i shall just go straight to the point. whoever posted that caption in frienster, whatever. what shit is that ? utter CRAP ! screw you. actually, you should jus go screw yourself. im fucking pissed. dont need ta ask others ta find out fer you. now im announcing that i AM fucking pissed off. you should just mind your own business & shut the fuck up ! fullstop. i have nothing more ta say to you. im wasting my time.
i just don't get it.
i don't enjoy being hurt.
met up with
leopard today again ! was supposed ta meet at 1200 but, ppl who know my well know that im ALWAYS late fer everything. haha so yeah. i arrived at around 1230 ? met
jen huiwen & dior there too ! walked with them till i decided ta wait fer
xun cos she jus reached too. her group was also meeting at esplanade so i waited fer her la. yeap. when we were walking to our two different groups, i could feel all the stares la ? all the many pairs of eyes staring at us as we walked. like so weird. absolutely weird ! like half the ppl at esplanade was from st john ? then all of them from anco or bnco. so all of them staring ? :/ very nice ta stare meh ? :l
but anw, went ta sit with my group la. just stonned there ! was super bored la ! hurr. didnt come up with anything at first. sean left then we continued stonning. haha. went fer lunch, luther, princess & prince left. so we went back & cracked our brains. hurr. came up with some dance steps with the help of some dancers from there. yeap ! haha nice ppl :) was super shagged after that.
went ta play pool at simei. i won both games ! :D :D :D my so-called teacher is so proud of me ! haha ;) after the games, went kfc fer dinner with dhab. well, we had a lil' chat la. yeah. then head home. tmw ive alw. sickening. my whole entire sundays are ALWAYS taken up by this. hurr. cant wait fer march ta come. then it'll finally be over ! ha.
im so tired now. feel like sleeping but there's like alot of fuck going through my mind now. especially what xun said ta me just now. hurr. maybe i should have listened ta her in the first place. guess this time i made the wrong choice. damn. im alwis making stupid decisions that i'll regret at the very end. tell me why ? :/ oh whatever. time will tell. till then, guess i'll just remain this stressed & worn out. wish me luck. ha.
JUST KILL ME !
you should let me love you, make me your selection, let me be the one to give you everything you want & need.
stones taught me to fly,
love taught me to lie,
life taught me to die.
okay im finally deciding ta blog ? ha. anyway, school has been so stressful nowadays ! every single week, there's tests ? walau. they're jus driving us nuts. it's only the SECOND week fer God's sake ! im so not used ta it at all. hurr :/ at least ive
shu & peiyu ta survive it with me in class. maybe being in THREE wisdom's not so bad after all. heh.
mmm. if you ask me, everything hasnt exactly been going too well fer me.
i HATE being ignored ! especially by
you. guess you wont ever know how i feel. you changed so much ever since i knew you. oh fuck. maybe it's jus me. damn it. i guess im not a type of girl to mess around with ? :l
sometimes i wonder why it seems like im the only one facing this. like im alwis the one getting into trouble, getting into all this shit. im so sick & tired of all these ! jus feel like banging my head on the wall right NOW :/
STRESSED.
jus when i needed someone to talk to, you weren't there. aahhhh. i cant take this in my heart anymore ! :( okay i dontknow why im ranting this all here. damn. tuition later. like in eight minutes ? so damn sleepy ! ahwells. im off !
i need you to hold me together
when i feel like i'm falling apart
i need you to hold me together
till i gain control of my heart
im feeling SUPER confused now. dontknow what i should do. what's right & what's wrong. damn. to hold on or to let go ? sigh :/ not much. jus feel like blogging songs nowadays. dont ask me why. there's no reason to it. rah. xun was right. i guess things are jus happening too fast. aarrghhh. i dont think i deserve this.
All day I lie in my bed and
visions and thoughts of
you are in my head
I never thought I could be
crying over you
Somewhere in my mind
I'll fing a reason why I
Fell in love with you
Why, oh why
Did I fall into your trap of
Love, hatred and pain
Now I know what love
can do to you I
Don't think I'll ever fall in love again
There's no turning back
once you're crushed
Somewhere in my mind
I'll find a reason why I
Fell in love with you
Why, oh why did I fall
into your trap of
Love, hatred and pain
Ooooooooh,
I don'y know if you feel the
same about me; please let me know
Ooooooooh,
'Coz there's something in my heart
that still burns for you
I don't know why
Please tell me who
Somewhere in my mind
I'll find a reason why I
Fell in love with you
Why, oh why did I
fall into your trap of
Love, hatred and pain
broken promises.
time & time again, you lied to me.
sometimes i get emotional
sometimes i do some stupid things
sometimes i say what i should just keep inside
sometimes i'm sad, about everything
sometimes i'm mad, and break some things
sorry times ten, but you just got in the way
don't give up no, running away
i won't hurt you
sometimes i'm just a pain
and that's the way it is
that's just the way i am
sometimes i feel like crying
laying down and dying
that's when i need you
laughing's always easy
but sometimes i'm just scared you'll leave me
that's when i feel,
emotional
you say i'm just, impossible
totally, unpredictable
i'm just a girl, get used to it
no big deal
you can't change me
why would you try
i'm no angel, but i can make you smile
and that's the way it is
and that's just the way i am
sometimes i feel like crying
laying down and dying
that's when i need you
laughing's always easy
but sometimes I’m just scared you'll leave me
that's when i feel.
emotional
don't give up now, running away
i won't hurt you
sometimes i'm just a pain
and that's the way it is
that's just the way i am
sometimes i feel like crying
laying down and dying
that's when i need you
laughing's always easy
but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
that's when i feel
sometimes i get,
emotional