20030712
happy bdae
amanda! mydearpartner!
22:41
today
fate i hate it.
went for cca in the morning. haha cca today was fun though tiring. haha. was the first to be there cos jenn and wx not there yet. sat taxi cos my sister and i knew that we would not make it in time. haha. yepps. anw was waiting for jenn and wx when i saw wang lao shi. haha found out that she was one of the new sj tcher! whee! haha she's so nice! haha (: talked to her when jenn came too. haha she asked about sj. told her some crap lah. hehe then left for cca. before cca say the hockey girls. wanted to go down to hugg them and wish them good luck. when i was about to get off my seat we had to fall in. waliew. damn sway can! hurr. anw then had cca lah. haha. played basketball. damn funny lehs! hahahahaha. okay shant say it here but we were not interested to play. haha. mms. and the sec 3's are very very guo fen! cos we lost in the game and had to do something right? then thy made us do pole dancing loh! wth. i mean like so .. guo fen lehs! then we just stood there and did nothing. then they asked us to run 6 rounds around the bb court. fine lah. then we ran. fuck them loh. tai guo fen liao! seriously i think they very very guo fen! hurr. idiots! haha. mms but only sometimes they are nice. today they so damn mean can! waliew.
anw then had break. ltr had footdrills. waliew. damn xing ku can? but then .. haha wenxun was in good modd and we kept on laughing in squad. haha damn funny. enjoyed myself lah (: wish wenxun will stay like that every week mans! then cca would be so fun! hahaha. okay .. then me and jenn went to j8 after sj. she pei wo haha thanks jenn! (: anw damn funny lehs! went there then ate kfc. hahaha. then went to walk walk. waliew bought sweets worth $2.05 can! waliew. so ex lehs! hahahah. anw then went to seiyu. waliew love the hippo! oh my goodness! so soft can! ahhh. wanted to buy but then was too broke lah so .. did not get lah. then went to the sports section and i said something and jenn just said something wrong loh! instead of .. she said .. ! haha. damn funny. cant say it here cos i promised her i would not say it. haha. (: was laughing like siao can! hahahaha. anw walked at the err night market? yah .. mms. going to bring more money the next time then can buy the shorts. haha yepps.
then came back to school. got caught in the rain and i was already late! waliew. was all wet lehs when i got to school cos had duty mah. to usher the parents. haha. duty was fun. halfway cos got no one then we went in and started to talk to the tchers. haha zhong lao shi and wang lao shi. had fun talking to them! really! now then i realised that zhong lao shi is actually quite nice lehs! mms. dunno how come we seem to be able to communicate wit the tchers now lehs! haha (: so nice! esp wang lao shi. haha she's damn nice. haha. had fun. then my duty was supposed to be only till 4 then i stayed and helped them till 6 lah. haha. at 3 something we found out thru shan's mother that today was zhong lao shi's last day! waliew. then me and tab went to amk central to get zhong lao shi her present. waliew. had a hard time choosing lehs! hahahaha. in the end bought her a blackforest cake. haha. and this card and this soft toy duck! oh my goodness! damn cute lehs! ahhhhhh. haha. mms. was so crappy by then. haha dunno why.
then came back. haii. could not see jingyu cos i came back too late! haii could not get my hugg! ahhh. so sad lehs! haii. poor me |: haii anw continued duty and helped some pple to quan their parents not to see miss quek. and nicole is one really really lucky girl! waliew. her mother wanted to see miss quek but then the queue was really long then her mother left. cos i think nicole is very rude to miss quek one. so she damn lucky can! haha. yepps. anw tab is so poor thing lehs. haha. mms. then found out that chloe was 1st in class! waliew. she genius lehs! dont need to study or shall i say hardly study can get so high! waliew. haii so jealous! ahhh. not fair loh. i study like shit and this is what i get? 15th in class lehs! waliew. so damn lan can! hurr. but then only happy wit my chinese results! haha i got 81.5! yay! haha finally!!!!!! above 80! so happy! whee! (: haha. mms. then when all the parents have left then we celebrated zhong lao shi's err farewell? yepps. then woah ate the cake. haha was really funny lehs! mms. had fun lah. then told wang lao shi alot .. i mean quite alot of bad things about sj. hahahaha. she damn nice to talk to lehs!
then after we left cos was quite late liao then it was quite dark. then dunno who started the topic about ghost. haha then wang lao shi told us something. waliew. freaked us out can! samantha and jenn and tab ran away screaming! haha damn funny. then told wang lao shi something about our school. mms then we were to scared to continue, then we left lah. haha. mms will miss zhong lao shi a lil lah |: yepps. mms. then went j8 wit samantha and jenn again. haha went there for dinner. mms. ate kfc again. haha. then jenn went home after she got her food. then i walked around wit sam lah. mms. then walked pass the place where jenn said
that thing. haha was laughing like siao! mms then came home loh. was like falling asleep on the bus? haha. then this woman (i think) was laughing so loudly at the lame jokes they were cracking on tv loh! waliew. was so irritated. haha mms. anw havent came online yesterday. haha. mms. going to sign guestbooks now. mms. sorry could not sign yesterday.
yesterday
mms yesterday was quite a nice day lah. did not come online at all yesterday. could not lah. anw went to school. mms. reluctantly of course cos now .. err nvm. dont wna say it here lah. yepps. then had lessons. had to go collect this form during recess. damn sian can. then i went to collect lah. then skipped recess cos had to go back to class to do the notice board. sucks can! hurr. then bought a vanilla coke. was rushing when i opened the bottle when i did not notice there was this sharp thingy and it just cut right through my finger. waliew. damn pain can! ahhh. now its still hurts! very deep also. aiyoh .. so sway! hurr.
then did the board half way when mr koh came into class and told us we had to go to the err dunno what room to have lessons. waliew. and then the board had to be ready by the next day can! waliew. then rushed and rushed lah. and was late for lessons. haha. mms did not get scolded though. haha. anw lesson was boring but fun lah. haha laughed alot cos charlene was crapping so things behind wit us. haha she's one person who knows how to make pple laugh (: mms.
then after school went wit pauline and shar to chua chu kang stadium to support stef. watched and watched. haha it was easy spotting him cos he was the only chinese. haha the other 2 were malay or dunno what one lah. haha then he was the whitest? haha. yepps. mms. then he very guo fen lehs! said hi to pauline and shar did not say hi to me! waliew. so mean can! then cos pauline did not know that he said hi to him mah then after the whole thing pauline asked him why he did not say hi to us then he was like "who's cheryl?" waliew! he dont know who the hell i am when ive known him for like 1 over year!!!! waliew! was so disappointed loh! haii. what a friend. haha but nvm lah. anw he has not seen me before. too bad for him then. anw he did really well. got first for the triple jump and third for shot put i think? haha yepps. his parents were watching him so closely can! haha even video tape him lehs! hahaha. he looked cute from the front view lah. haha. congrats stef (:
then went j8 wit pauline to have dinner. did not have breakfast or lunch. haha. mms ate popcorn chicken! so yummy. haha kkaes. then came home. the moment i went home, took a bath then i left hse again. haha for cathetism lah. haii damn sian! but then its like getting more and more fun? dunno but they make us do ridiculous things! waliew. cos we had this acyivity we had to pass on this flower and say something nice about the person sitting beside you and the person who was supposed to pass me the flower was a guy?! waliew. was damn embarassing can! waliew. ahhhh. then sway sway change place ended up sitting wit a guy agin but this time had to say something bad about that person beside you. waliew. and in cathetism i dont talk one. really .. can go ask other pple there. anw then the boy said "try not to be so talkative!" waliew. i was like "!@#$%^&*()" i dont even talk loh! waliew. haha. anw was far too tired when i came home at like 10 something in the night and the computer was not on so .. yah did not bother lah.
then had a big fight mans at home. waliew. hope it does not happen again. but .. i cried. haii dunno lah. anw feeling better now. dont think ts worth |: haii really confused lah! eeks :/
20030710
feeling blue
haii today is the worst day. haii. i somehow felt that someone was trying to dao me. haii. nvm. its all .. argh forget it lah. hurr. so irritating. mms. anw today for bio damn fun. did experiments. chloe and jenn did the egg white thingy. so gross can and they said that the egg white stank and they asked me to smell it?! waliew. haha. anw pe was chao fun today. haha. played touch rugby again. haha when the ball came i just screamed and screamed. haha. damn funny. we lost anw. cos cos aiyah what else? nvm. our grp pple know lah. ritee? haha yepps. mms.
recess was horrible. at least to me. haii. dont wna talk about it. haii. then saw my sister and her friends wanted to sit next to our table loh. wtf. so irritating can? waliew. damn it lah. everytime see me like have to tell my sister one. so irritating. hurr. whatever. dismissed school at 1.30 today cos the computer got problem lah. waited for jenn to go off before we all left. haha. was asking chloe if i should go or not then they like keep saying "think you should go!" haha ohwells. maybe see how first lah. dont wna zuo dian deng pao lehs! hahahahahahaha. anw pauline! how can you yi jiao ta liang chuan? haha. kidding lah. hehe. kkaes. anw going to watch tv liao. haii. i hate today!
oh yah .. now my phone got problem lehs! hurr. stupid. haha but quite happy. hope my dad gets me a new phone. mms. sister said i should not get 8250. cos my dad say i could get it. mms see how lah. went to the nokia website just now and saw the 6220. waliew. damn cool can! got built iin camera and somemore can video! oh my goodness! i want that phone! ahhh. but i would be so happy if i can get a 6610. haha think its nicee. haii. hopefully lah. (:
arghh! who is this idiot who keeps on calling me but dont answer! waliew. my hp bills okay! wtf lah. just stop calling okay! hurr. call then i pick up then dont answer! wtf. hurr. my phone bills damn high liao can!
20:23
20030709
why do i have to think of you whenever i want to forget you?
mms. today is quite a okay day lah. haii. well all i know that i cheered up from yesterday. yepps. went to school. did not want to but had to. now i dunno why i seem to dread school so much. haii except the huggs i would get from some special pple. haha (: mms. anw school today was .. okay lah. haha damn funny. in the morning went to put back attendance late. waliew. all the stupid new tcher's fault lah. she took such a long time to get things done can! waliew. then she asked me to call all those pple who did not come. wtf. hurr. and my partner did not come! ahh. miss her like siao can?! amanda!!! haha hope to see her tmr. whee!
then went to put back attendance which was horrible! i was rushing cos 8 liao then ms quek was outside our class. then aiyah your know ms quek always teach damn fast one right? then my math already chao lan then i was running lah. then on my way saw miss lai or something. that history tcher lah. waliew. then she asked me "is there any shortcut to the staff room?" then i was like "no." then i wanted to rush off then i started to run then she shouted "ayee! wait for me lah. walk wit me lah!" waliew. then she so old liao then i had to wait so damn long for her to climb the stairs can? waliew. then ltr i hurried off. then after i took dwn everything on the paper which took me a long time cos 6 pple never come! then wanted to go back put attendance then mrs seet had to stop me and ask me to call the pple who have not reported their attendance yet. waliew. ran up and dwn okay! was sweating like siao can! hurr. somemore the start of the day leh! waliew! haha. mms then went back to class. missed some of the lessons. haii. but i still can catch up lah. then jenn became my partner of the day! whee! haha.
oh yah .. mr foo is going to comtinue being our art tcher! whee! haha. he chose our class! yay! haha think the other classes going to have miss gwee (??) haha that guides tcher. damn fierce one? yah. poor thing. haha i ke lian ni men wor! hahahaha. okay im so mean but .. whatever. haha. recess time had to go for this stupid meeting thing. waliew. then cos i was holding the newspaper wit stef dear's picture on it then .. guess shan and rui saw and the i was like "oi! cant see lah!" then this rui so irritating! had to say this "ayee shan. are you thinking what im thinking?" obviously they think he's my bf or something. waliew. come on loh. he's not okay! haha. he's someone else's! hehe. kkaes. hahahahaha. anw the stupid meeting took so much of my recess time can? hurr. then was looking high and low for pauline when i finally spotted her! haha. haii think my eye sight deproving lehs! ahhh. dont wna wear specs! mms.
anw went to jingyu's class to give her a hugg cos she got competition mah. yepps. see i so nicee can! haha. mms. mrs chan was so nice today! she gave out sweets to those who could answer her questions but .. i did not get cos was too busy talking to jenn lah. haha. then so stupid loh. had the test and im most likely going to fail it! minus 10 marks liao loh! wtf! then left so many blanks! fuck lah. hurr. so little time can. oh forget it. just hope i pass. (:
then during the one period math lesson i was kind of crazy! haha. cos so bored of math liao mah then decided to argue wit ms quek. haha. okay this is our conversation
me: ayee miss quek. we very tired of math liao leh. can let us rest this lesson?
ms quek: no lah! your already so far behind!
me: who say? you know our class going very very fast? purity slower okay!
ms quek: no who say?
me: i say lah. (whispered)fei hua.
ms quek: okay lah. then i let your take this time to do some self study.
me: thanks ms quek!! hahaha.
mms. see i so good huh. hahaha. then she let us off. haha. ms quek damn easy to bully lehs. oh yah my new chinese form tcher is okay lah but then .. she damn bad tempered lehs! waliew. lil bit thing then shout and shout! waliew! hurr. stupid lah. mms. then stayed back to do the notice board. haha was supposed to go j8 after that but then did not go lah cos tab and jenn did not want to go. then walked around school. haha. ate so much can? so fat!
im so fat! hurr. not going to eat tmr! haha. yepps. then went to library. haha. mms talked to jenn and tab there. looks like ive found more pple to talk to
personally! haha. they very nice to talk to! found out that i needed clothers! and
clothes haha. okay only tab and jenn knows what im talking about. haha. mms. nvm then.
pauline changed her phone to 8250! argh! stupid loh. my phone now got problem lehs! cos yesterday i dropped my phone on the floor and made a big huge whole on the wooden floor! eeks :/ haha. so now my phone got a lil problem lah. haha. so happy. hope it spoils soon then can get colour phone! whee! since my dad say "your phone is still okay why change?" so now its going to be not okay then .. haha. yepps. mms going to spoil my phone! whee! haha. cant wait. whatever. mms. then met the hockey girls while walking around school. yepps. haha. then went back wit teresa. mms stupid jingyu lah. cos i waving at her then hit into someone then she laugh at me! wtf loh. hurr. then did not get my huggs somemore! waliew. stupid jingyu lah! hurr. anw teresa damn funny can! haha. she's a nice girl! haha. so funny. was laughing the whole time wit her! haha. she's damn funny! opps. how many times have i said that? haha oh forget it. anw i know what to get for amanda liao! haha going to get her the mogu cushion! whee! haha jenn's so jealous. aiyah try to get it for you guys too kkaes? yepps. gtg now. haii only got so little time left. haii. |:
oh yah .. nicole reminded the new tcher that we are supposed to change monitor. haha. mms. think she wants to be monitor. have this really err .. feeling lah. haha i just know it. haha. then this sat have to stay back cos i have to usher the parents into the class! waliew. for the stupid parents meeting lah. hurr. |:
20:02
20030708
you think you know but you have no idea
argh! pauline!!! how could you have lost that letter! argh!!! you know its the first letter that i have actually opened up so much to someone? waliew. hurr. today is a bad bad day! ahhh. okay not cos of this. also cos of many things. just hope
that 4 people dont pick it up or not .. haii. i would be in so dead meat! pauline! hurr.
anw went to school today and was not in good mood was sulking the whole morning. jenn asked me to cheer up and even write me a letter. haii. sorry jenn kkaes? haii. have not been in good mood |: changed chinese tcher. not so bad lah but she's damn strict. haii. but she can control our class better. haha yepps. most likely our marks going to imnprove. amanda agrees wit me and luckily we not going to change place! whee. haha. we objected to it. i dont wna be seperate from my partner! my dear partner! haha okay. whatever. tmr not going to see my partner! im going to have no partner tmr! *sobs*
anw then had recess. waliew. the stupid tcher teach the chapter so damn fats and dont wna let us off for recess early? wif loh. hurr. then first thing i wanted to do was to pass pauline the letter. went to the canteen, saw jingyu and robx. asked them where pauline was and personally waled to her! passed her the letter! then went to buy drinks and get my food. waliew. then while i was eating i told pauline not to lose the letter! then!! waliew. she lost it! ahhhh. so shit loh. haii now im so worried that
they might pick it up! hope not or not .. im going to be dead meat! ahhh. pls pray for me |:
anw then had history. dunno what happen to mdm chue so this miss lai or lye took over. waliew. i tell you she damn boring and stupid! waliew. she was like talking to herself liddat lehs! haha. then when amanda told me that i started laughing and she started scolding me! waliew. then cos i did not bring my tb then i took out foolscap (??) paper to reply letters lah. then i got caught waliew. damn paiseh can? luckily she did not take my paper away! haha. anw jingyu! you know cos i was replying your letter i threw away 6 pieces of my writing paper? haha cos my handwriting not nice. haha i know i so waste paper but then .. aiyah. nvm loh. then went to sit wit jenn to share her wb. then .. once i left she started picking on amanda. haha poor girl. sorry (: then after she went thru the wb i went back to my seat. then she started picking on bernice. waliew. damn funny! then bernice argued back then the conversation was so funny lehs! was laughing like siao! hahahahaha. okay im going a lil nuts. hahahahaha. ohwells.
then had english. waliew got a bigg scolding from mrs chan. waliew. she said that our behaviour in the theatre was horrible esp our dressing! haha. she said got 3 types of pple. one of them is those who is bu nan bu nu. waliew. i was laughing like siao loh. then she said that we should encourage them not to dress liddat. waliew. then she said that we all were so horrible on that day and that we made her diu lian. waliew. but nvm lah. she's in bad mood. once i came into class and she was there she asked me where i went and she sounded so pissed off. waliew. anw then had this free period thingy. went to buy some stuff to make the board and when i came back to class pauline told me that she lost the letter! waliew. haii. then after school went to look for her again. then i was so scared that i just bent down and started crying. haii. sorry but i really cant control myself anymore. haii. thanks jingyu for asking if i was okay. obviously i was not okay. haii. nvm. wish i had cried more. haii. pls pray that they wont find it! ahh!
then went out. haha. then from then on went a lil crazy again! haahahhaha. i was crapping some shit abt the thing my sister was eating and we started laughing and laughing in the middle of the shopping centre. then i told the same thing to my dad and he laughed too. haha was really funny! hehe. sister went to collect her new specs. so ugly lehs! haha. i mean her old one looks nicer lah but .. she's the one wearing not me what .. so i heck lah ritee? yepps. anw did not check my eyes today. did not request for it. haha. maybe i'll check it on friday when my dad goes and collect his glasses. yepps. hope i dont need to wear specs! eeyer. i'll look horrible! hehe. anw really worried abt the letter! someone helpp!!! |: hope no one reads it or it ends up in the dustbin. or even better come back to us! all my hard work okay! and all my emotions and feelings inside! ahhh!
and oh yah! stef dear looks so funny in the chinese newspaper! ahhahahahahahahahaha. im so mean but .. haha he looks damn funny. think he looks much better in real life! and sometimes he's so sweet. haha like our conversation just now. haha. pauline! hehe. tell you tmr kkaes? (: whee! im saying this again.
hope no one reads the letter! |:
18:23
20030707
i never asked for this feeling. i never thought i would fall. i never knew how i felt, till the day you were gone. i was lost. i never asked for red roses, i wasn't looking for love. somehow i let my emotions take hold, and guess what all at once, im in love. i miss you so much, i long for your love. it's scares me cos my heart gets so weak, that i cant even breathe. how can you take things so easily? why did i act like you mattered? it was silly of me to believe, that if i just opened my heart, things would come naturally. i did not ask for love letters, so why did you give them to me? how could i let your intentions get over on me? oh how i hate what you have done. made me fall so deep in love. God knows you're the only one i want, that i love. so please just stop breaking my heart. how am i supposed to feel or what am i supposed to say? not too sure how it feels to handle everyday. think im going to break down soon if this gets carried away.
20:42
stop lying to yourself
mms. just watched finish the show
bao zi dan or something liddat lah. anw its the last episode. then (if you guys watched it before) they say that the chicken rice stall reopens on the 7th july and its today! haha. so qiao huh. okay its so lame. whatever. anw today woke up in the morning. had to mop the floor, as usual lah. hurr. thats why i hate staying at home. always stuck doing the house work. hurr. then went for lunch. woah ate alot and i mean
alot! eeks :/ going to grow so fat! help. haha nvm just dont eat during recess lah. haha.
anw then went to buy sweets. bought one big load of sweets! really. my mother spent like $45.60 on sweets alone? i mean titbits lah. haha. was so shocked. cos my mother say take anything your like. then i just took and took. haha. my brother took alot too. mms. going to take me ages to finish. but aiyah .. i did not forget your you know. haha bought mentos for your. see im so nicee! haha kkaes. whatever (:
then came home and watched tv the whole of today. haha. mms. this stupid jeffrey lah. so irritating. ask when we wna meet and say that he so long never see dwarfs liao. wtf? like so whatever loh. yah lah he very tall so what. so mean can? hurr. waliew. then i replied him and now he dont wna reply. haha who cares? whee. haha. mms. then last night i watched titanic. haii. such a nicee show. haii cried during the show. so sad can? haii. why why and why. mms. maybe pauline is right. its time i let go. haii dunno lah. cant bring myself to forget everything. the more i want to let go, the more i think of it. haii. life sucks loads. haii. my muscle damn pain lah. dont feel like typing liao. this shall be a short one. haha. and oh yah .. mms. cc, if youre obese then im elephant. and jenn i so did not look slim can? waliew. thought i looked horrible! eeyer! :|
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hurr. so pissed off. now i know. never should have trusted you! never ever gna tell you anything liao! just cos of a stupid reason and you dont wna .. oh forget it. whatever lah. i should have known |: i should have trusted her instead. haii. i made such a big mistake! never in my whole life have i ever dreamt that you are like that! ahhh |:
20030706
today is such a stupid day! ahhh. hurr. everyone's in a bad mood including me! whatever. and i had to get this mail. like wtf loh! ahhh. why must that person send me that mail? its nice but .. its just not the right time now. haii. maybe what the mail say is right ..
to those who are still holding on .. a sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. if he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. let go. haii. why why and why. why does it have to happen to me? this sucks. haii. this mail is so meaningful. haii everything they say even this ..
to those who are heartbroken .. heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. the challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them. haii but .. i just cant seem to. haii forget it. im just
useless lah. haii. just wrote a 3 and 1/4 pg long letter to pauline. poured all my feelings there. haii. anyhow to pauline ..
love hurts when you break up with someone. it hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. but love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel. yah. its in the email too. haii. pauline you will know what i mean after reading the letter lah kkaes? yepps. |: not in the mood liao. haii. everything is so unfair!
life's so unfair!
never say "iloveyou" if you don't care. never talk about feelings if they aren't there. never touch a life if you mean to break a heart . never look in the eye when all you do is lie. the cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...
22:55
today
today is a horrible day! supposed to be youth day issit? but hurr. my mood was horrible! its all my mother's fault! she very irritating lehs! everytime pple happy happy then she must spoil the whole day! waliew. woke up. was almost late for church liao. rushed there. then in church my stupid brother lah. make my mother angry then she walk off wit my hp! waliew. luckily she did not read my messages i think. hurr. then had mass wit the boring priest! waliew. stupid lah. why father richard dont serve mass. hurr. anw then my mother was saying in the car "if your dont know how to talk nicely then dont talk" then i was like thinking "fine lah. dont talk then dont talk lah. who wants to talk to you anw?" then i did not talk on the whole trip to compass point. haha. saw mrs fanando (??) there. the pri side tcher lah. she comes to the same church as me. haha. yepps. still did not say anything. was too pissed off to say anything. then bought food. argued wit my sister. hurr. then she and my brother sat at a diff table from us. waliew. i had to sit wit my mother and hear her nag at me. waliew. wtf loh. whatever.
then walked around for a present for my neighbour cos its her bdae. waliew. somemore is the young one i hate loh. so irritating. keep on bossing pple around. then asked my mother to buy so cheap cheap present for her. but then she bought something that cost $20 over? waliew. give me the money lah. waste it on some idiotic pple?! waliew. hurr. anw then me and my sister walked around for clothes cos my mum asked us to buy more tops cos we keep weariing the same one every week. haha. but i did not buy anything. my sister did though. this formal top. quite nicee lah. yepps. then dad did not allow me to go dwn to get icecream. got so pissed off wit him. hurr. haha. but in the end .. okay liao lah. then my mother started shouting at us agn. like whatever loh. so irritating. then she say we cant have dinner tonight cos we keep on complaining abt the food we have. fine lah dont eat then dont eat lah. can jian fei what. haha. anw dont feel like blogging now. think im going to reply pauline's letter liao. byee.
by breaking free will i be broken-hearted?
yesterday
mms. yesterday was okay lah. though i got to see my friends i somehow feel that .. haii forget it lah. aiyah pauline you know lah cos i sms-ed you right? during sing to the dawn? yah lah. haii dunno lah. anw went for sj in the morning. chao cool lehs. cca started at 10. then we just slacked and slacked. we did not do anything loh yesterday. haha just collected our uniforms and everything. waliew. and they could actually print my name wrongly?! waliew. print my "min" as "ming" waliew. wtf loh. hurr. the stupid uniform sucks. so ugly can? and the stupid skirt is so ugly! so long somemore loh. hurr. look so stupid in the skirt loh. waliew. hate the uniform. haha then we were given this walkaton. haha go school im going to collect money! haha me jenn and wx so must give kkaes? only need 30 pple. pls help lah. esp pauline! haha. the last time i help you so now you have to help me! hehe. kkaes. whatever lah.
anw had a hard time persuading my dad to come and take my things for me cos i have so many things to carry mah. then will look so crazy carying so many things to the concert? haha. then finally my dad gave in. haha whee! so happy. then we met up wit chloe and we went to change lah. except chloe. haha. yepps. then i think i wore so formal. eeyer. all wanxin's fault lah. dont let me wear my slippers. say dunno what they wont let you in. what shit lah. hurr |:
anw then went to amk mrt station to meet pauline. saw yingfen there. haha. she looked as though she was going for some sleepover or something. she wore something like a pyjamas loh. haha. so funny. was laughing like siao! hehe. then went onto the platform. called amanda. my partner! lovee her! haha (: whee. then she came and meet us lah. they took a freaking long time to come. waliew. waited for dunno how many trains to pass then they came. haha almost all of us wore skirt except teresa and chloe. then reen called. waliew. she made me wait for like 1 minute loh. on my hp! waliew. hurr. waste my phone bills! waliew. then went to city hall. waliew. the train was so packed! me and pauline almost could not squeeze in lehs! haha. we got seperated by the group though. haha. then we were talking lah. as usual. haii |: so sad loh. mms. then finally we got together again after the train was much emptier. haha dunno if theres such word or not but .. yah lah. then i was talking on the phone then this amanda teresa and tab were dunno talking about my figure. waliew. i so damn fat can?! waliew. haha. they siao liao. and
stupid teresa lah. take my place. haha im amanda's partner okay! haha. nvm lah. just kidding.
then waited at city hall for reen to come. waited so freaking long too. then chloe and wanxin deng dao bu nai fan then they went off. haha they got lost. then kept on calling jenn's hp. poor jenn (: haha. then anw reen looked so cutee! oh my goodness. haha. looked like a lil girl taking a train all by herself. damn funny lehs. then i forgot all about chew! im so sorry! but anw she saw us. haha luckily. so sorry. hehe.
then went for sing to the dawn lah. saw so many pple there and i was so paiseh cos my dressing was like so .. erm. dunno lah. but i thought i looked horrible! eeks :/ anw did not want pple to see me but in the end i was still seen by jingyu. waliew. was so paiseh loh. somemore me and jenn were hiding behind the pillar. haha how could she have seen us?! haha but anyhow gave her a hugg lah. (: whee. got my third hugg of the day. yay. haha then looked for kelly. gave her a hugg too. mms. she looks much better than last week. good lah. (: tk care kkaes? iloveyou. smile. haha. then saw celestia too. she was dressed like a reporter! oh my goodness! haha (: so funny.
mms then during sing to the dawn dunno how come i somehow felt so sad all of a sudden? aiyah pauline .. you know lah right? mms. sometimes i dunno what you are thinking. haii. seems like im in 2 diff world now |: felt so sad. thanks jenn for your concern. you actually asked me if i was okay. loveyou! thanks. youre one of the person who i feel that act care for me. thanks (: sing to the dawn was boring! i mean except vichai lah. he damn perverted lehs. haha but he was funny. did not watch the whole show actually. was thinking of something. wanted to cry but .. so many pple. haii. nvm. then during the 15 min interval i went to delifrance wit jenn, chloe and wx. was late when we came back. had to sit on top. waliew. so tiring lehs. somemore so high. but then .. haha. got a better view lah. hehe. pauline you should know what im talking abt lah right? mms but still did not make me feel better. then when they were thanking the pple. they said dunno what "thank you for the crew." then they pointed up then i was standing up at that moment and everyone stared up! waliew. so malu can? haha (:
anw then after the show finally got to eat my lunch! was like at 5 something and i did not even eat anything for that whole day! |: stomach was growling like siao. haha. anw then went to heeren. haha. shoped a little but did not buy anything. too broke lah. wanted to buy this shirt but .. too ex lah. cos branded mah. not for poor pple like me |: haii. nvm. then sat mrt back to school cos had to attend qihang. was late. haha. then ran all the way to the drama studio. so tiring lehs. mms. then once i went in, they off the lights! cld not see anything! luckily heard jingyu shouting my name. haha then sat beside her cos she reserved place for us mah. yepps. qihang was nicee! great job done mans! mms. at one point of time i was laughing till i hit my head on the chair. waliew. damn pain. had a headache after that which did not stop even when i was about to sleep. haii. anw then had break. haha went to the toilet. haha jingyu came like 1 minute later. then i was like "ayee jingyu. you come to the wrong toilet!" haha. damn funny. everyone was laughing! hehe. then so stupid lah. she wet her hand and put them on my neck. waliew. so wet can? then wet my whole shirt! waliew. haha but then wx helped me wet her back. haha (: but i did not ask her to do so loh jingyu. how can you any how say?! hurr |: haha.
anw then went to hugg pple after the show. jiayi was so pretty! haha. her acting damn good can? haha. yepps. mms. got alot of hugg yesterday. haha whee. cos saw so many pple mah. yepps. damn nicee (: but forgot to notice something! ahh. how could i have forgotten? hurr. nvm shall remember the next time. haha (: then walked out wit chloe, wx and her sister. haii then ltr cos i sitting opp side from them mah then had to go home myself. haii. alone. the feeling was .. like so gross loh. then thought alot. thought too much liao. almost ren bu zhu and cried while i was sitting 88 but held back my tears lah. cos so many pple was staring. yepps. haii dunno lah. but i need to talk to someone and pour all my feelings out! hope i will find someone one day .. soon.
then came home around 10.20 liddat. sister started to use the computer then. waliew. so cld not use lah. went to my room. tried on my sj uniform. the sizes were okay lah. the shirt fits perfectly! haha. mms. anw me so fat! ate so much sweet yesterday! ahhh. must jian fei. haha. kkaes. whatever. slept at around 12 something 1 liddat. was having headache still. haii. poor me |: