somehow, i can't sleep even though i'm really drained out & tired. been trying to keep those thoughts off my mind these few days. they just can't seem to stop haunting me, can they? i haven't been sleeping well & catching the flu bug ain't helping. falling sick with no one out there who gives a damn about it :(
4 months ever since. i must say i've been happy. but feeling empty nevertheless, is quite uncomfortable sometimes. you were always there for me. these few months, i know you've been trying so hard. but somehow or rather, i don't seem to be reacting in your desired way. why? i have no idea. i guess for me it's good. it just shows how much i'm determined never to walk that path. but at times i wonder, why can't i just give you a chance? everyone deserves a chance. but i just can't. & i'm sure the one person who can relate to me the most is my bestie dearest. could you hurry get over with As so we could start spending some quality time together? i need a tan!
i wonder why you keep coming in & out of my life. why can't you just leave me alone? both of you. here i am trying but there you are spoiling my whole recovery plan. please, i need some fresh air. like you both know who you are. hurr.
school's starting in two weeks i think. didn't manage to get in the same class as melissa. but phyllis's in my class! feels weird being in tf02 now. so used to being in 04, i'll definitely miss you guys. but then again, school's nothing much too. just another reason to torture us, get us up early to get our lazy asses into the lecture halls. what can be worst?
the past isn't really over, cause it never fails to come back. leave me, won't you? stop invading my mind. HURR. i need to rest. i need to start buying sleeping pills i swear. even after swimming today, i'm so damn tired but i can't frigging sleep. there's seriously something wrong with my stupid body!
i'm getting married at the age of 25! to whom? my bestie dearest. HAHA!
happy birthday ryan :)