what's going on in my mind now :[
these days i can't help but wonder why --
i stick to my illusions to carry on
i'm so ashamed to dream of you
it's just that your out of the game
how i wish that someday
i could belong to your life
really wish that someday
you'd just take me away
jus read
something. it's like, they're two different people now ? they say something but they mean another. they dont even keep to their word. whatever. such liars. wonder how we even got close in the first place. UGH :/ why does this always happen to me ? why cant some people jus keep to their promise ? do they have to lie ? forget it. maybe it's time to admit that people DO change. sigh. so be it. your jus dont see it, do you ? :/
UGH. damn, my life sucks !
fcuk this shit.
God, can you hear me ?
im screaming out fer help !
please save me ! :(
im having a lil' situation here :/
everybody's talking all this stuff about me
why don't they just let me live ?
i don't need permission, make my own decisions
that's my prerogative.
guess i lost the touch of blogging. haha. okay i dontknow what im talking. anyways, this week went quite okay. lets talk about
saturday :)
out with
jing fer this church thingy. well, it's pretty much the same as cath class but actually come to think of it, christians are quite similar to us catholics. oh wells. the talk was okay, quite hard to understand though. haha. went with jing's friend called
jawn ? i think. the ppl there were very friendly :) one of them said i had the st nicks look. ssit supposed ta be a compliment or what ? heck it. haha.
it ended at around six plus. had a chat with the rest then left shortly after. town after that with
jingyu. after walking jing ta paragon, we left fer cine ta catch
the incredibles :) finally. haha. the theatre was very empty ! had a great time crapping around with her during the movie ! HAHA :D :D nice show. after that, left fer home. reached home at like ONLY eleven thirty ? wth. was damn tired :l haha oh wells.
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today was OKAY ? went fer mass in the morning then took my brother out fer lunch. my parents had sth on so my sis & i were stuck with my brother. ugh. wanted ta go hougang central ta eat so, we took a bus. then we took another bus which led us ta da wrong direction. GREAT :/ then we had to WALK in the
hot scorching sun to hougang mrt. hurr. was so darn hot ! took like almost one hour jus ta get there ? it's like oh my gawd ! had lunch & later we had to walk all over again to the bus stop. i could have died man !
got home & started packing my cupboard like crap. wanted ta take that chance ta clear all my old clothes which i know i will definately NOT wear in a million years ! haha. so, my cupboard is half empty now which means, SHOPPPING :D :D haha. rightt in my dreams. okay, then packed my dressing table. like wth. it was super dusty okay ! im hundred percent sure that the dust got into my brain ! gosh. now it's like so sparkling clean thanks ta my sister & i x)) crapped ALOT with my sister ! cant really remember what we talked about BUT it was really hilarious ! hahahah. im serious ! laughed so hard ! it was fun ! cant believe im actually saying that all this packing was fun ! :x
then changed the bedsheet which my parents had been nagging me to :l was damn tired after all those work so jus laid on my bed in the air-con room ! haha. had pizza fer dinner ! :D :D then watched tv & slept all the way. hehhh. bathed after watching
the swan. damn tired now. oh man. i feel like a total pig. ahwells :)
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i put it right there, made it easy for you to get to
now you wanna act like you don't know what to do
after i done done everything that you asked me
grabbed you, grind you, liked you, tried you
moved so fast, baby now i can't find you
i'm startin' to believe that i'm way too much for you
all that talk but it seems like you can't come through
all them lines like you could satisfy me
now i see where believing you got me
gave you the wheel but you can't drive me