i think this song lyrics is so damn nice? yea. so meaningful ..
i know its been sometime
ive had something on my mind
you see i havent been the same
since that cold may day
we said we needed space
but all we found was a empty space
and the only things i've learned
is that i need you desperately
so here i am, and can you please tell me
where do broken hearts go
when they find their way home
back to the open arms of a love that's waiting there
and if somebody loves you
wont they always love you
i look in your eyes
and i know that you still care for me
ive been around enough to know
that dreams dont turn to gold
and that there is no easy way
no you just cant run away
and what we had was so much more
than we ever had before
and no matter how i try
youre always on my mind
so here i am, and can you please tell me
now that i am here wit you
ill never let you go
i look in your eyes
and now i know
now i know
a sight of heaven in a grain of sand, leading me on taking me by the hand
whts wit signmyguestbook.com agn? so irritating kks! opps me for wht! wtf. anws, just wanted to leave a few pple some msg since i cant sign your guestbooks. sorry alryt? hope your will read it la. yea. anythg reply to my gb. oh yah! my PPR just sucks! i cant believe tht i deproved
agn! wth. haii. duno la. but right now im really determined to study? get gd results and show my parents tht im not slacking! yepps. hope ill stay this motivated la. :/
qinn : heyys dear. dont be silly la. its really not your fault kks? dont think too much la alryt? i mean like really loh. itd nthg to do wit you la. dont worry. and youre definately not wht you said you were alryt? yepps. and now cant study together anymre. sighh. will miss you lotts alryt? yea. try to meet up kks? yepps. tkcare and iloveyou lotts!! anythg ill always be here for you. yepps. imissyou! (:
jingyu : heyys dear. you seemed really troubled? i duno la. though you said you were fine? i dont know? but anw hope you cheerup alryt? anythg ill be here for you too. haha. yepps. can just call me la. anytime (: yea. and i didnt catch how your mum looks like. hahas. so lame but ohwells. cant study together. mms. maybe lets meet up and can study! haha. really hafta improve on my studies! really horrible! alryts. tkcare kks? iloveyou always dear! imissyou!
+ if you need me im just a call away +
yepps. haha. -hugg.
tab : heyys tab. dont be too sad abt the thg tht happened kks? i mean .. life has its ups and dwns wht. its the same for vreone. no use crying over spilt milk. thts wht pauline always tell me but .. i know its hard la but at least just try to forget wht happened kks? just dont think of her anymre thn maybe life wont be so miserable? yea. in the mean time hang in there kks? dont cut la. anythg ill be there. yea. tkcare during the hols alryt? yepps. iloveyou! missyou too! (: -hugg.
nicol : heyys dear. im very sorry i cant make it on tuesday cos im going out wit my family? i duno la but my parents said tht we were not free. sorry alryt? maybe another day? yepps. i can make it vreday except tues i think? yepps. so must tell me kks? yepps. tkcare and iloveyou! imissyou lotts too! (: -huggs.
whenever you make a choice, especially one you'd been resisting, it always affects everyone else, some in big ways, like a tremor beneath your feet, others in so tiny a shift you hardly notice a change at all. but it is happening.
whtevr. im just so pissed off. feelg so betrayed and stuff. cant believe tht i act trusted you so much. damnit. shldnt have evn told you anythg. haiis. im just very pissed off la. really i think im very .. haii duno la. just very sad and .. haii. dont think id evr live the life id live before. thgs just seems to be diff now. haiis. i duno la. maybe it was just wrong of me to open up to so many pple. haiis. now come to think of it i think pauline is still the best. haiis. danfong too la. cos i trust tht she wld never tell my secrets to anyone. yepps. aiyah i duno la. just feelg so .. fucked up. never felt this way for a very long time. guess i need a hugg now. jingyu im very sorry for wht i said just now la kks? i didnt mean it to make you so stressed up. haiis. if you want to you can come scold me slap me or whtevr la. if tht makes you feel beta. i duno la. i never know anythg. haiis. just sorry la. i never meant it tht way. anw theres going to be a physics test tmr and somehow i feel very confident for it but now my mind is in a whirl and i just cant seem to concentrate. i duno. i duno. i duno. just duno la. i feel so useless now. well, maybe im la. cld someone just wake me up? going to breakdwn soon kks! aiyah who cares anw. fine fine fine. im just a bitch la ok? just kill me la! just wna die now. sick and tired of my fucked up life.
conclusion :
urelikemyrighthand.
withoutitikantwrite.
withoutyouikantsmile (:
me&jingyu.kantlivewithouteachother(:
haha. nice phrase huh? but dont wuhui kks! yepps. thts wht i said to jingyu on msn and she put it as her nick. so i also put it as my nick! haha. (: she's so funny. always making me laugh whn im sad. tht silly dear of mine. always making pple smile but not making herself smile. haii. really duno wht to do wit her manns. just cant seem to cheer her up. but i guess now she's cheering up? i duno la. but i sure hope she does la. dun wna see her so sad always. smile kks dear (: yepps.
ill be here for you always!
today is such a boring day! stayed at home practically the whole damn day! woke up in the morning at like 8 + haiis. sick mann. thn was so tired came out to use the computer. duno why i just had the sudden urge to visit pauline's blog. haha. well, guess i really missed her? mms. thn signed her gb la. yepps. thn after tht ate breakfast. mms dad's scrambled eggs really gd! haha. thn aft tht went bek to slp. wht a pigg im right? haha just like my dear. oh mann! i just found out smethg else we have in common! haha. kks. im really going insane. haha. :p
stupid parents stuffed me wit lotts of food today. duno how im going to survive whn i have hols manns! im alr so fat still ask me to eat! grr. -bishthem!! haha. whtevr. not going to let them ruin my mood. hehs. thn studied a lil la. cos tmr have chi tuition. -shrugs. hate tht stupid woman. forever scolding me for getting such gd results! i mean to me its very gd la. i got 81.5 for mid years and she scolded me for getting so low! wth. thn also i got straight a1 for chi this year and she said i deproved?! wtf. last year i didnt even do so well kks! tsk. whtevr.
thn after tht talked to
danfong on the phone for more thn 2 hrs? haha. love tht silly gal! always there to give me advice and stuff? yea. i owe her big time manns! haha. nxt time ill go to her whnevr i have probs cos she know vrethg now? haha. thnks dear! loveyou lotts! always there for me. (: hehs. thn also talked to
tab la. haii. you cheer up kks? just know tht ill always be here for you whnevr you need me to kks? yepps. just letgo la. its no point holding on when its going no where. yepps. just try to take thgs easy la. i cld do it so im sure you can do it kks dear? yepps. loveyou too! thnks for being there whnevr i needed you to. yea. (:
thn called jingyu. tht silly gal. made me so worried for her cos she did not reply my sms. grr. so naughty. she said she forgot. waliew. thn called her but woke her up frm her slp. im so sorry dear? and you know smethg? i called you using my hp kks! you know whts a hp? its not a hse fone. its a hand fone! haha. yepps. copied wht she said in her blog. haha. :p so naughty right? haha. but nvm la. thn she sounded so sad. but i just hope she's fine now la. if she's not fine thn im not fine. cos she's like my right hand. hehs. kks.
have been on the net like for hrs? parents complaining of course. wth. so irritating. x| complaining to nick now. haha. he's so funny. telling him like vrethg? haha. yepps. he's so nice but now im so so so so convinced tht sji pple are so
s i c k ! haha. really sick kks! eeps :/ the pictures are really .. disgusting kks! haha ohwells. wht to do if they are really sick? haha. anw think im going to stop blogging alr. hand so tired. haha. so
useless right? haii. i duno la. anw
jess thnks for signing my guestbook kks? yepps. must come more often kks? catch up wit you sometime. haha. hope your doing fine. yepps. thkns agn! (: haii i miss sch. i miss you all manns. love it whn i stayed back till 8 + thn come home. haha. tmr going to be another boring day at home! ahh. how i wish i cld go out wit pauline they all. haiis. but i guess id have to stay and rot at home! eeps :/
ijustwishyouwererightbesidemesaying
iloveyou
mms. me blogging agn? haha. yea. yest went out wit jingyu. went ikea. haha had fun there i supp cos we were kinda insane over there. playing wit the toys and stuff? yea. esp the big heart. haha can hugg you back one cos it has the hand thingy? yepps. haha played and played. saw lots of things tht amazed me lotts. kks.
thn went to taka. ate alot. really lotts mann. haha ate like duno how many ice creams? thn also ate tako pachi which jingyu said she hates cos she thinks it stinks? duno her la. haha. but i love it la. yepps. thn laughed alot. esp on the mrt train. yea. stuffed jingyu wit lotts of food. haha. so funny kks! but anyhow just hope you cheerup la dear and dont think too much alryt? ill be here any time for you dear. and put the past behind you la. dont think or worry too much. tht wld only stress yourself up. yepps. hope you had fun la (: reached home at ard 10 + and did not get a scolding surprisingly. mms. cools. haha. ohwell. my parents very weird!
bought tchers day present liao. like finally? yepps. haha. so proud of myself. -patsback- haha lame. kks. whtevr la. designed it alr but i think it looks awful. eeks. but who cares la. give thm present good enough le. still gta get sweets haha at home not enough. see whn i can go out thn go get. yea. hafta go study now. haii sian mann. mother keep on complaining like wth. whtevr la. -rollseyes- so sick and tired of life. just wish i cld die right now. eeps. :/ damnit.