i see my blog as a place where i rant all my thoughts. but sometimes, it's not a very good idea cause i don't even know people read my posts! haha. scaryyyyy.
projects have been killing me, literally. with so many projects, assignments, tests, busy schedules on hand, sleep was a huge factor. but i didn't manage to catch much. which explains the sudden break outs :(
i swear i'm stressed out. i went to the doctor last friday. told him what i have been experiencing for the past two weeks. i think i want to be hospitalised. haha so i can get my rest! stupid, but i'm desperate! anyway, the doctor's verdict was plain simple: you are too stressed out that it's affecting how your body's functioning. & you have gastric flu so i advise you to take proper meals. oh goodness golly. i could never imagine this would happen to me! not the meals part, but the stressed out part. i feel so sorry for my body. they're prolly dying inside as much as i am :(
but actually, all my good friends have been telling me that i'm stressed out. just that i myself did not know, or did not realise the extent of it. but now i do. i have been crying for no apparant reasons, okay maybe there are some things, but they're not my priorities right now. i should really learn to set my priorities straight for once. i suck, like seriously :( & all of a sudden on thursday night, when i was sleeping, i woke up crying, shivering & curled up in a ball, teeth chattering, under my blanket with the air con temperature blasting as high as 25 degrees. yes, tell me about it, normally i'll be alright with that temperature, but that night, i was running an extremely high temperature. it was fucked up. i was crying so bad, when i heard my sister coming home. i was so happy cause at least i could tell someone about it. when i told her, she just said "you're probably having a fever or something." then she slumped her lazy self on the sofa & crashed. that's my caring sister for you. haha but i knew she was really beat from her company's annual party but hello, your sister is dying & in need of your help! so i just curled up beside her & tried to fall asleep. somehow, the tears just kept flowing. i wonder why.
the next morning i went to school specially for iac, i hate the fucking teacher i swear. she's a bitch. i don't think i should elaborate. i swear she hates me too. hurr. anyhow, i was still running a fever. but because there was presentation, i went to school. in the end she gave us two more weeks, ugh. i mean she's being nice but she should have told us! & garrett didn't even come for class, that bitch. haha. lms was fun, you missed it. heh.
but hey, i'm glad the week passed quickly. all my projects are done! well, except for iac which is done. we're only left with presentation! then there is business management which is due tomorrow! then we're free :) haha phyllis & i were planning our weekly schedule out the other day. guess what? we're going shopping! we need to relieve stress yo! haha.
but i'm so happy i still managed to take time off my very busy schedule (if you were victims of my stress, i'm sorry!) to leave the entire wednesday with my bestest friends in the whole wide world :) check out his blog if you want to know what we did. it was awesome :) i love both as much as i love myself :D
so here's the happy part, now comes the sad part.
results out. hopes dashed, dreams of everything were broken :(
i shall not go further. but you'll always be my baby, our baby :)
exam timetable's out. fuckkkkkkk. don't even ask who i'm dating or what i'm doing during valentines' day okay! i'll murder you. i'll be spending 14 Febuary 2008 with my very lovely poa notes, mugging my ass off for the paper the following day. what a spoiler. then, there's management paper they next day on a freaking SATURDAY :( don't they have brains? saturday is rest day alright, they suck to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxx! i feel whiny right now. hurr.
so will you be my valentine? haha benjamin asked. & yes i will :) but awwwww, stupid exams. screw off!
okay just submitted pbl 2 for bca. like just. finally got over with it. i fucking hated it so bad it was the main source of stress for me. at least now, i feel more relieved knowing that it's done! goodbye to you, stupid brain wrecker. haha.
np's open house is over too! it's not going to be so crowded anymore! sorry shawn, i wasn't in school the other day. heh.
poc's next saturday. i'm done with the special thing :) yay & i stupidly volunteered my lappy for use on that day! ugh. i hope nothing happens to my lappy cause i need it! haha & there's way too much information in it for others to see. it's strictly confidential okay :( sigh, i must learn how to lock my stuff. heh. meeting davin on thursday to get some stuff for my group :) haha & no, i'm not so stupid to mention it here. saturday's coming soon! keep in suspense! HAHA.
anyway, to those cadets who passed, congratulations :) for those who didn't, i know you did your best. results are merely i don't know. nothing? it's the process which matters. & i believe all of ya'll learnt some valuable lessons during nco course '07 & made some really good friends? so i'm glad. & just so you know, i'm very proud of all of you. & i mean everyone, because advanced is so small, i know all of you. haha so there, lift your heads up high & be proud you've been through it :) much love alright!
okay school tomorrow. totally not looking forward to it. somehow, i have this super bad feeling about what will happen in the morning. hurr. i had having these kind of freaky instincts. prove me wrong, that i'm not psychic! HAHA.
alright, i think i should get to bed now. i need all the rest in the world. heh, life's a bitch. i have to admit.