someone said .. "wallets are a lot like girls. you really have to take good care of, because if you wont, something might happen" ..
i know wht he means. i just lost a wallet, and i just lost a girl. you knw, its the exact same thing.
one day, you just realize its gone. you try to look for it everywhere, even going bek to the places where you cld have lost it.
you think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realisation : its really gone.
of course, you can hold on to some hope. aft all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who get it bek.
perhaps you cld become one of those people. you sit home and you hope tht someone wld call, and tht you wld get it back. but thn, some time passes, and you realise tht its still gone, and you realise tht its time to letgo.
the first few days, you turn to your friends for support. some tell you youll be ok, some tell you tht it was your fault and tht you shld have been more careful, and some tell you abt their own experiences.
they give you all sorts of advice, none you havent heard before.
you thn go out to find a new wallet, only to realise tht you dont really want a new one. you want the old one tht you lost.
no, you dont want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours, because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it.
you go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead. you throw away stuff that you wld have held on to if you had your old wallet. and thn, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
you thn start filling your new wallet, little by little. it still doesnt feel as comfortable as the old one, but its getting there.
thn you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet. soon enough, theres as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one. and thn, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet.
and then you realise tht youve almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet. sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet. but thn again, you dont remember the feeling of hurt tht you felt whn you lost it.
thts because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet. youre no longer holding on. this new wallet youre holding, it has all the important cards and pictures and stuff tht you need. this is your wallet.
and this time, you tell yourself, youre never losing this one.
mms. havent been blogging for a long long time. haha. ohwells. have been staying bek this whole week. studying wit mostly jingyu.qinn.kell. (: yupps. had fun la. haha. studying wit them is really great cos .. i duno. i trust them alot and so i tell them alot of stuff? yupps. they are such great friends. yea. and tht thg i posted on top is really nice and sweet. no ripping it off! hahas! ill come kill you! :P
mon : stayed bek wit jingyu.qinn.kell. told qinn so much. so much tht i cldnt take it anymre tht i cried. cant believe myself. sighh. till now i dont think the prob is solved cos i just found out smethg? haii. just knw tht someone is such a b i t c h ! just cant stand her anymre! so irritated. it all because of her tht all these happened. fuck. just dontknw wht the hell she wants frm vreone. frm other sch smemre! waliew. cant she just give the world peace? damnit. making life so difficult for allofus. argh. most of us la. not all. but who cares? argh! :|
anw jingyu saw me crying and wrote smethg to me. how sweet of her right? (: yea. thn heard frm qinn tht either kell or jingyu wanted to pour ice on me cos they wanted me to 'chill'? hahas. was laughing so bad whn i heard tht. ((: haha. theyre all so sweet and thoughtful. always making me laugh (: love them lotts and plenty plenty! last night jingyu tht silly woman called me on my handfone. talked to her for 17mins16secs. tht crazy woman was going insane! she was laughinglaughingLAUGHING and laughing like no one's bussiness! haha. she's so funny. really cheered me up. thnks dear (:
tues : stayed bek. as usual. hahas. but this time there was a huge grp of pple. yupps. lets see. mms. aft lessons went to qinn's class to look for them la. see if they were staying bek. thn they were la. so waited for them for so long. thn duno how come we got split up or smethg? thn in the end me and jingyu went to look for qinn they all agn? yupps.
saw lay. she came bek. she put on weight. haha. but ohwells. she looks pretty much the same la. yupps. thn waited and waited. thn kell tht gang came along. played bb. haha. so fun. esp playing wit char. :p hahas. shld knw why right? -grins. thn qinn.lay.cris.eliza they all left i think. cant remb clearly la. but i knw aft tht we played wit so much chalk and vrethg? yea.
went to canteen shortly aft. qinn.eliza.na.tab. was there. went over. studied for awhile. hahas. thn kell and siggy came along. mms. had fun wit tht big grp of pple la. oh! still got smemre! gillian.sai.ed. joined us shortly aft. yupps. thn ltr gillian tht gang and tab.na.eliza. left. talked agn. complained to qinn abt tht bitch agn. haha. qinn's such a lovely girl (: love her lotts and plenty! ohwells. thn went home wit jingyu. on the bus such a freaky thg happened tht made me blahblahblah agn. waliew. so damn freaky ok! waliew. the damn freaking world is getting mre and mre scary! ahh! helpp. ok. not going to think of it anymre cos the mre i say .. the mre i remb wht happened. -screams!
wed : aft sch went tp central the macs there to sorta 'study' la. wit ed.gillian.sai.shar.pauline.jingyu. they wanted to cab over so we hailed a cab. the freaking cab driver didnt allow the 6 of us to squeeze into the cab. so me and jingyu were left 'stranded' there. hahas. but nvm la. anw jingyu wanted to go bek to sch cos of smethg la. yupps. so me being so kind hearted and being her JIE decided to walk wit her bek to sch. how nice right? she shld be happy to have such a nice JIE. haha. :p im so crap. anw thn bought bread and i wanted wholemeal bread so i told the lady la. thn she started crapping abt tht type and bread and tht its healthy blahblahblah. yupps. thn she said "ni3 kan4 ta1 zhe4 me4 shou4. ying1 gai1 shi4 chi1 le4 hen3 duo1 jian4 kang1 de4 dong1 xi1 cai2 hui4 zhe4 yang4 shou4." like wth can! i think all of your eyes got prob one arh! im so fat! :/ ohwells.
thn me and jingyu cabbed over to tp. met them there and thn we left to get food. haha. we're always eating and eating non stop. (: now you see why im so fat right? yepps. hahas. walked and walked. got our food. went bek and crapped alot wit pauline. haha. whn we're together arh .. woah tian1 fan1 di4 fu4. hahas. laugh until so loud tht sai they all complained abt us! hahaha. was laughing like crap!
at ard 1630 liddat me and pauline left for sci tuition. woah walked a long long way there. told pauline alot of thgs. mostly abt wht happened to me the past few days la. yepps. love tht silly woman alotalot. she's so nice and understanding! (: -huggs! during tuition the tcher kept on saying "alryt". thn me and pauline was laughing and laughing like crap lors! waliew. so damn funny lehhs! hahaha. mms. thn aft tuition took mrt bek home. got my new wallet too (: yepps.
at night had conference. haha. been such a long time since we last had conference. so funny lehh! laughed like siao. thn we were talking and talking and tht
today : stayed bek wit qinn.jingyu.kell.siggy.shihui.char. these few pple really made me laugh like siao! haha. (: theyre so funny! mms. love them lotts too! hahas. yepps. complained to qinn alot agn. haha. wht can you expect right? she's so funny. make me laugh so much.
left sch at ard 6 plus. so early lors. i mean my
qinn : heyys dear! thnks for listening to vrethg tht i complained abt tht girl frm another sch to you. hahas. yupps. thnks! really! haha. loveyou lotts and plenty! (: yea. and oh yes! icantstandher! feel like slapping her damnit face. its all because of her tht these thgs happened! wtf! argh! :/ anw tkcare dear! iloveyou always! remb tht ill always be here for you. ohh yah! you owe me a letter on why youre so sad today! haha. yepps. remb kks? (: hehe. anw you must be wondering abt smethg tht i wrote in this post right? will tell you why i wrote it tmr kks? yupps. haha.
jingyu : heyys dear! you dont so sad la. remb wht you told me in the letter your wrote me? yea. so cheerup la. dont be so sad kks? thinking abt all your probs will only make you more confused. and whn youre more confused the more you wld think. and the more you think the worse you feel. and the worse you feel the more you wld wanta cut. aiyah duno la. just dontthink too much kks? anythg ill be here for you dear! yupps. tkcare and jielovesyoualways! (:
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kell : heyys! you dont think too much either. not gd! yupps. just take thgs slowly al alryt? yea. had fun these few days. thnks for being there (: loveyou lotts dear! -huggs.
jenn : gdluck! (:
nicol : heyys bestie! you dontthink too much too alryt? anythg can look for me. i promise ill always be there for you and tht ill try to help you wit your probs. but if you dont wna tell me thn nvm la. cos .. idontknw? just whtevr it is .. cherrup! yea. tkcare and iloveyou always dear! (:
natnat : heyys! thnks for the sweet. sorry i cldnt make it on wed. really sorry. ill try to make it nxt week kks? sorry. but cos now i have tuition thn .. aiyah bu4 fang1 bian4 la. yupps. sorry agn. and i found out tht both of us have the same thoughts! hahas (: you knw abt tht thg? hahas. great minds DO think alike. haha. so lame! anyhows, loveyou and see you! (: -huggs!
amanda : heyys dear! hahas. im finally blogging for you (: hahas. mms. sorry i cldnt make it on our day. really sorry. like wht i said to natnat la. haii. im sorry alryt? anw you tkcare kks? and ohh! try to make it for our tuition la! come lehhs! beggs. haha. ohwells. iloveyou plenty plenty my dear partner! (:
yingfen : heyys! if you evr read this. hahas. dontthink too much abt tht alr la. i mean tht thg has been bothering you throughout the whole of these week? or evn longer? but anyhow just cheerup la. idontwna see my dear partner so sad you knw? esp during lesson time. so quiet not nice! :/ so cheerup for vreone's sake la kks? yupps. and get away frm her la! she's making thgs worse! well, thts wht me and natnat think la. ohwells. tkcare! (:
cris : heyys! thnks for tht thg you posted in your blog. really sweet of you (: yepps. just wanted to say tht if youre ever sad try to not think of it and cheerup alryt? yea. tkcare and cheryllovescrisalways! (:
tab : heyys! you dont worry too much too la. thgs wld eventually get better i think? idontknw wht the situation is like now so .. sorry. just dontthink too much la. yupps. tkcare!