20040501
notice me, take my hand
why are we strangers when
our love is strong
why carry on without me
everytime i try to fly, i fall
without my wings, i feel so small
i guess i need you, baby
and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, it's haunting me
i guess i need you, baby
i make believe that you are here
it's the only way i see clear
what have i done
you seem to move on easy
and everytime i try to fly, i fall
without my wings, i feel so small
i guess i need you, baby
and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, you're haunting me
i guess i need you, baby
i may have made it rain
please forgive me
my weakness caused you pain
and this song's my sorry
at night i pray
that soon your face will fade away
and everytime i try to fly, i fall
without my wings, i feel so small
i guess i need you, baby
and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, you're haunting me
i guess i need you, baby
23:44
happy labour day. haha. not lame :/
just came home ! :) went out da WHOLE day. fer 12 plus hrs ! haha. cant believe myself. thought tday wld be quite boring ? but it ended up quite okay lah. yeap ! :) anw, last night didnt slp well cos my idiotic bro went ta lock da room door. so me & my sis cldnt slp in da room. ended up slping on da sofa. my poor sista slept on da bean bag ? however you spell it. heh. poor her ! only at 8 plus in da morn thn my stupid bro woke up & we got ta slp on da bed. walau.
alarm woke me at 0905 hrs. but i was so tired cos i didnt slp well on da sofa. so i just fell aslp ? at like 0939 hrs, mersa called me ? haha. was supp ta meet them at 1030 hrs laa. not late only. so got up & rushed laa. haha. yeap. luckily da stupid bus came in time. or else, i wld have met them much ltr. heh.
met mersa, peiyu & bernice at eunos mrt. cabbed dwn ta VJC. it was super boring ! their funfair was damn boring laa. walked ard a few times but didnt get ath. met yiling, weilin, doanna, vanns there. loads mre too ! :) afta walked fer like 1 hr we still got all our tics so we just wanted to hurry spend all da tics so we cld leave. haha. it was expected i guess ? spent all my money on food & drinks :\ hha. left there at ard 1300 hrs. yeap !
cabbed dwn ta heeren AGN. walau. cab fee not ex only laa. $9 ? haiis. took up so much of our money ! :| anw, walked at heeren. there was a HUGE sale. almost all da shops had sale ? like walau. but ended up buying nth. cos i decided not ta. yeap. took neos ! haha. not funny only laa. but as usual i looked horrible. haha. met eliza while waiting fer my neos ta be printed. yeap.
got creeps ltr on ! :) was super nice ! haha. saw jean danker agn. alwis seeing her there. walked ard & went ovr ta cine. bernice ate yoshi there. i got a drink. talked & crapped laa. as usual. off ta john little ta get sth afta tht. spent quite long there deciding which ones ta get. haha. bernice left with her family afta tht. cos they were there too. yupp. so me mersa & peiyu just shopped ard. haha. cldnt decide on which one ta get. but in da end i got laa. cos got 50% discount mah. so just got. yeap ! :)
left fer robinsons ta get white ones. wanted ta but .. they didnt have it there. plus it was super ex laa. so didnt get of cos. wonder whn our sqd's gna make sqd bra. haha. so exciting :] walked ta OG afta they paid fer their thgs. looked at da gio shirts. mersa wanted ta get but she cldnt make up her mind so we left first. cld come back ltr. went ovr ta taka nxt ! while walking met this lady who asked us ta get this horoscope card thgy. not abit crap with her only laa. haha. all three of us. lol. she not funny only. haha. was damn comical laa. in da end we also didnt get. yeap ! of cos. such a waste of money .. hehhs.
went ta taka ta eat yoshi. it was our dinner laa. talked
ALOT there ! alot alot ! spent like 2 hrs there unknowingly laa. haha. i feel bad now ! bitched abt
sm ppl. ehs. actually its abt quite a number of ppl laa. ohwells. im sry ! didnt mean ta. but glad i let it all out. feel so much lighter now ? haha.
wanted so much ta get our levis shirt so walked ovr ta lucky plaza, since it was da nearest. took us sucha hard time ta look fer da stall. not stupid only laa. climb up all da levels & in da end, it was on da first level which was da only level which we didnt check da directory :| went into da shop happily cos we thought we cld get tht damn nice shirt at $10 ?! in da end, tht guy told us tht shirt was only sold at heeren PLUS we cant use tht voucher we got on tht shirt. walau. our high hopes were like dragged dwn ? :/
walked & went into a gio shop agn. this time, peiyu saw sth she liked too so, we decided ta walk back ta OG ta get it cos there got 20% mah. if not must pay mre. haha. save money laa. passed paragon & decided ta go in ta take a look to see if they had slippers. wanted so much ta get slippers laa. in da end ? also dont have. argh. not irritating only laa. so left empty handed. oh ! saw molly leong there ! haha. not funny only laa. me & mersa went ovr ta say hi. haha. was laughing like crazy man ! :p left fer OG afta tht. tried on a couple of clothes laa. haha. cldnt make up our minds which one ta get. in da end, mersa got da black one, peiyu got da white one & i got da beige [?!] one. yeap ! haha. they both said it suits me da best. it was alr 2145 hrs by da time we left orchard laa. haha. im so prouda myself ! :) i didnt spend alot of money tday ! yay ! :))
mmhmmm. church tmrw ! :D hope i get ta see eyecandy ! :)) haha. its been awhile since he served mass man. hope he does it tmrw ! ;) oh ! jingyu ! i saw a bag which i want. haha. but i duno if its nice ? hha. nvm. one day i shall go shopping with you ! :) yay ! haha. cant wait ! a new bag ! finally ! x)
if you stand in front of a mirror with 11 roses, you'll see 12 of the most beautiful things in the world :)
every time i feel alone
i can blame it on you
and i do
oh you got me like a loaded gun
golden sun
and the sky's so blue
oh we both know
that we want it
but we both know
you left me no choice
chaque fois que tu t'en vas
you just bring me down
je pretends que tout va bien
so i count my tears
till i get over you
sometimes i watch the world go by
i wonder what it is like
oh .. to wake up every single day
smile on your face
you never try
we both know
we can't change it
but we both now
we'll just have to face it
chaque fois que tu t'en vas
you just bring me down
je pretends que tout va bien
so i'm counting my tears
till i get over you
if only i
could give you up
would i want to let you out?
from this soulbuzz baby
we both know
that we want it
but we both know
you left me no choice
chaque fois que tu t'en vas
you just bring me down
je pretends que tout va bien
oh so i'm counting my tears
till i get over you .. oh
chaque fois que tu t'en vas
je pretends que tout va bien
oh we both know
that i'm not over you
la de la de aye ay
i'm not over you
20040429
tday wasnt exactly great laa. but it was okay. i was pms-ing da whole damn fucking day laa. im sry ! haiis. just cldnt help it. sigh. ohwells. im sry pauline. i was just too .. ?! haiis. yarrs. sry. i just felt like .. ? like you said you didnt wna run thn sudd i see you running with jae. so i felt very like err ? duno how ta explain laa. just got damn pissed off. told you i was gna run afta drills but you like totally ignored it ? so .. yarrs. anw, im just sry laa. duno wht has gotten into me these few days. haiis. SORRY ! :/
had home econs. haha. realised how much i love home econs now. haha. think its damn fun ! haha :) got full marks agn ! :) yay ! haha. so happy lors ! ^five with shirlene ! haha. we both put in effort tgt so .. yeah. we deserved it laa :p
afta sch stayed with shuyu & sai. talked in justice fer awhile cos chenji & sokting was there. yeap.
sokting ! hey ! cheerups kay ? dont worry laa. vrethg will be just fine. dont broad ovr it yeah ? loveyaa ! :D
sai had ta leave so we headed dwn ta da canteen. had lunch with shuyu. sat same table as da sec3s. haha. they were discussing abt sth so we sat quite far frm them. ltr gillian joined us ! :) thn ed ! yeap ! walked out tgt. havent done tht in ages man. ohwells. crapped in da bus. me suhui & sokting alighted first. took 88. halfway my dad called & offered ta fetch me home ! so of cos i agreed laa. waited fer him fer a freaking long time laa. FINALLY afta like so many buses, he came. haha. came home bathed, did sm studying of chi & here im ! haha.
im STILL damn happy ! but maybe not so much now laa. cos of sth. but ohwells. at least this time IM da one who stopped replying. not da other way rnd. mmhmmm. i really got nth ta say alr ?! how ?! haiis. start a topic huh ? rahhs. duno laa. see how. im DAMN scared fer 2.4 tmrw laa !? i MUST beat this timing - 1306 ! haha. i knw i can do it ! mersa & i will do it tgt ! :) hopefully ! haiis. ohwells. i MUST beat it ! i cant let sai look dwn on me. haha. i must beat her ! LOL :) aiyah. but im still DAMN nervous ! haiis. duno wht ta do ! hope it wont be so heavy tmrw ! :|
where love ends there is always a new path to take ; where it brings you, your heart will only know.
20:25
20040428
HAHA. sth happend which totally cheered me up ! haha :))) so happy ! haha. JINGYU ! :D hahahahaha. so happy ! once in a lifetime man. hehhs. im gna rmb this ferever ! :) thanks panda fer talking sm sense into me. haha. i love her ! :) whee ! damn happy now ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! x))) hope this feeling wld never end man. haiis. thou its like gna be here only fer awhile. haiis. NVM. il think positive. just fer this time :)
there are some things in life that don't go the way you want them to or the way you think they should, but you can't dwell on these because you'll miss out on other opportunites. don't give up one something just because you don't think things will work, you won't know unless you give it a try. but don't hold onto something that left a long time ago, because sooner or later you'll realize some things just aren't meant to be.
22:30
maybe the reason why i haven't found who ive been searching for is because i know that ive already found him. it's just up to him to say whether i am who he has been waiting for ..
-points up.
sigh. duno why im feeling this way. haiis. jing ! x| this sucks man. i really think my sixth sense is correct this time. thou it has alwis been. haha. aiyahhs. whtevr laa. so shit. stupid rich ass. think he can reply as & whn he likes. argh.
he suck ! :| think pauline is so right man. im alwis kou shi xin fei -ing. rahhs. whtevr.
sch was
horrible tday i tell you. mrs sng
SUCKS ! argh. stupid bloody fucking asshole. walau. cause i forgot ta wear my PE shirt laa. so asked her if i cld go borrow. she said no. as expected. like whts new laa ? thn ltr on i wanted ta go borrow PE shirt with qin. so i walked off. but qin said by da time i did tht, da run wld have been ovr. so i walked back ta where mrs sng was & sat dwn. thn tht bloody fucking ass asked me if i had told mrs tan my reason fer not running. i said no. so she asked me ta go tell her NOW. so i did. told mrs tan and she, being so damn nice, told me ta run by myself & update her. haha. so nice right ? :) ANW, thts not da point. da point is tht whn i went back, tht bloody sng had a BLACK FACE !? walau. like whts her prob laa ? fuck man. thn ltr i was walking back to class with jing laa. thn she told me tht sng rolled her eyes at me while i walked away to tell mrs tan. like wtf ?! i was so damn pissed off can ? was waiting outside class fer jae cos she had da keys. heard smone shouting frm dwnstairs fer ppl ta go back to class. thought it was tian so didnt really bother laa. ltr i found out it was sng. like wth. afta walking up, she came into class & yelled at us. WTF man. think she's like meneporsing [?!] or sth ? walau eh ! come vent her anger on us ? bloody fucking ass ! thn she went on scolding jae, confiscating estee's phone, screaming at jialing or minfang & blah blah. walau. HATE her ! HATE HER ! irritating leh ! >|
mmhmmm. finally got ta talk ta my
hearttalker during clit tday ! :) whee ! missed her ! haha. had sqd drills during recess. whee ! :) discussed abt sth afta tht. went on running 2 rnds. rahhs. i stopped laa. & i not abit sway only. of all days tday ? WALAU. tday's really a bad bad day fer me ! :| damn it man. argh. 2.4 on friday leh ! -screams ! anw i MUST get a beta timing thn 13 44 ! i dont care ! i MUST ! i will imagine
tht person running in front of me & im gna out run her ! hope i can ! hurrs. mersa must help me ! x|
got back ting xie. at least it was one thg which cheered me up :) i won sai ! haha. as usual. pls lors. no big deal. tht small fry. lol. kidding ! :p caipoh was so damn nice laa. she bought my class oreo ! :D so damn nice ! haha. she's not tht bad tday laa. was quite nice. heh. oh. history test pushed back AGN. walau. thn chi test also pushed back. think da other sub also will be pushed back. haiis. whtevr laa.
afta sch went dee's haus ta do ipw. had so much fun laa. havent really laughed in ages. haiis. so busy thinking abt certain thgs which made me liddat. talked abt sm dirty shit & i realised tht chipeiqi is so dirty minded ! haha. but had loads of fun laa. haha. laughed alot ! x) but luckily we also completed da slides :) haha. reached home at 2045. haha. ate a lil' thn went ta bathe. haiis. i shldnt have ate man. height & weight this fri also. sucks laa. think i grew fatter ! :/ poo ! NOO ! :( haiis. hope i grew !
anw, gna watch american idol alr laa. not in da mood ta blog anymre. sigh. duno why i feeling so dwn now. argh. must be tht stupid idiot's fault. aiyahhs. whtevr laa.
i may have cried a million times since we haven't been together, but all the times you made me smile is what will remain in my heart forever.
-beeg sigh :(
20040427
haha. had a
great time ystd ! :) with qin, tingli, jingyu & da rest ! was
super fun ! x) haha. talked alot with qin & tingli :) abt
sm ppl. hha. yeap. qin is a naughty girl ! :p poo ! me too ! x) hehe. -winks at qin.
hha. sch was as usual laa. thn afta sch practised fer music. wahahahas. was damn funny. ltr on jingyu called :) she finally rmbed me ! haha. afta practising music, called irving. jing was talking laa. went macs ta meet him ltr on.
went playground with jingyu afta lunch ! :D was talking abt ms rockey's experience. haha. super cute ! XD anw, qin & her clique came. went ta da swing ta play ! :) was kinda feeling less stressed up afta tht :) went back ta macs. met jess, siewen & jialing. sat with them & revised a tiny lil' bit of math. thanks jialing ! :) went over ta sit with qin & tingli. started
talking. hehe ;) was quite fun laa. haha. woohoo x)
tday went quite well :) had music test just before recess. was
GREAT ! haha. we got an A ! :D haha. aiyahhs. expected laa :p lol. ms lee said it was good :))) had meeting during recess. met qin in da ava room. tht naughty girl ! x) haha. went back ta class & math class test started alr. continued with da test which totally sucked. realised how lousy i was at tht topic :/ poo ! this sucks. hafta go revise ! AND
no midyears ! :) whee ! hha.
was with kell & amanda ltr on. cos amanda joined us afta her ycs. i finally realised how much i miss sitting beside her ? all her crap & all ? sighh. i miss my ex-partner ! :( poo ! but at least she's updated now ! so am i ? i guess ? hehe. hope so :) cheerups kay amanda ! loveyaa ! SMILE dear ! :D oh. did i mention how
sweet she was ? she sent me & kell ta bishan mrt thn she went home ? so sweet ! thanks amanda ! :) sorry fer da trouble. hehhs.
went jeight fer awhile. bought sm stuff & left straight afta tht. cos i had ta rush home fer tuition. was a long way home :/ as usual. anw, was msging ming xia BUT .. haiis. cldnt get ath outta him. he also didnt knw. sighh.
stupid rich ass :| rahhs ! this sucks man. poo ! I DONT KNOW ! :/ ohwells. just finished tuition. ahh. chi test nxt week. i beta start studying ! x|
i
love qin ; amanda ; tingli ; jingyu ; jinghui ; womann ;
grass ; sixies plus EVERYONE plenty ! XD
22:07
20040425
woohooo. finally using da internet w/o worrying.
hahas. tday was okay laa.
considering tht i saw eyecandy.
cos i havent seen him in da last 2 weeks :l
hahas. yeap ! :)
last week of sch was gd man.
hahas. didnt have lsns fer like ever ?
almst da whole week laa.
as in fer my class.
cos there was a
pungsai attack.
lol ;) it was kinda like a blessing in disguise laa.
the matter was so blown up till .. ?!
ms choo act called MOE, MOH & anr ministry of sth.
wahahahahahahahas.
went fer cca ystd.
was okay laa. kinda slack.
beat
smone in da one rnd at da end.
^five with peiyu ! ;)
but jen & peiyu fell afta tht ?
cos they were rushing ta da water cooler.
hope your are okay now ! :)
hope your wounds heal faster k ? x)
loveyaaa ! woohooo.
finally got ta write in da sqd diary.
okies think il go surf ard. hahas.
im bored ! ltr got dinner ta attend.
ahh. BORING ! plain boring ! :/
16:20
[Shane:]
Yeah, ooooh...
We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby
You don't ever notice me turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are
[Shane (Westlife):]
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
[Bryan (Westlife):]
I've heard you talk about
(Heard you talk about)
How you want someone just like me (Bryan echo: just like me)
But everytime I ask you out
(Time I ask you out)
We never move pass friendly, no no
And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone
[Shane (Westlife):]
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
Yeah...
[Mark:]
You are my very first thought in the morning
[Shane:]
And my last at nightfall
[Mark:]
You are the love that came without warning
[Mark & Shane:]
I need you, I want you to know
[Shane (Westlife):]
I've made it obvious
So finally I'll sing it
(I've crushed on you so long)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
[Westlife:]
And sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more then adore you but since you never seem to see
[Shane:]
But you never seem to see
I'll say it in this love song