my eyes
and when the journey's over
and all my dreams come true
i'll dream of you
i'll dream of you
i'll dream of you
woohoo. havent blogged fer 438756472659865017 days ! haha but anw, had our first cca yesterday in like duno how many weeks ? heh it went quite okay ? but it was super hilarious, fer me ! haha. wenxun came back ? the rest had their BFA test so it was only da ten of us left ta do drills ? haha. so we did. we were made ta command & time ? yeh. was SUPER TIRED ! cldnt catch my breath man. timing was super tiring ! evrytime xun came ta check me fer me fer my drills, i would start laughing ? i dontknow why either ? i jus find her super funny ! HAHA. ahwells.
had nursing afta tht. yeap. lunched with val & wellisa ! its been sucha long time since i last did tht. i miss our last year mini com group ! :( walked out with them ta meet da rest who were ta macs ? yeah. wish i didnt. if i didnt, evrything wldnt have happened. sigh. im sorry ! but glad things are fine alr. maybe it was all jus a misunderstanding ? yeh.
thanks peiyu ! mersa also ! oh yes. not forgetting
wenxu & zoerainne ! thanks fer da msg & comforting ! yeap. thanks ! love you guys hell lots !
had trg ? it was fine but pathetic ! i tell you my grp cant make it at all ! AT ALL I TELL YOU. hurr. im alr putting in effort ta mix with my grp ! i swear if i cld ! yilin ! really ! but anw, afta they all left (damn early) went sj room ta look fer shuyu's grp. yilin was there also. was da patient. walau. sai's grp damn good la. think they'll most probably win man. i mean their trgs are so damn bloody constant while ours is jus pathetic. haiis. but anw, was being a damn unreasonable patient. lol. afta tht we talked man ! hahahahaha ! found out so much. hurr. to wan er, her first impression of me is paikia ?! haha & to xi lei im QUIET ! OMG. believe tht man ! HAHA !
left with them at ard 1745 i think ? didnt really take note of da time. met ed at macs & copied my stupid chinese compo which was due dontknow how long ago. & da english ? yeah. left at almost 1900 ? yeap ! went ta elias mall ta get macs fer my family ? walked all da way home ? took me abt half an hour ! plus i was phoneless ! hurr. stupid phone no battery ! :/ anws, bathed & fell aslp on da bed while waiting fer my hair ta dry ? was SUPER tired ! :|
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today nth much ? overslept & had ta go nativity :((( walau. shit laa. anw, da stupid priest was super boring ! was talking ta my sista half da time man. heh opps ? ahwells. lunched ? came home & did some studying fer chinese ? yeah :) next week itself there's like three tests laa ? walau eh. how to cope ? :/ not in da mood ta study man ! feeling lazy ! but im dertermined NOT ta fail ! so i beta study ! study cheryl, study ! eeps ! :/
ive got a dinner ltr ? haiis. its gna be chao boring ! ahwells. what can i say. hate attending dinners with tht side of my family man. its like super boring ? there's no one ta talk to ! luckily ive got my darling sista :) heh. alryt. im off. tatas !
hope dangles on a string, like slow spinning redemption, winding in and winding out. the shine of it has caught my eye.