sick and tired of this world
there's no more air
trippin' over myself
goin' nowhere
waiting
suffocating
no direction
1985's playing on da radio now :)
well its been a kinda okay week. quite a week ta start off from. got our exam timetable ? hurr hafta start studying ? seems like everyone has started except me :/ im still slacking away la ? heh no motivation i guess ? but anyhows,
MY FUCKING PHONE'S SPOILT ! cant even switch it on la ! hurr. went tampanis mall jus now & wanted ta send it fer servicing but waited fer about half an hour & da queue didnt seem ta be moving so left. hurr. i dont wanta service my phone ! :(( what if all my messages get erased ? darn sad la ! its like dontknow why it suddenly spoil ! i didnt even drop it once ! :(( dad's thinking of changing anoher phone fer me but .. sigh. i dontknow. my phone ! :(
anyhows, went ta get lunch fer my family. came home & my mom scolded me fer my phone. so irritating ! not like i want it ta spoil or sth right ? walau. hurr. then watched tv la. yeh. now supposed ta be studying chinese cos got test on tuesday :/ but haha got carried away. heh.
totally screwed up my home econs test on thursday la ! like wth. think im most likely gna flunk it ! :( sigh. but on thursday was darn fun afta home econs la. during math ms rockey was damn funny ! haha. then cos home econs dragged all da way till afta recess so went back fer class jus in time fer elit. so jus happily ate our cooked food ? haha ms low didnt even say anything la ! haha. science was damn fun too ! although i hate science BUT ms praveena allowed us ta eat ? heh ate so much of jae's cake ! :))) darn nice la ! haha. that woman's cake's damn nice ! especially da whipped cream ! :D
assembly was super funny ! haha first time crapped so much during that time. heh. fun la. went ta da toilet with jae & i realised that im taller than her ! wahahahhahas :)) i grew ! yays ! haha. i love my hugging partner ! ;) afta school studied with
manda pau kell chew & qin. qin came late. but before we started studying we were bitching like hell ! lol. about some ass ! oh yes ! estee told me all about that bitch la ! she's like so two faced ? one minute act pitful, the other minute when we turn away, she rolls her damn fucking eyes at us ? like PLEASE ! she cant beat pau & me okay ! we're da WOMAN ! haha we're like beta than her la ! she think she what huh ? freakkk ! :/// glad i beat her fer math ! HAHA this proves im smarter than her (like please ! when am i not smarter than her ?) ! :))
heh yeap. went home with manda later on cos wasnt in da mood ta study. came home & didnt do anything either ? heh watched tv da whole time la ? haha. da 1900 show then watched singapore idol :) maia got in ! YAY ! haha da judges chose her ! whee ! then beverly got in too ? eeks :/ dont like her. sylvester got in too ? yucks man. ahwells dontknow la. that's jus MY opinion. heh.
friday was alright i guess ? didnt stay back ta study cos my tuition tcher didnt cancel tuition in da end. dad fetched me :) went home ate & studied fer my tuition la. then while studying halfway was feeling damn tired so fell asleep on my beanbag :) somehow, i fell sick afta that ? was down with flu plus i was feeling damn cold so maybe a slight fever ? got up ta get a jacket & fell asleep again afta that. woke up again & studied a lil'. tcher came & had tuition la. haha my tcher was saying that i was mad ! she said this: da re tian mei ge ren dou zhe me re, zhi you ni chuan jacket, ni you bing ah ! hahaha she darn cute man ! she's not so bad afta all :) heh.
afta tuition was feeling damn tired so fell asleep on my bed again. at like 750 dad woke me up & asked me if i wanted ta go fer cath class. i was like okay la. then when i stood up not abit got a splitting headache la ? my dad said i wasnt looking quite fine so he asked me not ta go. so i was like okay lors. haha :) spared me from those boring talks ! heh. was damn bored & didnt wanta study so watched tv lors. my daddy was telling me about his past ! haha interesting man. waited fer my sista ta come home from work ? printed out my science worksheets & did it ? by that time it was like already 0030 la ? hahahaha. slept at like 130 ? heh. tired !
okays dont wanta blog anymore. dontknow why everytime i blog il think of
that thing & it sucks. sigh dont wanta be reminded of it anymore. im off ! LATERS !
on the way down, almost fell right through but i held onto you //*
some people want it all
but i don't want nothing at all
if it ain't you baby
if i ain't got you baby
some people want diamond rings
some just want everything
but everything means nothing
if i ain't got you
today's okay ? lets see. first day of school started off pretty well :)) didnt have assembly so stayed in class & talked :) haha. updated my woman about stuff ! :D haha super happy la ! was in a damn good mood. sng came into class ? got back our compre paper. did like shit. jus passed ? hurr :/ then she made us set our goals thgy ? yeap. did it & she kept asking me ta change my goals higher ? like not abit trying ta pull me down la. cos its like quite obvious i cant do it ? IM STUPID ! like hello ! -waves bet she cant see me anyways. whatever.
had chinese afta that. dontknow why all of a sudden i was feeling darn tired. so was like sleeping la ! haha. she caught me twice & got jess ta wake me :// geog afta that. got back geog paper too ! like normal, i did like shit. didnt even improve or what la ? everyone & i mean EVERYONE improved except me. haiis. sometimes i wonder why im so stupid ! :(
recess was okay i suppose ? yeh. art was fun ! :) did ceramics. heh i completed mine last week so got ta sorta 'paint' it today ? yeh. painted mine in like some weird combination i dontknow how it'll turn out ? bleah. ahwells. maths was GREAT :)) haha yay ! got back math paper too ! got a1 :) like finally ! haha was laughing like mad with mersa la ! haha my darling hearttalker :) -high five dear !
english again. was darn boring. jus did corrections fer our compre. yeap. thats it. stayed in class & chat with them ! haha. like in dontknow how long la. then left with jing & pau fer jeight. while walking out let sth out ta jing which i thinki shouldnt have ? i was supposed ta keep it in me ? but i guess i jus couldnt take it anymore. haiis. anyhows, headed ta da macs there ? did our menu there then went ta get our lunch ! :) took neos afta that. hilarious man ! haha. our photos are like ?! heh. then went ntuc ta get out ingredients ? like walau ! spent so much time there la ? like dontknow how many hours ! :| afta that pauline had ta leave so she left first. looked ard with jing then we left also. had ta carry da stupid smelly fish all da way home la ? like i stay so FAR ! but anyways, got home had dinner & watched tv all da while. havent been doing any studying la ? rahhs. havent tried out my freaking cooking yet ? haiis shall do it tmrw la. im too lazy. besides, its too late fer any mess in da haus now ? haha shall blog about yesterday.
sunday
didnt go fer mass in da morning cos i went fer youth mass already. mom was being so naggy ! she totally pissed me off. like whatever man. anyways left haus ta meet mersa & peiyu at serangoon mrt. headed fer serangoon stadium fer agi. it was super boring & HOT ! jus sat there & rot la ? haha too lazy ta blog. go refer ta wanxin's blog if you guys wanta know da details. actually i was feeling quite .. never mind. shall not say it. but sixy was finally together again ! x)
changed behind da specs stand there ? haha i was FIRST ta change out ! :) this wanxin didnt say ! haha ahwells. then headed down ta kopitiam with mersa peiyu jen & wanxin. yeap. waited fer dad ta come fetch me ? they came like super late la ? afta they fetched me, headed down ta my aunt's haus ? had bbq there. was super lame la. was feeling quite down so decided ta drink though i didnt feel like it. thought i could drown all my sorrows by drinking. but obviously i failed. im sucha failure man. anyways crapped alot with that person. dontknow who's he la. my family's huge. OMG ! jerome's so cute ! haha my baby cousin ! he's darn cute ! ahhhh ! :D haha. left their haus at like 2230 ? yeah. came home, bathed & slept. heh im a pig la. ahwells.
shits man. that feeling's coming back ta me again. sigh. sometimes i really wonder why all these are happening ta me. why cant God jus take me away from this world filled with sadness ? like why's everything so unfair ? sometimes i really wanta let it all out ta them but i think its useless ? like everything will still be da same. nothing's like how it used ta be anymore. why did it have to happen in da first damn place ?! fuck this whole shit. i hate myself. cant God jus take me away ? i dont think i can hold on any longer. im not alwis how i seem.
BIG THANK YOU ta all those who have been listening ta me. yeap. thanks !
esp
my idiot; jing; pau; yeh. thanks alot. i love you guys hell loads. dontknow what il do without ya'll.
okay dont think i wanta carry on blogging already. think il most likely feel even worse. sigh. im off. nites.
if i ain't got you with me baby, nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing.