20030719
17:51
guess mine is not the first heart broken, my eyes are not the first to cry im not the first to know, there's just no gettin` over you. im just a fool who's willing to sit around and wait for you but can't you see, there's nothin` else for me to do, im hopelessly devoted to you. but now there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside im not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you. hopelessly devoted to you, hopelessly devoted to you. my head is saying "fool, forget you", my heart is saying "don't let go" hold on to the end, that's what i intend to do im hopelessly devoted to you.
when your heart is breaking, reach for someone close to you. hold them tight. they'll tell you everything would be alright.
yesterday
mms. yesterday was quite a fun but bad day i suppose? cos i kept on saying the "f" word? hahah. was too pissed off lah. hahah. mms anw still remember chloe's promise. she's not going to say the "f" word or point out her middle finger for one week. hahah i'll see that she does it. hahah. anw was late for school yesterday. woke up late cos not feeling well. then went to school they were already taking pledge. hahah. then saw jingyu on the way. mms. then rushed to class when i heard nat calling my name. hahah. she's always late like me! hahah (: ohwells. we stay so far what! hahah.
then had lessons. waliew. stupid loh. for dnt we have this totally sucky tcher! his name is
mr chan and he is such a fucking idiot! waliew. sorry going to be damn vulgar here .. hahah. okay anw when i went into class i was so happy cos i thought mr tay was not going to teach us and that it wld be great. mr chan seems nice when you see him for the first time but .. he is horrible! waliew. we damn unlucky can! fuck loh. hurr. anw during dnt the first 10 minutes we had fun cos nicole was saying all those silly stuff that made us laugh and cheer. hahah. then ltr on he was so strict wit us can! cos i havent done finish my wood yet then i asked him if i could do it lah. then he was like "ltr lah. do this first can?" i was like "fuck lah. everyone handed in liao can!" then so irritating. in the end i got so pissed off i just walked away and asked mr ng to help me do it. mr ng is the nicest among the 4 dnt tchers loh. hurr. then ltr when we were given things to do rite. then he went into the room lah. then we all hated him and karina just shouted out "you stupid mother fucker!" then dunno what she said. then she said it so loudly i think mr chan heard. then after that he was in bad mood and he vented his anger on the tools can! waliew. slam here and there. tell you he's a fucking tcher. dont dont get him as your math or dnt tcher! he suck! hahah. okay just saying out what i think. mms.
geog was damn funny cos of all the jokes lah. hahah. was laughing till my stomach ached. haii will miss 1 wisdom mans. i mean .. its a nice class lah. damn fun one. yepps. haii. and theres only like 3 over more months left? haii. will miss you guys!
ilovee1wisdom! of course not forgetting
6grace! hahah.
anw also stepped down from being a monitor yesterday. hahah. felt so free after that. like so zi zai. can like start breaking school rules? hahah. but obviously i did not lah. hahah. mms then ms low was like "although your are not wearing the tie and badge, your are still not retired! you will have to help the class and everything. your will have this project coming up for your ltr in the year, soon." waliew. i was like .. wth loh. argh. damn it lah. mms. then she was talking about something she saw. waliew. damn sick can! i mean go and spy on pple? then somemore say that she hid behind the pillar. hahah then we were laughing like siao cos we were thinking "she can fit behind the pillar!?" hahah. im so mean. hahah but .. oh forget it lah. hahah. im also damn fat so .. shall not say other pple. (:
then went out wit jenn, chloe, pauline and tab. damn fun. they are one grp of pple that never fails to make me laugh (: mms. was talking about how fat we were on the mrt while sitting on the floor. hahah. anyhow, went to far east. brought back alot of memories but .. aiyah. haii. ohwells. then while walking there jenn started to poke my bone cos she saw my shoulder that part the bone sticking out? hahah. im damn bony one but so damn fat! hiaks! hahah. mms. then ate so much there! hahah. cos they were having this fair or something liddat. hahah. then ate so much. ate ding ding tang also! damn nice! miss eating it. hahah. then walked around. so broke somemore. haii. then bought only 1 hairband, and 1 pink hair tie. love the hairband. sorry pauline forgot to help you buy. did not know what colour you wanted anw. will help you buy kkaes? cos think i'll be going to town again. yepps. anw pauline left like much earlier. after we took neos. mms. the neos were horrible. i mean my eyes looked horrible cos the flash was too bright lah. then kept on blinking. haii. ohwells. the worst i took so far. but the machines are damn nice. yepps.
then went to heeren. hahah. then saw this really nice tank top. not really like a tank top but then .. aiyah dont know how to explain lah. then reserved it. tab's going to help me collect it today! hahah. cant wait to get it! damn nice! really. haha shall go out wit her more often cos our taste is like almost the same? hahah. like the same things. (: then while leaving walked pass a shop which i knew
you got that thing you gave me from. haii. why did we have to walk pass that shop? then after walking pass it and tab and jenn were talking so much about how cute it was, my mood went dwn dwn and dwn. haii. was feeling so sad after that. haii |:
then came home. sat mrt alone and was squashed into the mrt. like really got no space to move at all in the mrt? not even an inch cos off pick hour liao what. yepps. then so stink and squashed! eeyer :/ then rushed home. took my bath and i left hse straight away for catechism. haii sian. still dunno if i should transfer to christ the king or not. haii. amanda said i should transfer next year. aiyah think i'll heed her advice. yepps (: my dear partner! hahah. kkaes. then cat class was okay lah. is getting more and more fun lehs. hahah. mms. ohwells. see how lah. then came home at around 10 + at night after catechism. went to sleep after that cos was so tired. hahah. yepps. mms. but before i went to sleep i was staring at
that thing again. haii. then hugged
that another thing which you gave me. ohwells. dont wna talk about it already. |:
today
went for sj in the morning. haii. so sad the sec 4's are passing out soon. mms. today was their last day having cca wit us. so sad can! mms. now then realise that they arent that bad lah. hahah. but .. ohwells. wish them all the best. yepps (: mms. sj was quite fun today lah. considering that i was so active? yepps. mms ran 2 round around the track. was alreayd dying after that. look how bad my stamina is! hahah. then played basketball. waliew. that arh .. hahah. i was super active! shot like 4 goals? hahah. most of the goals all i score one. so happy. i mean my basketball not that good one but i dunno how come i played well today. then cos we have to tuck out our tshirt then when i jump to get the ball keep on showing my stomach can! waliew. so fat somemore can! hahah. but then was fun lah. hahah. i mean i thought i was fun. was sweating like hell loads after that! yepps. even felt drops of sweat streaming down my back. hahah. then was standing at attention still! waliew. felt so damn itchy but could not scratch. hahah. mms. then had footdrills. woah damn tiring lehs. almost died! hiaks! hahah. then saw jingyu, eliza, lorraine and xingjie i think staring at us. waliew. chao paiseh can! hurr. then after that had this short talk wit the sec 4's yepps. mms so sad.
cca ended late today. mms. went to macs wit shuyu. yepps. hahah. she's so nice! (: lovee my twin! hahah. okay now the new twins are jenn, wx, shuyu and me! hahah. okay sj can be fun at times lah. but found out that there is going to be a camp on 2 and 3 august! haii. hope its going to be fun. okay. then sat bus back almost fell asleep on the long bus trip back! waliew. was damn tired. think this is the first time im actually coming home early on a sat. hahah. ohwells. then when i came home a lizard ran past right in front of me! waliew. scared me to death can! waliew. hurr. somemore white colour one. waliew. hahah. then did my homework. good right? hahah. anw just replied jessie's email. she called me on my hp yesterday when i was out wit tab they all. mms. talked for a short while only. hahah. she's only coming back some where in mid august. mms. good luck to her for all her tests! yepps. anw so sad now. haii. thinking and thinking. dunno what to do. and danfong .. thanks for that thingy. its damn meaningful. see pauline .. its like asking me not to let go! haii. really dunno what to do! helpp! anw pauline .. i feel much better after talking to you too. haii. but for now .. my mind is in a whirl |:
20030717
19:05
20030716
love is so damn complicated
15/7
mms yesterday was one funny day. haha yepps. not going to blog alot about yesterday though .. hahah. anw had history and as usual .. i wasnt listening. hahah. then i knew it, when she was refering to those who were not listening, and she said that they would fail their tests. oh like whatever can. i have always been failing history so .. whats to point anw. hahah. ohwells. anw she damn irritating can! keep on pouting her lips! waliew. then i was so irritated i told amanda. and you know what she said? "aiyah .. she thinks she is damn sexy can!" then i was like laughing till i cried? havent laughed until liddat before! hahah. ohwells. love my partner mans! hahah. she's the best!
mms anw then during chinese damn funny. we kept on making the tcher. haha but think she can control our class better. then did not go any where after school. but had science test. mid year lehs! aiyah .. surely fail one can! did not even study for it! waliew. haii ohwells. maybe i should just fail it. take it as my lesson loh. hahah. anw jeff damn perverted can! waliew. shut up and go die lah. (learn from him one!)
16/7
wow! today is one crazy day. so i shall call today
crazy day! hahah. okay ended school early cos had to go to the national stadium to cheer on the track pple. hahah. thought it was quite fun. hehs. mms. had physics for the first time. waliew. tell you .. it sucks! eeyer! so damn boring can! waliew |: dunno how im going to survive wit science! haii. had break again at 12. hahah. wang lao shi damn nice can! gave the whole class sweets and chocolates to eat cos she thought that we deserved it! she's one nice tcher! love her too. and she can control our class better! (: hahah. mms. then went to the specs stand. waliew. was so damn hot and i had to keep on getting off my seat to take attandence. waliew. then had to run here and there and everywhere to collect this and that. and for sj POP we're going to do a skit?! waliew! -rolls eyes! so shit can. then like left school at like 2 something? yah ..
waliew. on the bus damn funny can! think sec 1 wisdom damn cool! hahah love my class! we were sort of going nuts i think? hahah. then kept on singing and singing songs. hahah. then aftre that we sang the titanic song .. damn nice. going to post it below ltr. hahah. mms was really funny! haii going to miss my class next year! haii. ohwells. then reached the satdium. then there was this grp of sji guys who cut our line then the prefects were like "aiyah dont let them cut!" then i was so mean .. i just pushed char in front and she hit into the guys! hahah. was laughing like siao can! hahah (: anw i was told to do so what. hahah.
at the stadium was so damn hot can! waliew. was sweating like siao! then saw jenn jiang. she was running in the first race. haha she did quite well in all the events .. (: congrats. yepps. and then st nicks is double champ
again! whee! hahaha so happy loh! i mean .. was screaming my heads out cheering for the girls. cools man! so happy! haha. they did damn well. esp the relay one. damn cool! shar won prizes too! haha congrats to her too. she was so good! hahah. anw was so bored at the stadium cos one event took like hours to start? then went in and out of the stadium so many times. did not see jeff. hahah too bad for him. did not see stef either. could not find him .. hahah. ohwells. then john mark ran! hahah. saw him running. mms. aiyah but damn happy that we got double champ! whee! hahah. oh yah then after the whole thing right .. they played the ketchup song and me and chloe and kate and amanda were actually dancing to the music! waliew. hahaha. was so crazy can! hehe. (:
then after the whole thing .. went out to eat dinner wit teresa, chloe, jenn, tab and amanda! wanted to walk to suntec when we lost our way. waliew. damn scary! cos the place was like so deserted? then like so hard to hail a cab .. waliew. almost got killed can by a car. waliew. damn scary! |: anw got this really horrible taxi driver which did not allow us to squeeze into the taxi. hurr. then we had to sit 2 seperate taxi loh. waliew. then the taxi driver which drove me, jenn and chloe to suntec was damn nice! hahah. yepps. anw ate crystal jade there. damn cool can! but then felt so .. err dunno how to say .. poor? cos like we are the only young pple there? others all like working liao. haha. then the next table guys so irritating. kept on talking about us can! then laugh and laugh and laugh. waliew. anw we all ate the same food! and we all could not finish the food loh. if like put all together then will make 1 bowl of porridge?! waliew. then the meal was so damn ex? like $45 +? waliew. then was so funny when we had to pay the bills .. hahah. jenn all of them know lah. hahah. anw we were really crazy mann! haha. can ask them if your want! really gone bonkers! hahah. well, what to do, have to enjoy while we are still young what! haha. okay .. im mad!
then met my sister and we went home together. then halfway while walking thru citylink jenn suddenly said she lost her wallet and hp! waliew. then tab and my sis and amanda walked away liao loh! waliew. then it was like so scary! stupid lah .. in the end it was in her pocket! waliew. almost got heart attack can! hurr. dont scare me lah! my heart damn weak one can! hahah. mms. then reached home at around 10.30 plus? yepps. took my shower cos was so damn sticky! then blowed dry my hair. haha my hair was so soft then .. haha. mms ohwells. my stupid hair so irritating. keep on qiao-ing! waliew! hurr!
today
went to school. was late. haii. actually did not want to go to school today one cos .. err nvm. anw was so late for school. hahah. mms then during recess told pauline something. waliew. tell you arh! hurr. damn irritated! had 5 minutes of physics which the tcher did not even spare us from the 5 pathetic minutes! waliew. so boring lehs! dont even know what the hell they talking! |: hahah. ohwells. then after that we had IPW the final rounds i think? yepps. was really noisy there leh! waliew. cos teresa, charlene and us were there then we were telling jokes! waliew. damn funny can! hahah! was laughing like crap.and stupid lah teresa! haha shall do the trick on other pple! hehe (: -grins!
then after school went out wit pauline. wanted to meet stef but in the end also did not get to meet cos he had to leave for tuition. and what he say is like totally correct? busy man huh! hahah. anw then me and pauline went to kfc. waliew. saw this 2 guys keep on staring at us lehs! then we sat at the table behind them then they kept on turning back and staring! waliew. damn irritating can! then keep on like .. oh whatever lah! hurr. idiots |: hahah.
anw then went to PS. yepps. met jenn jiang there. haha. she's nice. and met one of my old cat class friend who was also in cedar. haha. mms did not expect to meet anyone i knew except jenn lah. haha then just sat dwn and talked. did not really talk though. was not in the mood. haha. yepps. then ltr we seperated and then i walked around wit pauline lah. yepps. saw this nice op shirt but then did not have money so did not buy lah. haii. anw then came home.
anw cant believe that jeff is actually on newspaper! oh my goodness! i mean on xing qi wu zhou bao. hahah. was laughing like siao when pauline told me. hahah. oh my goodness now i cant stop laughing! hahahahaha. okay .. anw now have so little time on the internet! parents dont allow lah. waliew. stupid lah. hurr. anw think im going to sign guestbooks liao. so long never sign liao. haii what to do. have no more time on the internet. haii |:
22:45
20030714
love aint gna wait for you `
haii. mms tmr have science test and i have yet to study it completely yet! just going to fail it. haii have no confidence in myself! haii. someone help me kkaes? give me a hugg before the test. hope .. gives me one too (: hahah. mms. anw this morning was almost late for school. then before i came out of my car saw this very very familar person coming out from the car in front. then i was like !!? it was jingyu! hahah unexpected lehs. i mean she always comes so damn early? yah .. hahah but anw .. did not say hi to her cos she did not turn back. but she saw me in the car lah. hahah. so silly of me rite? haha see my dear also never go and walk wit her and say hi and give her a hugg. haii im so shi bai |: hahah whatever.
anw then had lessons. think wang lao shi is damn nice can! hahah she damn cutee one! hehe. think she's as nice as cai lao shi except cai lao shi is less strict .. haha yepps. mms. then went to put back attandence. going to change monitors i think? yah .. so happy. hahah then next time in the morning dont need to run up and dwn though can lose weight. haha. but anw think 2 of them is chloe and amanda! hahahaha. my dear partner and my dear friend! whee. haha. mms. anw can you believe it? my dad asked me to change church to christ the king .. its my dear partner's church! but then .. i cant be in the same class as her cos her class is full? haii. then maybe i'll be in the same class as karina. haha see how first lah. dont know if im transfering or not. haha and amanda! oh my goodness. haha you must be so embarassed on sunday! hahaha. mms too bad i wasnt there. haii. haha. okay lah .. shall cut the crap. hhehehe.
then went to hall. had this shit thing which was damn boring! waliew. almost fell asleep. hahaha. and got so many letters today like vreone reply the same time? haha. and now i have 3 letters to reply. hehe. lets see i'll reply it tmr kkaes (: yepps. mms. then came back to class had english which was damn boring today i dunno why. haii was complaining to amanda. hahaha then we ate m&n's haha. tou chi one. tell you i damn pai one. haha. then had chinese lit too which was chao boring! hahaha. wasnt even listening lehs! haha. mms.
recess was damn horrible! had to go for this stupid meeting which took like 20 mintues? haha. mms. anw on wednesday me going to the national stadium! and stef ask me to say hi to him. mms. maybe lah but then rite? wo so mei lian jian ren lehs! so ugly |: haha anw told amanda about .. and then she was laughing. ahhas. kkaes. mms. ate fried rice which was like totally so oily! eeks :/ haha kkaes. fat me! whatever then had lessons again then this jingyu still dont wna tell me who. waliew. aiyah come on lah dear! hurry tell me kkaes? dunno if who im thinking of is correct or not. mms. hurry tell me lah! hurr. hehe. mms. haii tmr have science test and i am like not sure about everything? haii. just going to fail it mans! |: die die die. better be going now. oh yah .. tab .. cheer up lah. aiyah .. love always hurts. it goes the same for everyone. haii sick and tired of it. pauline! im trying my very very best to let go okay! dont hafta remind me about it. haii.
oh yah .. cut my hair too. one and a half inches lehs! but still like got no diff liddat! hurr. stupid lah. tell you i'll be complaining about it in school tmr. ahhhas (: mms. kkaes.
21:27
20030713
your name just keeps repeating in my mind
i forgot .. i had the best dream in my whole life last night! ahhh. so sad can! why cant it happen?! i dreamt that .. actually said that err err. oh nvm. but why cant it happen? my life would be perfect is that happens. haii was thinking of
that person before i slept last night and i dreamt of
that person? oh my goodness! but haii .. guess dreams are just dreams that will not happen right? haii so sad! why why why. just hope it happens. haha thinking of it is making me smile like siao! oh mann! i ilovee that dream! haii.
dont wna lose this feeling
oh yah i also remembered that jessie's coming back tmr! so long never see her wonder how she looks like or what she has change or whatever. but anw heard she's going to 1 hope. mms. ohkay. heng arh! haha. anw stef said he read my blog. waliew then dont go sign my guestbook! haha. mms anw sorry lah i know you dont know how i look like but then your parents were watching you so closely i did not even dare to say hi or wave to you. sorry. maybe see you on wednesday kkaes? yepps. (: haha. anw have conference soon lehs sotong! if youre reading this .. hurry lah. you stupid sotong and stop asking me to go and die lah. you think i dont want issit? haii |:
19:27
flying on the wings of love
hurr. so pissed off wit my parent can! waliew. they damn irritating. dont wna let me go cut my hair. when i ask my mum she say "for what?!" wth loh. cant i cut my hair? it grew so now i wna cut it. waliew. so irritating. then just now wanted to go out wit my sister to watch movie then they also dont allow. then my mother so sarcarstic. waliew. i mean .. i already studied can! not as if i did not study or something. complain and complain. what the hell loh! argh. so irritated.
anw this morning woke up late cos did not hear my dad calling. then my parents left without me and my sister. and we had to go for mass can! waliew. then me and my sister had to take a bus dwn to church and the thing is that my card had 0 cents! waliew. had to use coins can! so irritating. then was late for mass lah. did not sit wit my parents. sat on top cos no seat liao. the priest which said mass was this visiting priest i think? yah .. so boring lehs. haii whatever. anw then went to eat kway chap? yah missed the food there. haha. so nice lehs! mms. then dunno why my parents can take my brother's bad behaviour esp my dad loh. waliew. he behave so damn badly he can take. the when we scold him or something my dad would scold us. waliew. what shit can! hurr. so zhong nan qing nui one! hurr. so irritating.
then now my phone spoilt still dont wna help me get one. say have to wait wait wait and wait. waliew. fine lah. i'll wait 2 weeks. till then i'll get my phone i suppose? haii dunno lah. but anw have been in bad mood today. came home and studied like shit and then still cant go out. then wna cut hair also cant. waliew. one day im going out to cut my hair without them knowing. whats the point of asking them if i know what's their answer going to be. haii. whatever. anw so sad can! haii. did not get to see .. yesterday and today. haii. so poor thing! pauline! im more kelian can! haii. better tell him soon kkaes? yepps. let him know lah. you lucky pigg. haii. hate life. why cant i just end it liddat? haii |: