hello :) today was pretty much alright! woke up super super late! :) slept kinda late the night before cos i was on the phone with my dearest. but that's not the point. haha the point is, i woke up super late. well, i wouldn't have woken up if cherlyn hadn't called to wake me up! haha but it's okay la. talked to her on the phone fer awhile! was supposed to wake up & go meet them at compass BUT, i was too lazy. so i went back to sleeeeeep :D
woke up & realised i couldn't meet them anymore. was kinda late already. yeap. so headed straight to church! they weren't there yet! met bern :) stood there talking to her! haha that girl's darn sweet :D met the rest of them & we went fer lessons! haha it was pretty much alright i guess! heh, but i was half asleep i hafta admit!
after cath class, went compass point to meet my dearest! haha that idiot was early, fer once! haha :p went fer her friend's bbq? it was kinda weird at first! cos i didn't know a single soul there except her & her friends! & everyone kept staring at first. so awkward. but it got better :) although i was kinda LONELY at times cos
someone pungseh me a few times! heh. luckily i had cherlyn on the line with me! i think i would've died without her man! haha.
they're like one bunch of funny people! haha super crazy :D i pity the birthday girl! they threw ice down her bra! & poured jolly shandy on her hair! then this guy splashed chin chow on her shirt! goodness me! haha but she's funny! she wanted her revenge so she fought back later on! it was hilarious! i didn't wanna get myself involved so i just stood at one corner watching & laughing. haha. then that stupid alex, she was tired so she sat beside me & disturbed me la! haha so later i kinda like joined in the fun. she & her friends! all one kind one lorrr! all gang up to bully me! her friend actually put ice into my shorts okay! wth! :/ oh wells! it was fun la. hahahah don't know whose birthday is coming soon! whose ah? MMHMMMM :p
anyway! left at around 2230! yeah. came home & i actually didn't get scolded! :D :D :D wow! amazing. haha yeah. anyway, i'm tireddd! i'm off! nights world :)
happy sweet sixteen zoeraine! :DRound and round, here we go again.
Same old start, same old end.
Turn my head, I turn back again.
Same old stuff never ends.
Do this, do that.
Can't deal, can't deal with that.
I tune in, tune out.
I've heard it all before.
Hello, goodbye. Never asking me why.
Now here we go again.haven't been blogging! haha well, happy to announce i'm finally back :)
yesterday, i was talking to
peiyu & i realised how sterotype & superficial people are, how they always have other motives & in the end, they make you do stuff so that they can benefit from it! actually, they don't even give two hoots about you! :/ although they might seem like the nicest people around, i seriously doubt so. i think i'm gonna start keeping more to myself instead of always talking to someone. i never know what their next move would be anyway! oh wells! but after talking to her, i also realised something else! i really appreciate some people! they never fail to be there fer me! & i really don't know what i'd do without them! :)
one, my dearest! she's been great! :D you should be honoured i put you first on my list okay! if you ever read this, thanks fer being there fer me always! helping me in every way you could, never failing to make me laugh & smile! when i'm down, you always try to cheer me up! & then we'll both laugh together! you silly girl! :) thanks alot LAA :D fer listening to me rant, cry, complain, scream, & more! also fer all the times when you were there fer me. especially throughout this whole week, which had been really fucked up! i heart you! <3 i don't know where i'd be without you! :)
i'll be there for you, these five words i swear to you :)two, my bestfriend of course! :D sorry you had to bear with all my nonsense in school. sorry fer all the times when i had mood swings & vented it on you. i really didn't mean it alright? but i know you don't mind, cos you're still as irritating as ever! :) haha thanks la! fer lending me your ears whenever i needed them! listening to me cry on the phone & saying absolutely nothing at all! :) it's really comforting to know that someone is actually willing to listen to you cry without complains! haha one day, i promise we'll sit by the beach & count the stars together alright! that one day will come soon! i love you very much hun! :D i'll be there fer you too okay! just give me a buzz anytime :D
three, peiyu fer making me realise so much! fer allowing me to finally say out what i feel inside! guess maybe she's the first person who knows it. like, my inner self. you didn't know me, did you? haha :) well, whatever it is, remember never to change yourself! this might sound so wrong to you, but i'll be here if you need me alright? :) chill about everything & don't get too stressed out with your school grades! i'm no better! haha love! :D
four, my eyecandy! haha fer studying with me always! & fer scolding me fer every small mistake i make :/ & gossipping with me all those rubbish! haha. seeing you just makes my day better & brighter! haha wow, look how bright you can shine, hugger! i love you la! i know you love me MORE right? haha yay :D -HUG HUG
five, my scandal! x) although i haven't been hanging or talking to you lately, i still remember you okay! & all those silly times we spent together, shopping & doing absolutely nothing at all! taking scandalous photos, fitting room photos & everything else! haha i miss you truckloads hun! one day, we'll go shopping again alright? then, we'll catch up! till then, i miss you darling! :D :D
haha there are many others who played an important part in my life too. but i'm way too lazy to type out. i'm sorry. but you know, every little thing your do, colours my life & i want your to know that! haha
chloe &
teresa, you're are not forgotten! love you guys! haha tanning partners! :D
school has been pretty hectic these few weeks! all subject teachers have been desperately trying to complete the syllabus! chinese is the main killer! that crazy form teacher of mine has been teaching ONE CHAPTER per lesson throughout this whole week! that's totally nuts! oh wells! lousy preparation on their part! HAHA!
mm, lets see, started off with math this morning! there were some china visitors so they sat in! the principal was totally obsessed! he kept taking photos & videoing us! he was so fascinated with the fines that mrs soh charged us with! he came over to me & asked me why money was needed during lesson times! haha i didn't know howta explain to him in chinese la! so weird! but i did after all! he's really freaky! he kept staring at me & standing where nicole & i were sitting! freaky! ah wells!
english was alright? had a comprehension test! wasn't too bad. was kinda rushing through the summary though! haha i'm always taking my time & this is what happens! never mind :) math again after that! she completed elementary math syllabus already! how quick! can't believe it! hohoho. i don't feel any smarter though! haha :/
recess was alright! kell's phone & wallet went missing! she was so pissed off! oh gosh, poor girl! darling, if you ever read this, we'll help you search alright? i'll be behind you no matter what! you go girl! LOVE :D cheer up! after recess we had to assemble at the specs stand cos the sec fours were having their prelims & they didn't trust that we won't make much noise! haha. so yeah, kinda wasted fifteen minutes of lessons just sitting there doing nothing. after the next bell, the school conducted a huge spot check! they checked our pockets, bags, lockers, desks & everywhere! to look fer kell's stuff of course! but i think the culprit's really stupid! of all people, why steal hers when she know she's getting herself into HUGE trouble! so now we all know she's damn daring! oh yes! shan, don't feel bad alright? it's really not your fault & no one blames you fer it! smile girl! cheer up! :)
during the search, many funny things happened! haha many people were complaining how unfair the school was! making sucha big fuss outta it just cos it's KELL who got her stuff missing! haha oh wells! guess maybe that's the only way to catch the culprit. & that bloody zhuang! omg! she's sucha bitch alright! i told her that the person could hide the stuff in her bra! then she went to touch my chest! OMG! she like totally molested me okay! wtf! RAHHHHH >( anyway! the searching & all took fourty-five minutes of lesson time! :D haha so we missed almost half of chinese! WOOOOTT :) chinese wasn't that unbearable la. haha.
cca after that! was alright la. i slacked all the way though. wasn't really in the mood to do anything at all. celebration fer zoeraine! haha happy sweet sixteen NCO! :D you rock! haha all the best fer your upcoming prelim papers & o' levels! :D we love you! :)
after that went back to class with shu, wanting to take my first aid manual. haha i expected to see kell in class & true enough, i did! she asked me fer a hug! it's been sucha long while since we last hugged! :) we talked fer a VERY LONG WHILE, sitting in class! haha thinking about stuff & gossipping as usual! haha :) along with samantha low too! yeap! haha learnt quite a bit! well, at least now i know! returned to st john room only at 1615! haha by that time, cca was almost over! then wrote a letter to someone, but i tore it up in the end. didn't know how i could pass it to her. i think all's gonna be so different now. i hope not though. oh wells. sigh.
went down to see some drills! mini comp groupings are out so they were kinda like training? yeah. haha my clique was being silly & crazy as usual! haha playing that scissors, paper, stone, split game? haha so retarded! so cute la! :D we kinda distracted the juniors alot though! sorry! oh wells! oh yes, talking about the juniors. i believe i hafta point this out. if anyone of your ever reads this,
please show your seniors more respect. everything we do now is fer your own benefit. you think we enjoy scolding your? think again. i think we deserve more respect than this alright. stop all those blabbering on your blogs & stuff, thinking we won't go read them. even complaining to ME about MY squadmate & didn't even care less that we're your seniors! telling me to tell her whatever you told me? my opinion of you totally changed, totally. whatever it is, i just hope you guys would be more understanding & not keep complaining about every little minor stuff. thanks so much! dear valerie! i love you! :D
macs after cca with ho, shu & mersa! haha. called my crush to find out how she was doing after her operation! i sure hope she's doing fine & that she ain't lying to me when she said she was okay! i miss you so much! :( get well soon okay? -HUG! then cabbed down to plaza singapura with mersa! got some stuff & headed home! haha just completed my math homework & so here i am! haha i'm so bored! alright! i think i've blogged enough! off to go find something to do! haha i'm outta here! :D
I cannot find a way to describe it. It's there inside, all I do is hide. I wish that it would just go away! All the pain I thought I knew, all the thoughts lead back to you. Back to what was never said, back and forth inside my head. I can't handle this confusion! I'm unable, come and take me away. I feel like I am all alone! all by myself, I need to get around this. My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you. If I show you, I don't think you'd understand cause no one understands.