The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting
It couldn’t be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you that I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible to find

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep
And hold onto your words
‘Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

today is the best day of my life! it's simply perfect :) i like things the way it is now, lets hit pause & embrace this moment. if only everyday was like today, then everyone would be happy, or at least the people around me would be, i hope.

firstly & most importantly, happy birthday to mummy dearest :D

moving on, it's the earliest i've woken throughout my whole holidays! went to meet baby at serangoon mrt! headed down to vivo, to buy mummy's birthday cake! haha bakerzin, mango moose. it's quite yummy! went in hunt for mummy's present but we couldn't find anything suitable so i made do without it, it would have been a waste of money & mummy might not like it so, yes. i'm a sensible girl aren't i? HAHA. had lunch at food republic! the curry rice is not bad but it's daylight robbery.

i made bestie's day, i know it. i made your day. bought butterfly & fried banana for her because i know she was feeling greedy, as always. then we talked about some stuff & i left in a flash cause i was late in meeting amerie & her family.

met my brother at pasir ris interchange & since we were early, i decided to accompany my brother for lunch. got him some food then shawn & him started getting hooked onto the psp. i was so bored. haha but i don't mind. seeing how they can get along pretty well really made me happy, contented.

after that, brother took the cake home while shawn & i went groceries shopping for the picnic! i felt bad going empty handed you see. if i didn't buy anything there i would have felt really guilty. so being cheryl, i wanted to sweep everything off the shelves. luckily there was baby to stop me from doing so. ended up spending quite a bit on three pathetic pack of chips. expenses these days are really high, i wonder why my allowance is not going up too. but i'm not complaining, i know i'm already pretty pampered. haha.

so headed down to pasir ris park! we were so early so we walked around a bit first. then we decided to stay put at the shelter because we didn't want to climb trees (HAHA inside joke yo) then her family & friends came along & not forgetting, JC BEAR :D he's so freaking cute i swear i can bring him home. haha i want pictures but i'll wait till that SLOB is done with the transfer. haha, i have so many pictures i want to get from her!

we took care of jc baby & it was a joy seeing him enjoying himself at the play area. haha he's just simply adorable oh my goodness. haha seeing how shawn took care of jc bear really made my heart melt too. he'll make a good dad, that's for sure :) haha.

so we took photos & more photos & no, i do not look enhanced you sick shit. haha. much fun, laughter & joy with my boyfriend & best friend. cherlyn chia, you were dearly missed by the CCA club. it would have been more fun with you. but of course, it was fun.

daddy came to pick me up! went to fetch my sister & we headed to sunset way for dinner, at some hong kong restaurant. the food's not that fantastic but it was alright, enjoyable with my family. wanted to get my hands on some daily scoop ice cream but the damned car park was full. so we made do with island creamery instead :D it was super fun with the family & we laughed so much! i believe the five of us were truly happy :)

home sweet home! mummy was watching teevee when daddy & i surprised her with the cake! haha she had no idea we had that all planned out. i swear if i could, that my parents are the most loving couple on earth. daddy secretly took a day off from work for mummy & lied to her that he didn't. he's so sweet, what a sweet surprise. if i were her, i'd be delighted too. i think, i'm a very lucky girl. i have an awesome family, awesome friends & my life is good! as of today. haha. praise the lord!

so anyhow, mummy loved the cake, so did i! yay! i made the right decision once again! all thanks to baby dearest :)

then, i got some news & i need to spell out how angry i am with you. i can't believe how you could even bear to hurt my friend. she's such a wonderful person & you just had to do that. i'm so hurt, angry & i think i should stop right now before anything more comes out. fullstop. i'm just angry, very very, so very angry with you.

well, apart from that, i thank god for today, it was awesome. maybe god was & is still listening after all :) thank you for making me realise how important all those were to me. i think, i need to start praying more often. help?

When i'm with you,
I'll make every second count.
Cause i miss you,
Whenever you're not around,
When i kiss you,
I'll still get butterflies.
Years from now,
I'll make every second count,
When I'm with you.

i'm so in love, so in love with you.

And I don't know,
How to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know,
How to make the feeling stop.
Just so you know.


this is what happens when you are caught off guard. at least, that was the last thing on my mind i thought would be it. i don't know what's going on right now. i don't know what to do. i feel so lousy about myself, why must it always be this way? why why why. i feel helpless, yes i finally found the right word to describe this feeling i have inside. helpless.


today was good, maybe only the part when he was with me. i'm so glad. he's always been there for me, in one way or another. thank you baby love. thank you for cheering me up, talking me into doing the most appropriate things, understanding my position & not getting mad at me. you're the awesome-mest :D he got me a mickey mouse balloon :D :D :D and i realised, we always take photos on the 17th of each month, tell me about it. haha.

he said to me "i want you to be happy always, just like mickey mouse." AWWWWW :)

i would just pause at that very moment, where everything seemed so perfect as it was. where i still had everything, everything i ever needed in this life. dear god, are you listening?

i love the dude who isnt rude, & goes by the name of cheryl.
i call her my beloved indian koala, & my mum mistook her name for DARYL.
i love to see her pweeeeeetty pweeeeeety smile, which makes me wna sing a christmas carol.
&the aim of this poem is to cheer her up, so we can all drink alcohol which comes in a barrel!
so, i would really like to let her know, that i do love her so, & nth would ever change that (:

a poem by amerie cher, hearts all over the world.
so much for cheering me up, you're making me cry.
i love you so.