today is probably one of those very very unusual days where i actually started smiling to myself again. it's been months, wow.

every little thing that you do, baby i'm amazed by you :)

i love work. no one knows why, so don't try guessing. you're all wrong. haha. i guess another reason is it keeps my mind off things which i don't want to think about. & since that bloody lecture theatre has no reception, i can't use my phone. haha but what does it matter anyway? i mean this both ways, good & bad. hee :D

work is pretty messed up too. we start early in the morning & end late at night, i'm rich balls. haha! date me out shopping soon, peiyu! you're my gossip girl :)

screwed up some stuff at work today & yesterday. i guess i'm still learning along the way. haha posted the same PRA twice & xun had to settle everything for me. thank you! & today i screwed up the fucking printer. not working with me there, making life difficult only. haha but the only thing which got me pissed off were the people. thanks for the 'support' yo, really helped. hurr.

& keith got me chocolate flavoured pocky which totally made my day & i mean totally :)

you know, i do notice small little things people do. i may seem like i don't care, or it is nothing, but read my mind dude, i'm dying for breath! haha, that was on a VERY random note by the way. so yes, search for the hidden meaning in it.

xun is my sunshine :) thank you for everything, even though you're one hell of a big bully but i know you're always watching over me like an angel sent from god above :) you're a great friend honey! :D

okay, i can't believe i can still find time to blog. my hair ain't dried & my mummy cooked me this bowl of maggi. it was like the best meal ever. i'm so hungry, i think i'm going to get gastric within these few days :(

i love your smile, that smile you gave me :)

oh well, cheryl out! i'm looking forward to work tomorrow :) :) :)

fuck off. all the emotions. i am happy :)

i know it won't revert back to the way it used to be. i can see right through you, but you never really did care anyway.

step up two was nice. alright nice. though i still think the first one was better. isn't it always like that? haha. the lead actress ain't as hot as the previous one. haha & someone was more engrossed in her boobs than anything else. TSK.

work. it might be early in the morning, but at least that's something to look forward to, if you catch my drift. ha.

i realised i didn't blog about the chalet! haha.

stayed up the entire night to teach sheng wei math. got distracted halfway though. haha, so we talked, bitched, questioned. some questions were really hard to answer. so many questions, why? saw pei xuan crying, almost broke down myself too. but i told myself, everything will be alright (guess i was wrong).

well, things change. people change. my dear pei xuan, cheer up! you know i'm always here for you okay? i love you so :)

had macs breakfast at 5 am in the morning at downtown east! haha how sinful is that? and i was the brilliant one who suggested we had it. haha! went back to the room hoping to catch some sleep, but we started the bitch again. all over again. haha it was so funny! but well, i don't know. anyway, got up at 7 i think, started to prepare for treasure hunt! the tshirt is SO BRIGHT! once again, haha!

i was the game master. explored a little of pasir ris park. haha along with alina who was my partner! i was supposed to be alone but somehow, she was with me in the end. heh, anyhow, it was fun with her. i didn't know her at first. but she's a nice girl. haha we had fun doing retarded things together :)

i think i shall stop using the word "retarded" for awhile.

anyway! finally headed back for lunch & mass game! chee kai lost his phone though. i could understand every minute he was going through. but well, i don't think he found his phone eventually. i'm so sorry.

bbq was awesome! chub's mummy's chicken wings are like the best! it's so good, i ate like five of them or something. then seng & i took over the cooking. haha. we left not long after cause we were all so shagged. xuan hong & pei xuan walked the both of us to the interchange, how sweet :)

got home & crashed almost immediately, haha. so yeah, that's all. was just thinking of the fun & laughter i had so there.

back to reality now, but don't worry, cheryl is okay.

i'm very disappointed, but i guess i saw it coming. i knew it all along.

life goes on.

today was horrible. work training sucked. but xuan make it all seem fine. she's one hell of a retarded kid. haha you owe me tic tac! i don't care! catch this cute picture of her we took while working! oh my god :)

ng wen xuan, if you're reading this, HAHA i told you i was going to blog about you! haha she's so damn cute isn't she? retarded friend i've got there. haha!

today was alright i guess. other than work training which was pretty draining, it went fine. met bestie for lunch! had thai express! haha then i went shopping. oops, i ought to stop shopping, like seriously.

met alex for the premeire of vantage point. haha it was quite funny! we ate popcorn & wanted to throw them at the annoying people sitting in front of us. haha! we were pretty noisy throughout the movie but oh well! felt great to watch a free movie once again :) step up 2 is so going to be on top of my list now.

i don't know, i'm just not ready. not ready for anything. i know i've hurt you, i'm sorry. but what you saw was nothing. maybe i shouldn't say sorry cause, you once said those words before which hurt me so bad too. but guess what? it always seems like i'm the bad guy, why?

my favourite song right now.

Early in the morning, wake up to a bright blue sky
lightning comes at any time to break it down and make it ugly
i know that it's just for me
'cause no one else can feel or understand
that's alright because i can handle all that you throw down

and i hope you find a perfect place
where sky's are beautiful all of the time
it's all that matters, pretty, pretty
and i know that's all you could care about
there's no reason why you can't

it's all about the icing, and nobody cares about what's inside
you could see the outside face, it looks good, it must be great
and i know that's all you see
what would it matter anyway
'cause i can see right through your pretty, pretty skin today

and i hope you find a perfect place
where sky's are beautiful all of the time
it's all that matters, pretty, pretty
and i know that's all you could care about
there's no reason why you can't

and no reason why i should try to go on anymore
my reason's all gone, no reason why you should
try to make excuses to make me feel alright
excuses call for stupid reasons
and i know that it's not much that i can offer right now
just give me one little second and i will try my hardest
to make you feel like i'm someone else.

lyrics, they make me wonder.