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somewhere out there
okay i am so
beat! woke up at 5.30 am in the morning! had to go to st john's hq for this course thing and in the end, we went there just to get this piece of paper and see some pple perform this stupid bicycle thing. dont even know what the hell they were doing loh. so boring leh! make me wake up so damn early then? we did nothing there. just sat there like idiots! kaos. and we had a
great tcher. i tell you he sux loh. so show off and his laughter so damn mean. so what if he's the expert? dont need to laugh at pple's mistakes right?! damn mean loh. how
nice can he get?!
there were so many schools there. erm KCP, pierce, bishan park secondary sch (i think), and sngs lah. yepps. and the boys in erm pierce are so damn irritating! and
ho peiyu! dont talk shit lah. that "brushing teeth" guy. haha. bet he was pointing to jenn or wanxin lah not me! or maybe even you?! haha. kkaes. he is super ugly okay! pls loh. no chance hehe. i am so mean but yah. so irritating leh! keep on pointing to us and whisper and whisper. argh. what?! never seen gals before arh? then we were so tired so me and wanxin lied on jenn lah then the guys were whispering
again. heard them saying dunno what lesbians or what thing. then i told wanxin. then we had to leave to see the pple show off and wanxin shouted "gays!" to them! walao eh! we were laughing like shit can?! haha. damn funny. at least i laughed a little. haii. but on the train in the morning i did not even smile. haii dunno why lah. then wanxin kept asking me and jenn why not smiling? haii dunno lah. ): anw sj hq is so damn dirty can? walao eh. now my berms is like so dirty and wanxin! you lucky the stain can go off my berms arh! or not you die! hehe. no la but i was scrubbing like siao! then finally it came off. haha kkaes.
then went out wit wanxin and jenn. went cine leisure. hehe. have been going out but who cares? its the holidays! anw bought burger king then we smuggled it up to the theatres lah then in the end the show was too late and i cld not make it at first then we went down to burger king again to eat our lunch. then we went walk walk. bought this pink shorts. hehe jenn and wanxin also bought! haha now we 3 have the same shorts (: i regret not getting small mans. its like the medium so huge? pull a bit can drop off liao loh! waliew. but got discount of a pathetic $1. haha. thanks to mee. hehs. :p
oh yah just now in sj hq we were talking abt how fat we were! hehe. and guess what? i am the most fat one! hehe. i think. and waxin stop stop saying that i am slim or thin or whatever cos i am so fat! walao. okay nvm. whatever. then went back up to buy the tickets cos in the end i cld go and guess what? the tickets for
what a girl wants were sold out! walao eh. and somemore we were begging our parents like siao can? actually for me my sister help me ask one so i have to thank her here. hehe. thanks big sista :)
then we went to far east to take neos. haha i look damn awful in all those we took! really awful! mans mei lian jian ren. but i do look awful so...haha. does not matter. hehe. then went to novena to wait for my dad to pick me up. while my brother was swimming i fell asleep on the chair. cant believe it loh. hehe. so diu lian. hehe. nvm. now my legs so tired. haii after a long day. haii. more and more pple are sad these few days. haii. dunno lah. just like me :|
danfong: heyys. cheer up kkaes? try talking to herr personally lah. maybe it will help (: iloveyou. cheer up kkaes? anything i wld be here for you. (:
peiyu: walao. you are so ... but anw haha we talked so much abt
him huh. such a jerk! irritatin. hehe.
pauline: i cant wait for monday! hehe. i think im wearing erm erm. nvm call you then talk kkaes? love ya. cant wait for wednesday! hehe finally can go shopping! ahhhh.
wanxin: whatever! hehe anw erm you are so not fat! walao. come on loh. look who's worse?! kaos.
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i believe
hehe. watched
ju-on wit jenn and chloe just now. haha damn funny. we were screaming most of the times. hehe. but i dont think that show is very nice but that ghost damn scary. haha ohwells. just what i think only. hehe. now got sore throat. damn pain can?! anw just came home from j8
again. i think my parents are totally in love wit that place loh. everyday also must go there one. so irritating. i am so damn sick of that stupid place.
anw ate at crystal jade just now wit my parents. ate the normal food i always eat. hehe. damn full. then went to orchard to meet chloe and jenn. was looking high and low for them in heeren then
finally i found them. guess i looked like an idiot. well maybe i am. haii. then walked around for a while then we went off to watch
ju-on at j8. aiyoh dunno why but then j8 was the only place we cld think of so yah we just went there loh.
woah think chloe damn scared now. dunno how am i supposed to bathe later on cos there was this scene in the show that they show the gal bathing when the ghost came and touched her. eeks. ohkay i am so freaked out! sheesh. durin the show chloe kept wanting to go toilet. haha. damn funny. then also she kept saying to me "dont keep on looking so brave can?!" kaos. damn funny. she very funny mans. hehe but i screamed alot. i found the show amusing though. haha. ohkay i am crazy. and i am so
not brave loh. haii i am so damn weak can?! haii. dunno lah. :|
jingyu: heyys. kkaes we need to go to the beach soon mans! i need so much to de-stress! i cant stand it liao i am going to burst soon! i got so much to say but i dunno how to say it to you lehs. haii nvm. hehe. anw kkaes lah i wld not do that again kkaes but i am really too stressed up liao lah. haii dunno what i was thinkin` either. so many things have been happening i suppose haii. such a
failure kkaes. you tk care alrites? missin` you loads dear (: really
alot! must gimme a bigggg hugg kkaes? really need one and you have to fix a date soon! really need to de-stress! iloveyou loads and loads kkaes dear (: -huggsdearverytightly-
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yes! haha. i am
finally going out! hehe. i am going out wit chloe and jenn ltr. cant wait. hehe. this morning woke up so damn late. cos cos last night i was erm erm nvm forget it. just that i slept very very late jiu shi le lah. yepps. haii. anyhow i am so excited. hehe. can go out wit my friends. but they last minute then tell me. haii. nvm at least they asked. hehe (: thanks guys. love ya all.
you too. (: -huggs-
--x--
i love you more than anyone else
haii now i cant watch
how to lose a guy in 10 days le cos jenn and chloe watching it now. haii. then dunno what movie they watching next. haii. nvm at least can go out rites? must look at the bright side of life huh? but but i cant seem to. only for certain things i can but for others...i dont think i can. haii. why is my
life liddat?! haii. maybe this phrase is so true...
you know what paradise is? its a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places we'd like them to be. haii. dunno lah but now all of a sudden i am feeling down again?! argh! sigh.
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i would love you forever. i promise
this morning my mother just came into my room and started shouting "eh wake up!! we're going out!" i was like wtf. was so tired cos last night slept so damn late. haii nvm then woke up lah. went to j8
again. sian mans so tired of that place liao. then my dad went around to the bookshops looking at magazines. kaos. met teresa, laura and hannah there. though hannah did not see me. haha saw her from the second floor. hehe. teresa said hi to me. haha did not see her. hehe. haii why didnt i see anyone i could hugg? really needed a hugg loh. haii.
anw read magazines lah. haii the horoscopes thing for this month in the magazines i read is like so
true! haii dunno lah. sheesh. anw went to eat at rendezvous. damn nicee (: hehe. like going on eating spree liddat haha. going to grow so damn fat mans. anw cant believe i actually did that yesterday when i was alone at home (pauline you should know lah) yepps. dunno where i gathered the courage from. but its healing liao. yarh. pauline is the
only one who knows. hehe. she is so honored. haha kkaes. anw now i am at home decided not to blog too long entries liao cos pauline said it was too long and she wld not read the whole thing. haii dunno lah but right now all i know is that i need all my huggs. haii was hoping so much to meet pple today and then i did not. haii. nvm. its all made liddat anw.
cld have been out wit pauline now but but ahhh she cld not make it! argh. so we going out on wednesday issit? cant wait! hehe i am so excited for going for infusion! hehe. but haii only so few pple going. haii nvm. shall go and invite more pple if i can hehe. anw tk care guys. haii me feeling so vexed now. haii dunno lah but it is like...i am thinking of stuff that i am not supposed to. haii. nvm. i am such a
failure. haii.
thanks for all those encouragement guys. iloveyou loads and i miss your so much. haii esp
you. ilu.
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this is such a nicee song and lyrics. haii guess this is really how i am feeling abt
you now. haii missin` you and everyone else. haii. love the lyrics and song. so true. haii...
miss you like crazy
even though it's been so long
my love for you keeps going strong
i remember the things that we used to do
a kiss in the rain till the sun shine through
i tried to deny it but I'm still in love with you
CHORUS:
i miss you like crazy
i miss you like crazy
ever since you went away
every hour of every day
i miss you like crazy
i miss you like crazy
no matter what I say or do
there's just no getting over you
i can see the love shining in your eyes
and there comes a such a sweet surprise
if seeing's believing it's worth the wait
so hold and tell me it's not too late
we're so good together, we starting forever now
CHORUS
i miss you like crazy
i miss you baby
love like ours will never end
just touch me and we're there again
just one night
and we'll have that magic feeling like we used to do
hold on tight and whatever comes our way we gonna make it through
it seems believing is worth the wait
so hold and tell me it's not too late
we're so good together, we starting forever now
CHORUS
and I miss you, I missed you
all the tender love you gave me
a feeling gets this strong
you know the real thing's come along
and I miss you
i miss you like crazy baby
only your sweet love can save me
i miss you like crazy
a love like ours will never end
just touch me and we're there again
i miss you like crazy
i miss you like crazy
no matter what I say or do
just now went out wit my sister to toa payoh central. then we walked and walked and it was so boring then we went to take mrt to bishan. haha went j8. yepps. saw jinghui there. haha (: gave her a fright i think. bet she did not think i wld meet her there :p haha anw just talked to pauline on the phone for a
long time. told her how i really felt. haii. then she also felt the same. haii. kkaes. then now she cant go out cos she got her stupid cca thingy to attend! argh! was so excited. got soooo much to tell her!! argh! anw think this was all fated. haii that i have to stay stuck at home. cant wait for monday then i can go out for infusion! haha. oh yah my sister bought this shirt specially for infusion leh. haha. anw gtg now nites. haii cant wait. and i miss my huggs. iloveyou. (:
jingyu: haha kkaes. youre my best dearie too. haha. yepps. cheer up kkaes? i always dont wna talk to you online cos i always scared you find me irritatin` for wanting to know everything. haii i dunno lah. just feel so fucked up now. haii. anyhow i want you to cheer up kkaes? anything you can just talk to me. i wld always be there for you alrites dear (: iloveyou lots lots. hehe. -huggsdearsotightly-
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i am feeling so down now. haii somehow i dunno what im thinking abt. haii. dunno lah i am one weird gal mans just now just took my handphone and read all my messages then i started tearing. haii. dunno lah. since now i am alone at home i think i can do whatever i like. haii sometimes i just wish i could just take the pen knife and cut mans. haii life is so torturing! i seriously need my huggs. haii. maybe this was just all my thinkings.
wishful thoughts. haii no one understands anw. at least i think so. haii. where is
pauline and
jenn and
jingyu when i need them. haii. nvm. this were all just made to happen. sigh. i thought i could be strong and carry on but i was so wrong! but anyhow i would try my best. (: i love you all.
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missin` you
argh! just when i thought i could talk to someone whom i can trust he went offline! argh. nvm im sure he got his own things to do huh. sorry stef. hehe. kkaes. anw yesterday was such a perfect day and those two
idiots had to come and spoil my whole damn day! argh! so pissed off. wna know abt it? let me tell you. alexander was back stabbing me. dunno what the hell he said to calvin then calvin told me everything then calvin started to scold me for no particular reason and the thing is that i dont even know him! he just added me and started scolding me for not wanting to tell them tab's mail. wtf?! like hello i am not supposed to do that okay! find out for yourself if youre so smart! kaos. say whatever you like cos i know its not true. i dont need your as friends. i dont even want your to exist! ni men zhu gou dou bu ru! hurr.
anw thanks pple for cheering me up kkaes? yepps. esp jingyu. aiyoh. i cry you dont cry kkaes? yepps. thanks for letting me tell you everything last night really made me feel better (: iloveyou. and thanks cc for the entry in my guestbook. haha kkaes. i really need a hugg mans. a bigggg one from each and everyone of you! haii. missin` you and everyone else dear. i need my huggs. haii cant survive w/o them! oh yarh thanks stef too although i only talked to him for a short while. haha. thanks (:
when i talked to you i realised that you are still as important to me as you were. haii i dunno lah. i really miss you and i miss my hugg. dont be sorry for anything kkaes? cos haii i dunno lah but it is hard for me to face up to reality. i am such a failure. haii dunno lah. i am so stupid. but anyhow i just know that i need my hugg, your smile and everything...
i miss you so much | it hurts.
just complained to jingyu. thanks dear for cheering me up. feelin` much better liao. (: yepps. thanks for always being there for me. iloveyou always. sleep tight dear (: nites. muackk.
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alexander sux!
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anw, alexander if youre reading this let me tell you...you sux! fine lah go around telling pple anything you want. like whatever! who cares. say whatever you like to anyone you like cos i am not going to care! i dont give a fucking damn!
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i miss my huggs
having a serious headache now. just got a "lecture" from my mother. haii. always happening and of all times today at night?! kaos. this sux mans. dunno lah anw i am so excited! hehe. finally can go out wit pauline. yepps. havent gone out wit her since erm last month? yepps have been so busy studying and thinking and stuff that i havent even got time to write letter to her. sorry yah? i'll write you a long letter (if im in the mood) and i'll
talk to you on thursday kkaes? got so much to say. haii. i miss my huggs mans. lets name some of them...jingyu, yuru, danfong, jenn, wanxin, pauline, eliza, kelly. yarh. haii wish i could go back school mans staying at home is suffering. hehe. at least to me now lah. yepps. haii.
its yesterday once more
today went out for almost the whole day! haha. at first in the morning woke up at 10 liddat. then went to do my tuition homework. sian mans. holiday still got tuition leh! hurr. so irritating! anw then went out. my dad drove all the way to
tuas just to eat the food there loh. kaos. dunno how crazy my dad is mans. had a hard time finding that place. was so deep in loh. haha. but the food there is nicee ((: yepps. my dad is always going all over singapore to try the food recomanded haha. so think i am going to put on so much weight! haha. yepps.
then went to jurong point with my mum. shop and shop and my slippers broke! only the flower part lah but then the flower part is the nicest lehs! hurr. anw then wanted to get new slippers then got no size! kaos. just
not my day mans. haha. then walked around. went to op cos got 20% off storewide. wanted to get 2 shirts. then i was like hinting to my mother saying "i like these two shirts leh!" then my mother was like "got 20% sale off everything?" "yah!!" then i thought i surely can buy already then she was like "err i think you got alot of clothes liao. so...dont buy lah okay?" i was like "???!!!" kaos. anw going out with pauline to buy it! i am going to buy it! haha. kkaes i am so
obedient. haha.
then waited for my dad to pick us up cos he went to service his car. then i was tie-ing my hair then my mother was like "aiyoh! you are so skinny leh!" then i was like "?!!" "see your bones?!" kaos. then she started saying i must eat more. haii. siao mans. i am so damn fat and you call that skinny?! haha. but my bones are so erm obvious haha. nvm.
then my dad went to send his documents again. then my mother wanted to take me to city link so we can get this thing lah then my dad did not allow. kaos then in the end my dad dropped me and my mum at tampanis mall. hahas. yepps. went shopping again. then i was shopping at isetan then i saw the hair band that i was looking for! but except it was like sorta square? in the end i still bought it. called jenn's house to ask her if she wanted. she not in so i just got it for her loh. yepps. went to the bum equiptment shop. bought this shirt. yepps finally new shirt! haha. and i love it! kkaes. then came home liao.
sms-ed jenn to tell her that i got the hair band for her. then she said that she also got the hair band for me! but then the one she bought was the round one! haha. oh my goodness. its like so qiao. haha yepps. ((: good friends. haha. then had dinner. ate so much today. haii. then did not want rice but my dad said i have to eat cos i was so thin. kaos. think their eyes got problem! haha. nvm but dinner was great too.
calling pauline ltr. haha she damn funny lehs. think i know why she wanna go and buy ripcurl and roxy shirt! haha.
i know why!!! haha. kkaes. go out with you one day lah and yay!!! pauline, chloe, jenn and me are going for infusion!!!! yes!!!! haha got my good friends with me! dunno if jingyu is going or not! if she is that wld be so cool! yepps. tell me if you can go or not kkaes? i am like promoting infusion but then dunno lah but i wna see my friends!!!! haha. kkaes. me going crazy liaos. -_-"
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heyys!!! i am soooooo happy!!!! haha my mother allow me to go out with pauline on thursday!!!!! haha unbelievable mans!!! haha cant wait!!! i can
finally go shopping liao!!!!! haha!!!!!!!!!! okay i am seriously going crazy! haha. yepps.
jingyu: heyys dear. i miss your hugg too ): haii cant wait to see you. cant wait to get your hugg!!! must gimme a biggggg one kkaes?! yay!!! haha okay must watch with me ju-on!!!! haha!!!! i wna watch!!!! kkaes...i remember i screamed like siao -_-" haha but so damn fun loh!! haha watching movie wit you damn funny! ((: kkaes i can study wit you on those days yepps. ask jenn along kkaes? haha so fun!!! cant wait mans. cant wait to get your hugg!!! esp yours!!! yepps. tk care and iloveyou. dont think too much kkaes? ((: -huggsdearsotightly-
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i'll never stop lovin` you
yesterday could not get into blogger so did not blog. anw went for mass in the evening yesterday. was a little late for mass cos my sister's tuition finished late. yepps. did not have tution loh. could have gone with pauline. haii. anw after mass went to compass point. it was so crowded then my dad dunno why suddenly had mood swing. haii he got so angry partially cos it was so packed lah. yepps. then went to popular wanted to get my chinese 1b textbk and workbk but then did not have so yarh. then while walking out my sister was like "mr koh!!" then i was like "??!!" then i saw him. luckily he did not see us arh or not...dunno what will happen. then i remembered of the incident where my sister said that thing to my father in the car. hahas. kkaes.
today woke up so damn early. 9 something. haii could not sleep cos my brother lah woke me up while he was talking so damn loudly on the phone with his stupid friend. hurr. then could not sleep liao so woke up. heard my mother shouting at my brother. cos she was going out. yepps. then my dad sent my mum to the mrt station i suppose cos he came home after a short while. was using the computer than my dad kept on saying "i need to use" then so irritatin`. cant use it in peace. was doing this thing for my profile since i cant fit it into anywhere in my blog now. yepps. was too bored too haha. still working on it though. think its nicee. haha. my tast and yours may not be the same lah but still...dunno lah.
anw a 12something i had to vaccum and mop the damn floor! i am always stuck doing all these things! sick loh. then i was asking my dad i said "why i must always do all these?!" then my dad was like "why your always get what your want and we dont?!" then i was like "i want a colour phone i got it issit?!" was sort of pissed off then. then my dad walked off. haii. dunno when i can get my colour phone.
at 1 something my dad asked me to change cos we were going out for lunch then i did not believe lah cos he was busy checking his documents. then at 2 something he asked me to change and said that we were leaving in 5 minutes so i changed lah then he had more documents to check and in the end i fell asleep on the sofa while waiting for him. was having a dream abt ... then my father had to wake up up! hurr. was such a nicee dream loh. haii. wish it was real mans.
then my father went to give documents loh. yepps. was waiting in the car for him then i switched radio channel. haha was listening to the rep
cleaning out my closet i think. yeah. will not be able to listen to it if my parents were around. haha. then went to taka to eat. dunno how come my dad was in good mood then he brought me and my brother to crystal jade to eat. damn nicee. haha now so full then went on a shopping spree. yepps. haha going out with my dad to shop is really fun! haha. bought so many things from cold storage. cookies, sweets and everything haha. then also bought ding ding tang. damn nicee. (: so long never eat liao. haha. then wanted to eat
dairy queen ice cream but then dunno how come the ice cream machine was spoilt so did not get to eat it.
then went to kinokuniya. yepps. read the magazine. was reading the part for the horoscope one then they said that pisces pple will let out their emotions during this month. haii think it is true loh. have been crying in school mah. haii. nvm. but it is so true. never believe in these kind of stuff but then now it is like true loh. haii dunno lah. :|
waited for my sister and my mother then went to walk at all the sports shop but did not get anything haii did not bother to ask cos it was like too expensive and my parents answer's wld be "no" anw so why bother wasting my breath? haii. nvm. then bought this shirt from bossini. yepps. finding nemo one. haha so cutee (: hehs. and so now i am back here lah. yepps. think i am going to continue doing my profile thing i'll blog when i am done with it. yepps.
oh yarh forgot to say. last night
reen was so
sweet. she asked me if i was angry with her and she asked me to cheer up. thanks gal. i am not angry with you alrites? i am just in bad mood lah these few days dunno why also. haii sorry yarh if i have offended you kkaes? sorry. (:
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okay done. yepps my profile thing is done.
love it! hahas kkaes. go to my links there will add it there yepps. under profile or you can click
here. yepps. ((: happy with myself. hehs. (:
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i dont need wings to help me fly if i've got you
yesterday could not get into blogger. its always happening!!! argh! okay anw, went out with jenn yesterday did not dare to ask my parents then my sister helped me ask. hehs thanks. but then still had to beg my dad to let me go in the end i could go! haha. ((: went to orchard. watched bruce almighty. yepps hehs. damn funny! i mean it cheered me up lah yepps. was feeling much better after watching it. the food there damn expensive loh! 2 hotdog costs $9 something?! kaos. cheat pple's money!!!
anw after watching the movie went far east to take neo prints. yepps. took 2 times. haha. now i have so many neo prints!! nicee. haha but i looked so damn ugly in it lah. haha yepps. but the machines there not as good as the one at j8. i think the one at j8 is much better. yepps the background is nicer. haha but the one at far east has more neo prints lah. haii dunno lah. just my opinion. (:
i think i am going for infusion cos jenn and chloe is going. anyone wants to come? come lah then at least can get outta the house for one day during the holidays! haha. charlene is acting inside. yepps haha dunno what she's going to do heard she was going to dance!!! haha going to see how she does that.
went swimming after i got home at around 4 plus yesterday but swam damn little lah. foind out that i have out grown my swimming costume. ahhas. going to buy new one ((: yay cant wait cos my present one is like damn ugly?! yarhs. haha. havent been swimming for so long. the water was so cold but nicee. yepps. shant go any further.
its so damn boring at home! dunno how i am supposed to survive during the long holidays mans! and it is only the start of the holidays!!! but then next week i have to go to st john's hq for some courses thing. sian mans! dunno to get this badge or something. haii. going to be so tough i guess but luckily i've got jenn and wx there. yepps maybe i'll enjoy lah but at least can get to see 2 of my good friends right? yepps.
been having mood swings lately. haii dunno lah. maybe cos of my results and everything. haii need my friends with me mans. those close ones. haii really wna go back to school to see all my friends! miss them loads! haii. anw tk care alrites during the holidays. yepps dont fall ill ((:
pauline: eh i cant go today!!!! arghhh!!!! so pissed off!!!! sorry kkaes? did not want this to happen either. haii.
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haha now looking at the connexio. 2002 and 2001 ones. haha i look damn ugly in both mans. *pukes* haha. ohkay kelly still had long hair then haha she looked damn funny! haha okay jingyu had long hair too haha now i think she looks better with short hair. ahhas. :p dunno lah but we all look much better this year i suppose?! haha. yepps.
thinking back i think primary 6 was my best year. haii. in p4 and 5 we were all so childish i remembered i always quarelled with tab and jessie. haha and sometimes kelly too. and always getting into trouble with miss james in p4. haii. think we know each other better now huh? we are all friends now. last year was great! for me lah. as for jenn it was her worst year she said. haha sorry yarh? we were not in good terms and now we are good friends haha ((: love ya gal.
tmr my sister and nick having chinese o level!!!
good luck!!!!! all the best alrites? yepps. love ya. just do your best it would soon be over. haha yepps. ((: i'll blog later again my hands were just too erm dunno lah. just wanted to type out what i thought abt last year in the connexio!! haha :p
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