20031011
happybirthdaypau ! :D
happybirthdayru ! (:
15:41
you dontknw what ive been through.
ive tried so hard but how about you ?
last night had conference.
haha. damn funny.
now pau has a new surname !
hehe. all thnks to jeff.
hahaha ! :D
laughed qt alot la.
sounded qt dead i knw.
sorry. wht can i say right ?
not feeling well :/
have been sick since the start of eoys.
damn sick mann !
feel so weak like im going to die !
ohwells. dont bother.
andandAND !
im the first to wish pau happybdae !
exactly at 12 !
hahahas. so gd right ? :p
woke up qt early this morn.
arnd 11 liddat.
aft tht went out wit my dad to get lunch.
he very irritating !
keep on talking abt colour fone.
say duno wht starhub got alot of gd deals.
thn say they advertise alot on newspaper.
ask me go see.
wht is this mann ?
thn he told my mom abt it la.
thn he said tht he wanta get 6100 for me.
i was super happy lors !
i mean like i want a colour fone ?
and like 6100 yue4kan4yue4mei3 ?
yah. so i want it la.
thn my mom agreed lors !
thn ltr on he said
"i think i dont wanta get alr."
wth ! like hello ?
one min say get one min say dontwant.
whtthefuck mann !
yest also liddat !
SO IRRITATING !
hope ill be able to persuade them.
thn i cant get colour fone.
and the best thg is tht ill have 2 lines.
till nxt year !
haha. free incoming calls !
900 free sms !
100 free outgoing calls !
damn cool lors !
thn nxt time i can talk on my fone.
longlongLONG time also can ! (:
hahas. really want it !
im going to get it !
IM GOING TO GET IT !
okok. enough alr.
dad slping now.
cant talk to him. wth.
i shall study ltr.
not in the mood now.
think im going to sign pple's gb ?
so bored !
nthg to do lors !
ahhhhhh ! dying here !
ok im off !
im so pissed alr.
to vreone who is sad ..
cheerup la !
there's no point being sad.
i mean esp whn its not worth it.
yah. you shld get me la.
whtevr it is just cheerup kkae ?
yupps. tkcare and studyhard !
3 mre days !
just 3 mre days and
we're free ! (:
20031010
cos we lost it all,
nthg lasts forever.
im sorry i cant be perfect.
now its just too late,
and we cant go back.
im sorry i cant be perfect.
im bek agn ! (: hahas.
elit was ok la.
but im qt worried for my last ans though.
its qt short.
only wrote like 1 and 5 lines pgs ?
merchant of venice lehh !
damn worried but ..
haii. just hope id pass la.
hope my sing to the dawn pull me up.
wrote 3
full pgs lors !
hope they are not outa point.
if not thn im dead.
wrote lotts of crap.
mms. if anyone your wna knw ..
i did question 1, 3 and 5.
haha. thought it was the easiest.
yupps. haha. jingyu too !
the two of us have the same mentality la.
cos our eng standard all the same one.
its the truth lors.
i mean it !
serious (:
mms. mon chi and clit.
not going to study for clit.
dont feel like.
dont evn understand a damn thg.
haha. im stupid wht.
wht can i say right ?
dont blame me.
blame my parents :p
haha. lamee ! :/
just now chi tcher came.
realised tht ive forgotten vrethg !
all tht ive learnt 1 week ago lors !
arghh ! so pungsai.
my memory so bad lors ! :/
sighh. hope id do well.
cos chi is my best sub.
clit is not gna pull my marks dwn !
it beta not.
maybe ill just read thru la.
see how la. if i have time.
stayed bek today wit jingyu.
haha. slept most of the time.
was damn tired today.
dunno why.
maybe cos ive not been slping ?
yupps. and cos i slept late last night ?
yea. talked on the phone mah.
think ive not slept for evn 20 hrs this week !
eyebags starting to appear alr :/
so tht explains la.
slept at arnd 2.30 to 3 smethg ?
like only half an hr ?
thn ltr met kell and siggy.
stayed wit them for awhile la.
halfway me and jingyu sorta slept agn.
tht silly woman !
used my stomach as her pillow.
and i used kell's.
haha. so funny.
thn kell purposely laugh.
thn she made me laugh cos ..
her stomach vibrated.
thn we laugh and laugh.
so fun (:
love them plentyy ! :D
talked to mrs lye for awhile too !
was complaining to her abt sec life.
sucks like pungsai mann !
thn she said tht we didnt listen to her.
blahblahBLAH.
yea. talked for qt a while la.
she's pregnant
agn btw.
like wth. so fast agn ?
ohwells. just knw she crap alot ! :/
hehe. -wide grin.
kkae. dad's complaining.
so irritating lors !
he purposelypurposelyPURPOSELY
say he wanta get colour phone for my mom.
to make me jealous ?
cos i told him i wanted one ?
he wanta get for vreone except me ?
whtthefuck mann !
so irritating ! :|
feel like killing them !
SO IRRITATING !
im going offline alr.
cant stand my parents !
whole day complain one lors !
duno how im supp to survive the hols !
id just DIE at home.
maybe the world wld be a beta place w/o me.
i really feel very very useless.
haiis.
jingyu arh !
i really feel so useless ! :/
haiis. anw you cheerup kkae ?
yupps. ill alwis be here fer you ! (:
just tryy not to think la kkae ?
yupps. tkcare and smile dear ! :D
or not ill come look for you !
and draw a beeg smile across your face !
yea. loveyou alwis my dear pandaaa ! (:
panda loves pandaaa plentyy !
cheerup ! (:
22:07
i dontknw wht you do to me.
i only knw it works.
sometimes you make me feel so good.
sometimes you make me hurt !
mms. its so early ehhs ?
hahas. im still like online ?
tmr have elit test.
hardly studied for it at all !
bleahs :/
just hope id pass it la.
screwed history today.
sighh. like so many blanks ?
and all my answers all crap one ?
damn. just a pass wld do for me.
hahas. knw my expectations damn low.
but wht can i do right ?
im not tht hardworking. haii.
just got off the phone wit jingyu.
talked to her for 2 hrs on the phone.
cant believe she act slept !
during the last few mins !
wth. i was talking lors !
but nvm la. not impt anw.
i feel damn useless now.
feel like i cant help jingyu wit anythg.
sighh. why am i liddat ?
really damn useless lors !
as in .. haii. dontknw la !
-pulls hair !
really feeling very stressed.
esp by
tht thg mann !
haii. ohwells.
im off to bed. so tired !
nites to the world !
5 mre days to
freedom ! (:
cant wait ! sighh.
but hope vrethg wld be fine thn.
20031008
i knw they say if you love somebody
you should set them free
but it sure is hard to do
yea, it sure is hard to do
and i knw they say
if they dont come back agn
then its meant to be
but those words aint pulling me through
cos im still in love wit you
i spend each day here
waiting for a miracle
but its just you and me
going through the mill
this is the long goodbye
somebody tell me why
two lovers in love cant make it
just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart ?
no matter how hard i try
youre gonna make me cry
come on, baby, its over, lets face it
all thts happening here is a long goodbye
sometimes i ask my heart did we really
give our love a chance
and i knw without a doubt
i turned it inside out
and if we walked away.
would make more sense ?
but it tears me up inside
just to think we still could try
how long must we keep riding on a carousel
going round and round
and never getting anywhere ?
(on a wing and prayer)
this is the long goodbye
somebody tell me why
two lovers in love cant make it
just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart ?
no matter how hard i try
youre gonna make me cry
come on, baby, its over, lets face it
all thts happening here is the long goodbye
the long goodbye
the long goodbye
this is the long goodbye
someone please tell me why
are you ever coming back again
are you ever coming back again
are you ever coming back again
guess im never coming back again.
22:41
the words tht you said,
do you knw it hit me so badly ?
it pierced right through my heart.
mms. i bek agn !
hahas. eeps :/
so angry wit myself lors !
screwed geog paper today.
as usual.
think id screwed
all my papers !
sighh. duno whts wit me.
havent been getting anythg into my head.
stupid brain !
still filled wit sci stuff tht i cant forget ?
and of course many other thgs ?
yea. haii.
think id qt a gd but bad day today ?
in the morn was ok la except the exam :|
thn stayed bek to study histiry.
as usual didnt get anythg done ?
sighh. feel so useless !
and right. ill study ltr.
im going to !
i musnt fail history !
id a D7 lors ! wth.
need only like 3 or 4 marks to pass ?
dont wna pass me. damn.
haii. but its all me to blame la.
but i just hope ill pass eng.
though it was qt easy ..
somehow, im feeling a lil uneasy ?
cos like the paper where got so easy one ?
thn all my answers all so ..
straightforward? thn like so .. haii.
just hope ill pass eng.
if not thn i cant get bek to stnicks.
thn ill hafta go neighbourhood sch ?
waliew. nonoNO !
no way mann !
was complaining to kell just now.
really think i complain alot lehh !
thn was talking to jingyu just now.
mms. so damn scary !
waliew ehhs. now the sch damn scary !
we were sorta like urm .. shh !
shall not say :/
anws, duno if im happy or sad !
feeling so pungsai !
i mean like just now thought so much ?
thn like cried a lil' ?
haii. dontknw whts wit me mann.
why am i thinking of all these ?
not supp to lors !
told jenn abt it. sighh.
really think im damn useless ?
wth. aiyah anythg la !
im going to bathe and study alr !
tatas ! tkcare !
7 mre days to freedom ! (:
whee ! hahas. -hugg.
sighh. pungsai la ! :/
20031007
if you cry,
cos the sun is setting in your life,
your tears will prevent you,
frm seeing the stars.
im bek ! hahas.
oh mann. im not supp to be here !
eeps :/ haii. ohwells.
mms. screwed my sci paper today.
sucked mann. so damn hard !
all tht my sis taught me didnt come out ?
or at least i didnt understand how to do it ?
wth. how stupidd right ?
sighh. feel so useless.
just cant have any confidence.
not in any one of the papers !
chi screwed too !
the stupidd letter writting !
duno if my format is correct.
hope so la.
but im qt sure its correct lehh.
but most pple didnt leave line.
i did. sighh.
if i get it wrong id minus 4 marks !
waliew. thn its like a just pass mark ?
6/10 lehh ! gna pull my chi dwn mann !
haii. thn for compo.
duno how come today i got so much to crap !
crapped out 3 full pgs !
haha. how's tht ? mms.
hope i didnt go outta point.
if i did thn .. haii. die la.
tmr having geog paper.
havent evn started yet.
cldnt concentrate in sch.
haii. so useless right ?
was feeling like pungsai ?
and today i so sway lors !
arghh ! wht is this mann ?
damnit. of all days ?!
nvm. butbutBUT.
im qt sure ill screw geog too.
haii. how nice ehhs ?
aft sch today was horrible !
except the first hr la.
haha. laughed alot.
aft tht ? pungsai la.
so scary ! -shivers.
felt as though we were being followed.
waliew. damn scary lors !
stupid jingyu said tht i looked possessed ?
wth. i was looking arnd lors !
ohwells. qinn's so sweet !
wrote me this note to ask me to cheerup ?
hahas. so cutee of her ! (:
ohh ! bel treated us to pizza !
so yummy. haha (:
ok think i shall go study alr !
cant stick to this stupidd com all day long.
sighh. gna suck for geog tmr ?
wish me luck mann !
gdluck to all !
tkcare and cheerup ! (:
jingyu pandaaa !
cheerup alright ?
she's not worth your tears.
i mean see wht she's doing ?
yupps. so just cheerup la !
at least for panda's sake kkae ?
yea. smile la !
tmr i wna see a beeg smile !
alright ? though i knw you cant read this.
but yea. just urm .. study hard la !
must get bek to stnicks !
come on my dear !
you can do it ! (:
20:37
20031006
happyonedaybelatedbirthdayna !
happyfourdaysbelatedbirthdayjessie !
21:03
sometimes,
loving that someone means letting go.
letting go isn't the end of the world,
but the beginning of a new one.
cherish the memories,
for they are all that's left.
mms. havent blogged in a while ?
hahas. ohwells.
supp to stay away frm the com.
but i guess i just cant ?
yupps. haha.
say whtevr but .. ??
duno la. just cant.
hehe. no determination :/
sighh. i have to try !
to be more determined ! :D
hehe. alright.
math paper sucked today.
eng too !
eeps :|
didnt knw how to do almost all !
waliew ehhs.
haii. im hopeless !
oh mann.
just going to flunk it la !
haii. i have myself to blame.
didnt evn open my math tb ?
yupps. so its my fault la.
ohwells.
changed my blog.
spent the whole night doing it.
supp to be studying but ..
obv i cldnt resist ?
yea. haha. :p
so here it is.
it looks almst the same la.
but the layout a lil' diff.
yupps. sis helped me wit most of it.
haha. she changed her layout too !
as usual.
haha. who ask her to be so gd in these ?
aiyah whtevr la !
im crapping ! :|
she said i hafta thnk her so ..
thnks my dearest sis !
yupps.
duno why im typing this way.
my sis said it looks beta ?
so listen to her la.
since she is beta at these stuff ?
but its really hard to type though.
yupps. but cant help it la.
tmr is sci and chi paper 1.
going to do very badly.
only studied for bio this whole day.
ltr i shall go mug !
hehe. im
motivated !
but i wna do well !
failed sci for overall the past 3 terms.
at least i think so.
haii. wht can i say ?
im stupid wht.
sighh :/
stayed bek wit nicol bestie today !
she told me qt alot la.
haii. ohwells.
just hope
you cheerup soon dear !
dont broad ovr those thgs now la.
just concentrate on your studies !
yupps (:
ill always be here for you alright ?
yea ((:
but thn .. ltr on she ditched me.
like wht jingyu did.
but in the end i still ended up wit jingyu.
haha. weird right ?
ohwells. its just the way it is.
jingyu you cheerup too ! (:
so many thgs happened today.
sighh :'(
feeling like pungsai now.
duno why either.
complained alot to kell earlier on.
manns. think i complain alot.
kell, if youre reading this ..
im feeling fine alr !
hahas. so proud of myself !
-pats back ! :p
ok. think ill go bathe now.
thn ill
mug !
ohh ! now got nicee show !
joshua ang acting inside !
omg ! he's chao cutee ! :D
hahas. i sound so obsessed wit him ? :/
well, not really la.
he looks kinda proud ?
aiyah guess most pple are liddat ?
esp whn they are popular ?
sighh. its just human nature la i guess ?
yupps. ok enough alr.
talking too much. haha.
i shall tryy not to come online.
but ill see how.
if i have the need to thn i will la.
yea. alright. tkcare vreone ! (:
gdluck for
eoys ! :|