20050908
hello.
i'm still online.
i've school tmw at 0900.
meeting my bestfriend at 0845.
& i'm still online.
ha ha ha :/
i'm feeling down right suicidal now.
great.
i'm sorry.
i shall go do somthing now.
bye.
01:32
20050907
I never walked on water,
Never saw a reason to be going out that far.
I never found a star that made a wish,
But now the sky is listenin' to my heart.
They can break me, make me.
If they want, they can chase me,
Love me, hate me, I don't care anymore.hey :) just reached home! came back from the crowning of the new miss seventeen! :D haha tisha won! :D she's my dearest's cousin! heh, she's damn pretty! congrats! :)
well, nothing much about today! woke up kinda early, at 1115 cos i was on the phone with my dearest the night before till three am! :) haha. read the stupid book, the joy luck club, cos i have been sleeping in elit lessons, i don't know what's going on! haha. yeah. so i was reading & reading till my daddy came home & my family went fer lunch together!
lunched at loyang point? realise that's a new hot spot my parents love to go! wonder why though. mm, not like it's that great or anything! oh wells. freaking brother pissed me off real badly though. i just can't stand the sight of him! so irritating! but i guess i just hafta get used to it. too bad he's my brother, if not i would have abandoned him already! haha :/
dad sent me to the mrt station! went off to meet alex! :) my bestie accompanied me over the phone as i was making my way there! thanks so much darling! :D haha i miss you laaaaaaaaa :X as usual, my dearest was LATE. so i got the tickets first. waited fer her & stoned. hahaha NO, i mean rocked ;)
finally she came & we were like almost half an hour late fer the movie! haha but guess what? when we went into the theatre, the movie just started! hahaha. so we were lucky! :D caught
the red eye! haha pretty alright, i suppose. but not worth the money cos it's like ONLY one hour! how pathetic right? :/ but it's kinda good. haha i screamed at one part okay! how embarrassing okay! :X
anyway! headed to the x box station at dhoby ghaut mrt! yeah. played one hour of the car racing thingy! haha we were being so retarded okay! cos at first we didn't know howta activate the stupid system! so i think we took about twenty minutes trying to figure it out! so dumb right! haha but we got to play a couple of times though! :D haha it was pretty fun la! hehh :D
headed to zouk after that! haha i called my bestie! :D cos i was thinking of her & decided to tell her that i miss her! but, i think i regret la huh. that woman, she's bloody ego okay! haha we both became super high after that! lol, sorry dearest! hahaha hafta suffer! :X reached great world. got something to munch on. then went straight to zouk! went to the hotel beside it to use the toilet first! haha, met her aunt there! yeap! later we went queuing outside zauk. i took my sister's ic to sneak in! haha the bouncer checked & didn't believe that was me! i mean, like duh la. haha so he asked fer the ic number, birth date & address! wth! i got so irritated i rolled my eyes at him! LOL. but i got in after all! heh.
randall tan was the MC! :D he's damn it cute la! super funny too! haha. then the contest started & all. the games were funny la! haha stupid alex tried to sabotage me okay! haha but i didn't go up after all! luckily! haha she'll get so jealous! hahahaha. then the winnners were announced & all. after the people slowly started to clear out, we left la. i mean, i left, all by myself. how lonely right? went to meet my sister & her boyfriend at great world city! yeah. came straight home! :D
RAHHHHH. i've gotta go back to school tomorrow :( spoil my whole day! i was supposed to have a date with my sister okay! sigh, oh wells. i hope it won't take long! if not, i swear i'll kill them! haha :/
got my eyes on you, & i like what i see :)
00:23
20050904
I'm at the brink, though I know that I'm empty.
I always hide when it's my turn to seek.
My only belief is not to have faith in believing.
Before I begin, I'm over.well, i really have no comments on today. it was ALRIGHT, i guess? i should start being more cautious of what i type here cos i realise more & more people are reading it than expected. HA. how very smart of me! -pats my back.
woke up early in the morning! was supposed to meet the rest of them fer breakfast but, only sudibyo appeared so yeah. took breakfast with him then headed to nativity! oh how much i miss my friends there okay! :(
first person i met was camilla :D haha that silly girl never changed! she's still the crazy her! :) well, that's good good good! haha. mmhmmm. helped ben tend the stall fer awhile? then met joanna & ran off to find phyllicia! WOW, i really haven't seen her in like ten whole months! oh my goodness! haha she's still the same old noisy her :) yay! then finally, jana came! oh gosh, i miss her the most okay! :D :D :D WOOOOTT. i felt so good being able to see them again! like finally! i didn't think this day would happen! haha cos i didn't even expect myself to transfer church! oh wells :)
walked around looking fer food fer the rest of them! heh. they're like damn cute okay! well, one bad thing about nativity that i would never fail to admit is that - it's freaking hot! like no wind at all! so bloody hot okay! we were complaining like hell alright. haha the typical group of us :) always have something to complain about! :p
well then slowly they all had to leave & everything. so we went our seperate ways. yeah. helped out with the stall again! this time i really did help know! haha. camille was there too! kinda made friends with her? haha shocking huh? but yeah! she's nice! yeap. helped to chop on the paper thingy so they could exchange it fer gifts! haha & my chop's damn cute okay! in the shape of a lip one! :D cute!
bestie & i spent alot of time together! :D
later on, i left with jana & joanna! :D towned! haha it was raining like hell okay! we all got drenched in the pouring rain! i was shivering! but i lent jana my oh-so-very cool jacket, so i had non! hahaha :) headed to plaza singapura! ate at secret receipe? joanna's sister was working there so we could get discount :) haha the food there's yummy! heh.
walked fer awhile. to heeren & took neos! haven't taken it since like ages ago! can't even remember when was the last time i took it alright! haha yes, that's how long i've not been in touch with neos! well, prolly cos i grew outta it. yeap! walked over to taka & i left with jana soon after! i wasn't really feeling too good! so i decided to go meet my darling bestie! :) i don't know why but she was the one person i could turn to since my dearest wasn't in town :( went to her house & really stuffed myself. sigh, that's the fucking thing that happens each time i'm really depressed or sad okay! oh wells! at least i've got my bestie by my side to tolerate all my nonsense :) one minute i was laughing like God knows how hard & the next i was crying like fuck. whatever la. i'm going bonkers! ha ha ha?
we had a LONG talk :D i love that darling! she's super sweet & understanding! haha, please don't get ego if you read this okay! hahahaha. anyway! later on i left, then came home. yeap that's all. aiyah, not in the mood fer blogging anymore. nights :)
i still miss youuuuuu :(
21:53
headline news: my dearest is back! :D :D :D :D :D haha, can't you tell how excited i am? :)
don't think that you can tell me what to think
i'm the one who knows what's good for me
and i'm stating my independence
gonna take the road i'm gonna take
and i'm gonna make my own mistakes
it's my life
i decide
i decide, how i live
i decide, who i love
choice is mine and no one gets to make my mind up
i decide
i decide where i go, what i need, who i know
i'm the one who's running my life
i decide, i decide
don't think you're ever gonna hold me down
couldn't do it then can't do it now
i'm kicking down all the fences
i'm gonna do it all and do too much
and if i mess the whole thing up
its my right
i decide
i decide, how i live
i decide, who i love
choice is mine and no one gets to make my mind up
i decide
i decide where i go, where i sleep, who i know
i'm the one who's running my life
i decide, i decide
i'm taking my own chances
i'm finding my own answers
i'm only answering to me
and that's the way it's gonna be
i decide
ohh yeah yeah
i decide
i decide
i decide, how i live
i decide, who i love
choice is mine and no one gets to make my mind up
i decide
i decide where i go, where i sleep, who i know
i'm the one who's running my life
i decide, i decide
i decide how i live
i decide who i love
choice is mine and no one gets to make my mind up
i decide