20040723
love is a sign from the heavens that you are here for a reason.
i'll be your dream, i'll be your wish i'll be your fantasy,
i'll be your hope, i'll be your love be everything that you need.
i love you more with every breath truly, madly, deeply, do.
mmhmmm. so true :)
youre here fer a reason x)
im lovin' it :))
im loving everyday since yesterday x)))
tday was super funny ! was late fer sch in da morning cos i overslept :/ had spot check. went back ta class fer science. did experiments. was kinda fun. much MUCH more fun than ms praveena's lsns. bleah. the thought of her teaching us AGN nxt week is killing me. lol. had math afta tht. got back our test paper. fuck it. i just passed can ? walau. anw, geog afta tht. helped bel copy wht they had ta say, fer their ipw presentation ltr on, onto da blue card ? yeh. didnt listen throughout da stupid geog lsn. tht ms lee really cant control our class man. lol.
recess was okay. esp afta recess ! bel stripped in font of da whole class ta get dressed in her bumblebee outfit ! LOL. it was damn hilarious laa ! her actions & all. how she managed ta successfully get into da outfit. HAHAHAHHAHA ! was practically laughing my heads off man ! almost cried ! hahaha. thn had english. we had ta write out our good & bad points ? rahhs. had ipw afta tht. was super funny. hahahahah. esp during
joanna koh's grp performance. was opposing vrethg she said ! & was practically complaining like shit ! hahahha. ahwells. but wait. if any of you are reading this, no offence. im only referring ta her ! not any of her grp members. yeah. she cant pronounce properly can ? kaos. ahwells. wht can i say. idiot. ed's grp performed too ! hahah. cld tell tht she was damn nervous but your hard work paid off :) it went great ! dont worry ;)
afta tht bel's grp performed fer us :)) they were GREAT ! was damn funny laa ! HAHAHAHA. esp mersa ! she was
SO cute ! :D wenta twohope afta tht. talked ta some of them ? thn left fer class. wanted ta go out with jinghui, mersa, pauline & bernice. but i havent been studying fer my chinese tuition & test was nxt tuesday so decided not ta go. hehh. im such an angel :)
went back ta twohope ta look fer ed. since she'll be alone so i thought i cld stay with her. left sch at abt 1500hrs ? was damn sway laa. joanna koh was ALSO walking out ! walau. she's like tailing me can ? HAHA. rightt. home. slacked. haahah. cos i studied all da stuff in sch just now. tuition just ended. gna leave fer cath class soon. oh how exciting :/
-shrug
if i could, then i would, il go wherever you will go.
19:12
20040722
GREAT day tday ! it really rocked :)))
day and night without seeing you
it makes me feel lost
why?
cause when im with you
you make me feel complete
havent been feeling so happy in ages ! :/ hahah. thts bad. but anw, home econs wasnt as fun as last week's one. hahah. my sponge cake tasted horrible ! :| nvm. my siew mai rocked. hahaha. right shirlene ? :))
ms gwee was damn funny tday. with all her expressions & all. hehh. actually she's not as bad as wht ive heard laa. tht time she said she's gna minus my marks cos i 'cheated' during da test (not really lors ! just asked shirlene howta sew tht stupid bead in & she say i cheat. blahs.), but in da end she only minus away one mark so not tht bad. got 18/20 fer my tissue holder thing ? lol. shocked.
drills during recess. snrs didnt tell us our mini com grps yet. thought they wld tell us tday laa. in da end they didnt. kaos. maybe on saturday ? cant wait fer cca. duno how it'll be like. hahas. gave sai her present. she was damn happy laa. cant believe her man. hahahaha. but wells, hope she REALLY likes it. yehh.
assembly was damn lame. hahahah. an qing's damn poor thing. LOL. nvm if you dont unstd. hahaha. afta sch went ta justice. chatted a lil' while with sixy (without mersa). had so much fun ! have been spending loads of time with sixy. oh man. we rock :) afta they left, went ta art room ta look fer ed ta pass her a slice of my cake :)) went fer lunch with my darling peiyu afta tht x)
shu & ed came ltr on. they had lunch. but peiyu had lunch AGAIN. tht silly girl. poor her. she's sick ? get well soon kay dear ! btw, chill alryt ? you still have me & mersa who will alwis be here fer you whnever you need us :D ate ed's cake ! her's tasted so much nicer than mine ? like WOW. guess im just not fit ta cook cakes. lol. had a lil' chat with them thn shu had ta leave. so we sent her off while ed went ta do her ipw. yeap.
went ta library afta tht. was supposed ta meet ed there cos we still had one slice of her cake ta finish. cldnt find her there so msged her. she came afta tht. split da cake into half & ate it. hahaha. an equal half okay ! :p sent her off fer guitar class thn went back ta da library. used ta com fer awhile till we sorta got chased outa da library cos it was closing. lol.
went back ta da canteen & ate AGN. like walau. supposed ta be losing weight ? :/ but anw, had a LONG LONG chat with peiyu ! we were talking abt so much stuff. cant help thinking wht will happen whn we graduate man. sigh. dont wanta think abt it. mm peiyu went home with her dad & i walked outa sch alone. wells, it wasnt tht bad considering tht i had so much in my mind :)
okayy. guess im off ta bathe ! oh man. im dreading my tuition tmrw. haiis. like whn vreone's enjoying themselves on a FRIDAY im stuck at home studying fer my chinese tuition work. how's tht ? -sigh
JINGHUI
hey dear ! :D
cant sign your guestbk or tag you board,
so im leaving you a msg here ! :))
mm i like F.I.R's songs too !
but its nth compared ta ocean's ! :):):)
esp tht song ! oh man.
i also wanta get his album !
nvm. anw i dontknw if im still going out with you guys.
as in tmrw laa.
hafta study fer my tuition. yehh.
sorry yeah ?
yeap. anw confirm with you tmrw laa.
yeap. I LOVE YOU !
oh yes. thanks fer listening ta me :)
-mwas
ANDREA
boos ! hahahah.
cant find your guestbk ?
bleah. sorrys !
loveyaa ! :D
19:32
20040721
the heart has reasons that reason does not understand.
just one of those days
feelin so much pain
just one of those days
wishing that things would change
just one of those days
i'm not feeling the same
just one of those days
:|||
sch was way boring. the only exciting part was tht SNG was absent ! hahahah. there must have been ppl like me cursing her thts why she wasnt there. hahah. it was raining damn heavily in da morning laa. frm damn early fer sch become damn late. ahwells. rushed back ta class & went straight dwn fer morning jog. it was damn slack man. hahaha. cos we did morning jog indoors. realised tht my stamina's going dwn dwn & dwn :| how's tht. blahs.
we were free fer once in our life during SNG's lsn time. cos it was PC lsn. yeap. char played da cds fer us ta listen. hahahah. damn slack man. ltr on was chinese enrichment. lol. was like writing letter ? its SO BORING ! :/ duno wht shit he talking abt also. like no one's listening ? poor guy. anw, PE afta tht. was SUPER FUN ! lol. tht stupid alan ho didnt come tday so we had match all da way :)) we won ! HAHA. first time in history man. hahahahah. kept screaming & screaming. hahahha. it must have been damn loud since jingyu & robx said tht they cld hear us frm da science lab. hees :p
recess afta tht. da whole gang of us. its been sucha long time since we last had recess tog. mmhmmm. ms praveena didnt come tday so mrs quek took ovr. her lsns are way less boring thn praveena's one. hahahah. math was okay. learning some shit graph thing now ? how stupid. i suck at graph :/ chinese was super slack tday. we made her postpone da ting xie. hahaah. managed ta talk her into it. yeap.
left fer geylang afta tht. to da old folks home there fer CIP. was trying ta sort out my thoughts in da bus but unfortunately i cldnt. argh ! anw, it was okay laa. like wht bel told us, tht charlie person's really cute ! hahaha. cant believe we actually knw some of da oldies tht they sang ? lol. but other than tht it was quite boring. but ahwells.
cabbed dwn ta jeight with womann, jinghui & JAIME ! :D finally can go out with tht silly woman again :)) took neos ! thou i look horrible, but nvm. i alwis do. hehhs. bought food ta eat. ahhhh. im supposed ta be on a diet. nvm. anw it was my second meal of da day so not tht bad. sat bus home afta tht. yeap. watched tv, bathed & here im. hahahaha. im bored. way bored :|||
oh yah. da lyrics i posted earlier on. sigh. really lors. i mean .. i think it shows how im feeling right now. &
STUPID msn just doesnt wanta sign in ! rahhs ! i need ta rant. BLEAH. im off before i get sth spoilt :/
20:33
late at night when all the world is sleeping
i stay up and think of you
and i wish on a star that somewhere you are
thinking of me too
cause i'm dreaming of you tonight
till tomorrow i'll be holding you tight
and there's nowhere in the world i'd rather be
than here in my room dreaming about you and me
wonder if you ever see me
and i wonder if you know i'm there
if you looked in my eyes
would you see what's inside
would you even care ?
i just wanna hold you close
but so far all i have a dreams of you
so i wait for the day
and the courage to say how much i love you
yes i do
i'll be dreaming of you tonight
till tomorrow i'll be holding you tight
and there's nowhere in the world i'd rather be
than here in my room dreaming about you and me
corazon
i can't stop dreaming of you
i can't stop dreaming
i can't stop dreaming of you
late at night when all the world is sleeping
i stay up and think of you
and i still can't believe
that you came up to me and said "i love you"
i love you too
now i'm dreaming with you tonight
till tomorrow and for all of my life
and there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
than here in my room dreaming of you endlessly
dreaming of you tonight
till tomorrow i'll be holding you tight
and there's nowhere in the world i'd rather be
than here in my room
i'll be dreaming of you tonight
endlessly
and i'll be holding you tight
dreaming with you tonight
endlessly
endlessly
20040720
mmhmmm. lets see. first thing's first.
jingyu & shuyu ! i take back my words kay ? hahahah. of wht i said just now at da bus stop. didnt mean it all all. really. hees :) kell called me last night. we chatted (is there sucha word) ? yeap. she didnt come ta sch tday. shit her. leave me all alone ta rot huh ? she was supp ta stay with me & hear me out ! :/ ahwells.
duno why. each time i try ta make things beta, i realise tht im actually making things worse. so ! im gna QUIT trying & taking da initiative. cos im sick & tired of alwis being da one who's being blamed fer vrethg.
as usual, started da day damn badly. talked ta bel. started revising fer my math during lsn time just now. clit was fun. sat at shannon's seat & talked ta jing, mersa & bernice. told jing how i was feeling. yehh. she helped me out. at least i cld say it out cos i guess she's da only one who knws abt it ? mmhmmm.
drills was slack. just sat there crapping with peiyu & mersa. lol. tht two ah. too much lors. haiis. ohwells. i hafta forgive them since im sucha nice & sweet girl :) hahahahhaha. elit afta recess. super boring ! walau. learning abt macbeth is like ? alwis feeling so restless. but too bad cant slp. low li eng lors. ohwells. screwed da math test like fuck. i was quite confident cos i was quite sure of wht i was doing laa. thn in da end ? walau. shit it man. just pray i will pass. doubt so anw. rahhs :|
looked fer shuyu afta sch. went canteen & talked ta amanda & teresa fer awhile. yeap. thn ltr caught up with my SOMEONE ! :D whee ! its been ages since we last did so. went ard sch looking fer some ppl. thn ltr on left with shuyu, ed & jingyu :) ed left. she cabbed dwn cos she was late. waited damn long fer shuyu's double deck bus. hahahaha. towned with jingyu afta tht. bought sai's present. like FINALLY. wahahahahas. yeap. walked ard & got starbucks coffee ! :D ltr on we left & came home lors. tuition ltr :/ havent studied yet. ahwells. dinner time. mmhmmm. feeling damn full :/ im going on a diet ! yays ! tatas ! x)
19:01
20040719
:((
wells. wht can i say ? bad day tday. started da day off very nicely. da best in duno how many mths. anw, went back ta class & had lotsa fun with my womann. went ovr ta her seat during geog lsn & we talked abt our own stuff throughout. lol. was super funny laa. BUT ! pauline ! youre da only one who knws abt tht her okay ? so SHHHH ! :)) anw, thought it wld be a great day ahead till someone told me abt
sth. recess was HORRIBLE. total disaster i tell you. like fuck. but sai
DID cheer me up by feeding me her cake laa :D three poks too ! :) thanks !
had lsns agn. was worrying half da time. walau. afta tht had math. mmhmmmm. talking abt math. test tmrw :| havent evn started revising. ahwells. during english, cos mrs sng was absent, me & bel were fighting fer our own rights. like really lors. we really didnt do ath & we got accused of it ? like wth. was damn pissed laa. yehh. but apprantely she said she didnt say it. so who did ? :||| like wht i said. afta sch ran dwn ta justice & vrethg happened thn. wells, per was there too. yeah. feeling kinda confused now.
sent some of da justice ppl dwn ta forum cos theyve got CIP. yeah. went back ta class. got my stuff & went ta twofaith. met shu & ed. taught shu a few math sums. let out some stuff too. they gave me some advise. but like its really not my fault ! really ? :( thn went home with them .. its been sucha LONG
LONG time since i last did tht. wells, it was quiet during da walk out. im like so not used ta it. sigh. ohwells. told shu some stuff. feeling kinda disappointed with myself. like really fuck. dontknw why things had ta end this way :/
im sorry
qin.
im sorry
kell.
sorry.
if i could turn back time,
i swear i would.
i miss you
20:21
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAI ! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAYI ! :)))
we dont talk the way we used to talk,
it's hurting me so deep.
i got my pride,
i will not cry,
but it's making me weak.
im not your superwoman.
im not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that everythings ok.
boy i am only human.
this girl needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me.
took this frm my sista :)
"the above song ? talking about this gal who does everything for a guy, care for him and stuff. but in the end, the guy kinda like ignores her and stuff, and their relationship is changing? like from a couple to becoming strangers. i think it's a very nice song and realistic also :)
i guess when you care for someone, you gotta show it out right ? sometimes we might ignore the care and concern someone showers on us. we'll only regret it when the care stops and it might be too late. yeapps. so if you like someone, follow your heart, not your head ! yes. someone once told me "headaches have panadol, heartaches dont." so dont ever kou shi xin fei !"
sigh. how right is this huh ? wish i got da courage ta tell
you this but i think it wld never happen agn. i guess i was all along wrong. i wish i cld turn back time. seriously. sigh. this is totally how im feeling right now. da whole of tday ive been thinking it through.
we dont evn hug. told my womann abt it this morning. was telling her lotsa stuff tday. thn ltr told shu abt it in da afternoon. sigh. really dontknw whts up with me tday man. was really not myself. was damn fucked up tday laa. oh yah. been spending alot of time with sixy ! yeap. damn happy abt tht. took neos with shu too ! like finally ? hahahahaha. i LOVE sixy ! ANW, back to da point :/ super pissed with someone. like wth. but think ive cooled dwn ? but i still duno wht ta do. so confused abt this but so sad abt another. wtf. cant take it any longer. rahhs ! :/
cant believe i evn ran dwn ta justice, with bel & pauline chasing me frm behind asking me ta chill & cool dwn. walau. vented my anger on da door. poor door. ohwells. duno wht ta do laa ! argh ! fuck it :|||||
changed layout. totally suits how ive been feeling :/
SAI
hey ! thanks fer msging me :)
i actually smiled whn i read da msg cans ?
hahahahhaha. cant believe you'll do sucha thing.
first time im saying this.
maybe youre actually quite sweet la hor ?
lol. okies anw, happy sweet forteen ! :D
yeap. LOVEE ! :))
20040718
wanted so much ta cry ystd during POP. was a damn sad day. il miss da sec4 snrs BADLY. had our games first thing in da morning. hope your enjoyed it. knw it wasnt exactly up to your standard & kinda stupid & we were kinda unprepared but we did our best. we really put in our best effort. sorry. had performance afta tht ? sorry fer our not-so-nice performance. we also tried our best & put our whole heart into it. sorry if it didnt turn out as nice as it was expected. sorry we were so quiet in da MPR during the interaction time. sorry. guess its like all over ? vrething's happening so fast. it seemed like a min ago whn i was back there having fun with your. POP may be over but deep dwn, your will alwis remain in our hearts. we'll seriously miss your. sorry fer da times we made your angry & all tht youve been complaining abt. including our drills. sorry.
vrething's happening too fast. i cant accept tht fact :/
18:44