I'm gunning down romance.
It never did a thing for me,
but heartache and misery.
Ain't nothing but a tragedy.
just completed the stupid CME project which chng has been pushing for. bloody hell. it's just a fucking CME project i don't see why we are the only class who has to do it la. talk about being fair. fuck it la.
i guess everything has been pretty much the same. nothing much. school's been pretty stressful. i can't wait till o's is over. i'm just gonna party all night. & no one's gonna stop me. i'm NOT a jailbird, damn it. haha. rahhhh!
i shouldn't fall so deep. but yet, it's just so hard not to. i'm drowning in a whirlpool. i don't know what's gonna happen next. won't anyone save me?
sigh. i don't know. i really don't know. i'm sorry. i know i'm a total bitch. i'm bad, the worst. & you definately hate me now. but i can't help it. i'm sorry. i don't know what else to say. this conscience of mine is driving me crazy. i keep asking myself if i should stay or just walk away pretending nothing happened. i know i can't, but maybe i should. i don't want to. but.. i don't know. so many questions, but no answers. fuck it. someone shoot me, please. if only i didn't appear in that picture. maybe the whole situation wouldn't have been like this. i'm sorry. i really am. & now i question myself. why do i always turn out to be the bad guy? :(
do you really feel the same way i do?
i'm going crazy. head's spinning so bad. hurrrrrr.
i swear xuan's an idiot. she's been trying to take photos of me! like secretly! i know she so has a crush on me! hahaha. & stop calling me xiao chen! cause i'm not! rahhhhhh! >:/ xuan loves cheryl :D
i'm so looking forward to saturday! out with my sweetie! haha she got me many sweet stuff & for the ultimate excitement! i'm gonna get my spongebob square pants balloon! haha boy oh boy, am i excited or what? :D i love you from my house to church laaaa. haha :p
alright. i should start crawling to my bed now. i'm getting sleepy. & i'll definately be so worn out tomorrow. it's gonna be just another day. sigh.
I wonder if you know the pain,
to want the one thing you haven't got.
to my superhero, i love you so goddamned much :)